Meredith

Who is this guy and who does he think he is sneaking up on me like that? "Sensitivity, I like that in a stranger. Are you new here?" He's hot, a little bit too cocky though.

"Visiting. Confounded by all the rain and it's only my first day in town." Doesn't he know the reputation of this city? He's obviously not from around here.

"You get used to it."

"Makes me wanna stay in bed all day." Wow is he persistent. He is flirting already and I don't even know his name.

"We just met and already you're talking about bed. Not very subtle." Am I flirting back? Ha, I guess I am.

"Subtle has never been my strong suit. So, do you ever go out with co-workers?" Shit, I knew it was too good to be true. I am not going through that awkwardness ever again. I have learned my lesson.

"I, um, make it a rule not to." God damn it, why do I have to have morals?

"Then I am so glad that I don't work here." Oh…I am intrigued. His cocky attitude is so cocky that it's actually becoming sexy. How does he pull that off? It's probably that body. Hmmhmm, I'd like to get him naked in an on call room. Shut up, Meredith, get a hold of yourself. Play it cool.

"Are you hitting on me? In a hospital?" Yeah, that's cool. He doesn't suspect a thing. I hope I am not blushing.

"Would that be wrong?" Not in the slightest. Here is where I make my move.

"Meredith." Holy shit where did that come from? Derek? What the hell did Derek just punch that guy for? "What the hell was that?"

"That was Mark." Oh…OHHH that Mark, crap.

Mark

I have been here for an hour and already I hate this city. Does it ever stop raining? It better not ruin my jacket. How the hell am I going to find Addison in this place? Wow, who is that? I must have her. I don't even know what I just said. I hope she was impressed… "The guy's pretty much a goner right?"

"Sensitivity, I like that in a stranger. Are you new here?" Good, she's game. She's feisty, I like that.

"Visiting. Confounded by all the rain and it's only my first day in town." Maybe she'll feel sorry for me and take me in like a lost puppy or something or a handsome man looking for action. Either way.

"You get used to it." I like her attitude.

"Makes me wanna stay in bed all day." Why does it make me smile every time I say the word bed to a beautiful woman?

"Subtle has never been my strong suit. So, do you ever go out with co-workers?" Wait, what? I don't even work here. I just came to take Addison home.

"I, um, make it a rule not to." That makes no difference to me.

"Then I am so glad that I don't work here." I would have sex with me if I could, that was a great line and perfectly executed. I deserve an award.

"Are you hitting on me? In a hospital?" Oh please, honey, like you don't enjoy it? I see right through you.

"Would that be wrong?" I just can't contain myself. Oh look she's turning. She's smiling. I think we have got ourselves a winner.

"Meredith." BINGOO------OUCH!!! What the fuck was that? "What the hell was that?" My sentiments exactly!!

"That was Mark." Derek…crap.

Meredith

I cannot believe Derek punched Mark. What the hell was he thinking? Chief Webber is going to have his ass for this. There were a lot of people who witnessed it, including patient's families. I can't do this. It would kill Derek if I slept with Mark. Wait who said anything about sleeping with Mark? Oh hell, who am I kidding? If he asked, I wouldn't say no. I can't wait around for Derek forever while he's sleeping with his wife. I need to think of myself for once, nobody else but me.

Mark

I can't believe he punched me! I can't believe it hurt! Derek was never one to hit anyone. I never knew he had it in him. It must be the girl. Meredith. I should kick his ass just on principle. If it ever got back to New York that Derek Shepherd punched me they'd never let me hear the end of it. As soon as I stitch my face back up I have to go find Addison. There is no way I am letting an intern do it, I cannot afford to have a scar on my perfect face.

Meredith

Alex, George, Izzie, and Cristina are watching the goings-on between Meredith and Mark in the exam room.

"Why is he suturing his own face?" George asks.

"To turn me on," Cristina replies, not taking her eyes off of Mark.

Alex rolls his eyes, "Cause he's Mark Sloan. He's like the go-to plastic surgeon on the east coast."

"That's the guy Addison was sleeping with?" George says.

"You can't really blame her. Can you?" Izzie asks with a smile on her face.

"No, not really," Cristina smirks.

"Yes you can," George snips.

Meredith walks over to them, "McSexy wants an X-Ray to check for fractures and I think it's a bad idea if I take him." I would jump on him if I did, I just know it. I can't afford to get involved with him, it has bad news written all over it. He's here for Addison, not me. Why do they all want her?

George panics, "Why? Why?"

"I'm on it." Alex rushes off.

George clears his throat, "Why is it a bad idea?"

"McSexy??" Cristina asks.

"No?" I thought sexy is perfect.

"McYummy?" Izzie suggests.

Meredith & Cristina both say, "No."

I've got it, "McSteamy."

"Ahh there it is."

Izzie giggles, "Yep."

"Oh, I'm just choking back some McVomit." George says, disgusted.

I am so torn on what to do. I need to stop thinking about it. If he wants me, he can take me. I need some sex anyway. He looks like he'd be amazing in bed. Then he'll go back to New York and I will never have to hear from him again. If Derek finds out that's his problem. Oh god, what am I saying? I can't think this way, I just can't. I am too damaged. I am too hurt. I can't get involved with anyone even if it is for one night. It hurts too much. It hurts too much to be with anyone but him. I need time to heal.

Mark

Is this guy talking to me? Should I be paying attention? No, he is nothing. A mere intern. I don't care what he has to say. I just met the guy and he's sucking up. It's annoying. Good, there are no fractures. I have half a mind to sue his ass anyway. No, that would mean I would have to come back out to this god forsaken city. It's not worth it. Is this guy still talking to me? Holy shit, get out of my ass, son. No, there is no way I would move out here. I am taking Addison with me and I will never see this place again. Wait a second. Did he just say Craniodiaphyseal Dysplasia?

Mark

Addison, there she is. Ugh, so is Derek. That guy is everywhere. Was he this in the way back home? Good he's gone. Shit, she is running too. I have to stop her. She can't get away this easy. Not after what I have done to come here and take her back with me. "Oh come on, you're not even a little bit happy to see me?" How can she act like what we had meant nothing? Just like that it seems like she forgot everything.

"Go home! Whatever it is you came here to do, just drop it and leave." Drop it? How can she expect me to drop it? Doesn't she know how much I love her?

"Hey we all make mistakes Addison. All 3 of us…"

"Mark." No, don't let her interrupt.

"…but somehow, somehow I lost my best friend and the woman I loved."

"Please don't say that." She wants to act like it meant nothing. She wants to deny what we had.

"He doesn't know how we felt. He doesn't know you stayed with me after he left? How do you expect to work out a marriage if you can't even be honest with him?"

"Why are you here?" Isn't it obvious?

"For one reason. To bring you home. I miss you Addison." Please say you'll come, please, I need this.

"I'm in love with my husband Mark." Bullshit!

"But he's not in love with you. He's in love with that intern and he's not even trying to hide it. Why would even want to stick around for that?" Yeah walk away, you'll see I am right. You will be miserable and lonely. I am not waiting around forever for you. After tonight, I am going home.

Mer

What a miserable human being. I don't know why I even went to see him. Mom was right, he's nothing but scum. How dare he ask me if I need anything? I NEEDED a father, that's all I ever wanted. Not just a father, I wanted my father. He just proved to me once again I don't need him. I need something. I need a drink. I need a lot of drinks. I need to forget. I need to forget everything. There is no Derek, no Thatcher, no mom, no nothing I want in my thoughts right now. I need nothingness. I need peace. I need tequila.

Mark

I don't think Derek is every going to forgive me. I guess life will never be the same. She looks so sad. Is it because I am here or because of him? I can't even tell anymore. "Your marriage is over Addison. All you have to do is admit it. And you can come back home with me. I'm going to the bar across the street. Meet me there." Please make her come. I don't want to live without her. I can't live without her. Why must I be tormented? What have I done to deserve this? Why don't I ever get a chance to love and be loved? He gets it all. There she is, Meredith. Do I go sit down next to her? She looks so alone.

"This seat taken?" Of course it isn't taken, it's empty.

"I guess not." There she goes with the attitude again.

I need a drink. "Double Scotch. Single malt. You look sad."

"I just saw my father for the first time in 20 years." Ouch. So the perfect girl isn't so perfect after all. Maybe I should tell her about my father. No, she won't care. What does it matter? I am leaving in a few hours anyway.

"How'd that go?"

"Could've gone better. What are you still doing here?" I don't even know anymore.

"I'm hoping Addison shows up."

"You're still in love with her?" I wish I wasn't. It hurts too much.

"You're still in love with him." So there.

"She won't show you know." I know. I just was hoping this time it would be different. I can't have all the bad luck forever, can I?

"No?" I still want to believe. All I have is hope.

"He's not the kind of guy you leave if you can help it." No shit. What's so good about him anyway? I know him better than anyone. If they all knew things would be different.

"What if you're wrong? What if just this once … life comes down on the side of the dirty mistresses?" She looks so beautiful. She's so alone. Those eyes, there are pain in those eyes. I can take that pain away. Tonight. Just for tonight I could be the one to take that pain away. If only it is for a short while. If she'll have me. "Do you want to get out of here?"

Meredith

I wonder how many more shots Joe will let me have before I am cut off. I don't want to stop tonight. I don't want to go home. Not to that house. Not to the place that reminds me of how I feel right now. I want to be anywhere but there. I'd rather spend it here where I can just get away.

"This seat taken?" Great, just what I need. I suppose I will let him.

"I guess not." Maybe I could use the company, I don't know anymore.

"Double Scotch. Single malt." Ha, heard that one before. "You look sad." Don't I always?

"I just saw my father for the first time in 20 years." One of my many problems.

"How'd that go?" I don't even know what I was expecting from it anyway.

"Could've gone better. What are you still doing here?"

"I'm hoping Addison shows up." Poor guy, doesn't he know?

"You're still in love with her?"

"You're still in love with him." I can't help it. I wish I wasn't. It hurts too much.

"She won't show you know." That was harsh, I shouldn't have said that.

"No?"

"He's not the kind of guy you leave if you can help it." She will never leave him. He's too…he's too Derek. I feel bad for him. He looks so broken.

"What if you're wrong? What if just this once … life comes down on the side of the dirty mistresses?" I wish that were the case. It just isn't. People like us don't get good things. We just have to accept it. People like us just have to deal with it and roll with the punches. People like us just aren't meant to be happy. "Do you want to get out of here?"

There it is. The question. Do I take him up on it? Maybe tonight he needs this. Maybe tonight I need this. He's leaving soon anyway so it won't hurt to be each other's comfort even if it is for a little while. Maybe I don't want to be alone tonight. Maybe this is what I need in this moment. "You got a hotel room?"

"I could get one." Let's go.