If Bella Repented
I'm watching the world come crashing down
I'm seeing it through my dark-rimmed eyes
All of the walls that I've built up
Crumble around me with all of my lies.
You remember my past and all of my sin
You don't see regret, you don't see my pain
All you remember is all that I've been
And all you see is someone insane
But all of the deaths, all of the dreams
All of the nightmares, they're haunting me
They're holding me back, they're holding me broken
But there are some words that I haven't spoken
So much of my past, so many years
I wish I could go back, wish I could erase
I wish my remorseful, stinging tears
Of all my sins were the only trace
I can't change the past, but I can repent
Can't bring back to life those that I've sent
To an early grave, but I can remain
Forever and always, humbled in pain
But now I'm crying out to those I've hurt
Maybe this plea is completely in vain
But I'm begging you now
I don't want to live with this pain
Please forgive me and break these chains
Let me lead the life I never knew
I need you to forgive me and let me move on
Let me erase my past, let me start over new.