Hi, this is kind of an angst story, kind of not. It's Tai telling someone
(you) about his feelings for Sora. It's my first of the angst type (except
for the Matt/his dad ones, but those don't count), so it's not going to be
some masterpiece. I hope you like it! Here's 'The Best Guy Friend'.
Disclaimer: I don't own Digimon, but it's not like I ever said I did.
They say you aren't supposed to fall in love with your best friend. All that comes from it is a broken friendship, misunderstandings, heartbreak, confusion, and awkwardness. But, I couldn't help it. She's so, so, so...perfect, I guess is the word I'd use. (Not trying to sound like every other guy in love.) Sure, she's got her problems, like over stressing over small things, being a little shy at times, and, the one I think is the biggest problem, falling in love with the wrong guy.
When did it start? I don't really remember ever not liking her a little more then a friend should, although, I doubt I liked her like that when I was 4. I've known her most of my life, after all. (Out of the hospital, as she says) Why do I like her so much? She's smart, outgoing (you don't see this part of her until you know her well), very good in sports, and, despite what she may think, pretty. She is a great friend and always has been. She has always been there for me, and has told me things like I'm smart, or I'll make it in college without failing out in the first year.
Have I told anyone besides you about this? Before this, the only person I had confided in was Kari. She had read my journal, so I didn't really tell her, but from then on, I told her almost everything. She said that before she had read my journal, she had no idea I liked Sora. She said she thought maybe a crush that had been let go of after Jr. High, but she had no idea I loved her. She says the only times I've really showed the fact that I was crushing on Sora was that time she was kidnapped and the time I made a big deal about saying I was sorry to her. She says there were some small things too, but she only noticed because she's my sister, and observant.
Why don't I just tell her I like her, you ask? Well, I told you some reasons before, but Kari says those are just excuses. The main reason is this: she already has a boyfriend. He is my best friend, along with Sora. I would feel bad about ruining their relationship if I told her, and besides, I asked her out once, but she turned me down for him. I've seen her look at him, and him look at her. It's the "look of love". They hold hands and kiss in public. I feel all gross and hateful inside when they do. The feeling never stays long, though, because I could never hate her.
I can see them now, when they are older; a kid at 18, Sora not going to college because of money problems and the baby. I see Sora doing housework, miserable. I see Matt working crappy jobs, and having affairs. I see Sora taking him back each time he says he's sorry.
I almost feel guilty thinking these thoughts because, after all, they could have a normal life. I mean, they say love can concur all, and what do I know about love? I know love hurts. I know that it's true that it's better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all, because the hurt is almost OK when she's around. Even if the hurt will always be there. Why will the hurt always be there? Because I will always love her. And because I'm the 'best guy friend'. That's all I'll ever be. The best friend.
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OK, that was depressing for me, and I'm the one who wrote it! I know it was a little short, sorry about that. Please do me a favor and review to tell me what you thought of it. Thanks for reading! -taidigimon
Disclaimer: I don't own Digimon, but it's not like I ever said I did.
They say you aren't supposed to fall in love with your best friend. All that comes from it is a broken friendship, misunderstandings, heartbreak, confusion, and awkwardness. But, I couldn't help it. She's so, so, so...perfect, I guess is the word I'd use. (Not trying to sound like every other guy in love.) Sure, she's got her problems, like over stressing over small things, being a little shy at times, and, the one I think is the biggest problem, falling in love with the wrong guy.
When did it start? I don't really remember ever not liking her a little more then a friend should, although, I doubt I liked her like that when I was 4. I've known her most of my life, after all. (Out of the hospital, as she says) Why do I like her so much? She's smart, outgoing (you don't see this part of her until you know her well), very good in sports, and, despite what she may think, pretty. She is a great friend and always has been. She has always been there for me, and has told me things like I'm smart, or I'll make it in college without failing out in the first year.
Have I told anyone besides you about this? Before this, the only person I had confided in was Kari. She had read my journal, so I didn't really tell her, but from then on, I told her almost everything. She said that before she had read my journal, she had no idea I liked Sora. She said she thought maybe a crush that had been let go of after Jr. High, but she had no idea I loved her. She says the only times I've really showed the fact that I was crushing on Sora was that time she was kidnapped and the time I made a big deal about saying I was sorry to her. She says there were some small things too, but she only noticed because she's my sister, and observant.
Why don't I just tell her I like her, you ask? Well, I told you some reasons before, but Kari says those are just excuses. The main reason is this: she already has a boyfriend. He is my best friend, along with Sora. I would feel bad about ruining their relationship if I told her, and besides, I asked her out once, but she turned me down for him. I've seen her look at him, and him look at her. It's the "look of love". They hold hands and kiss in public. I feel all gross and hateful inside when they do. The feeling never stays long, though, because I could never hate her.
I can see them now, when they are older; a kid at 18, Sora not going to college because of money problems and the baby. I see Sora doing housework, miserable. I see Matt working crappy jobs, and having affairs. I see Sora taking him back each time he says he's sorry.
I almost feel guilty thinking these thoughts because, after all, they could have a normal life. I mean, they say love can concur all, and what do I know about love? I know love hurts. I know that it's true that it's better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all, because the hurt is almost OK when she's around. Even if the hurt will always be there. Why will the hurt always be there? Because I will always love her. And because I'm the 'best guy friend'. That's all I'll ever be. The best friend.
~*~
OK, that was depressing for me, and I'm the one who wrote it! I know it was a little short, sorry about that. Please do me a favor and review to tell me what you thought of it. Thanks for reading! -taidigimon