Kate settles in to a new life with Garrett. Love blossoms but so does grief, Irina's death takes a heavy toll. Kate copes threw her new love, but that too comes with an un-excepted price. For when Kate becomes impossibly pregnant she will have to fight for her life as her immortal body tries to change. A stunned Denali coven calls upon Carlisle Cullen to aid Kate. Most of the Denali family hope for some sort of abortion to be performed. Upon hearing this Kate desperately calls the only person she knows who will support her. With Bella's help Kate prepares to fight for her baby's life and her own.
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Chapter one of Beautiful Impossible: Grief.
Sacrifice details a gory end, worship to the gods.
I aim to please no gods; I aim to please no one.
I aim only to fight for one oh so worthy of my suffering.
It is not suicide but a noble loss for the one I love.
If life should have to end then I decide to end it for a purpose.
For the innocent and the weak, I do not parish as a tragedy but as a protector.
I know well the choice I make, and I am ready to commit to this sacrifice for the better.
For from death, comes life….
(By Alice Lin McLane)
Eternal life is something I take for granted too much. The gift of never losing yourself or the ones you love. But Immortal means to never die not to live forever, hard to understand I know. But it's a hard lesson I've been forced to learn. Irina did not live forever and she did not die, she was murdered and I refuse to believe it was for a cause. If death is a suitable punishment for a mistake then why are any of us still here?
"it is a great loss and I am sorry. But it could've been much worse" Carlisle said to me before we left the Cullen family.
I know that the encounter with the Volturi could have had a much worse outcome. We could all be dead right now, but I almost think death would be better than experiencing the grieving proses for a second time. I've never quite gotten over my mother's death and now Irina… I feel lost, my last words to Irina were words of haste and that is no good bye to your baby sister. I wish I could have just one more minute with her, just to apologia and tell her how much I love her and give a proper good bye.
I just need time to grieve.
"Kate" Garrett calls after me as we walk through the dense snowy forest "Kate stop, wait a minute talk to me"
He keeps following me and it's been almost an hour. If he cares for me this much it'll only hurt him more when he has to leave me. Garrett is strong, stubborn and willing to try anything, he's proven that much. But he'll try the animal diet and he'll ultimately fail. In the end he'll leave me to resume his old life style. I know this yet I let myself get more and more attached… hell I love him. I'm head over heels in something that'll hurt me, classic me.
I keep walking but he catches up to me and grabs hold of my arm stopping me. He's strong, a lot stronger than me but I have an advantage he doesn't. I give him a warning shock but it doesn't faze him.
"When it comes to protecting you that doesn't bother me, you should know that by now" Garrett tells me never loosening his grip.
"Protecting me from what?" I ask, a bit sharper than I meant to.
"Yourself" he states.
"I can handle myself!" I snap.
"Kate tell me if I didn't stop you here, would you have gone to the Volturi?" Garrett replies.
I narrow my eyes at him.
"Don't give me that look; tell me that isn't what you're thinking. To go kill Caius" he says.
He's right, he is completely right. I want to go to Volterra and rip Caius apart, slowly and painfully. I want to savor the moment and make sure he knows he's about to die, just like Irina did, just like my mother did. I want to burn him while he's still aware and watch it all happen. He's taken so much from me and now I want to take it back. But of course I would be the next to die.
I sigh and look off to the side.
"I know Katie; I know what you're going through. But I am not going to let you go on a suicide mission" he says sternly his bright ruby eyes on mine.
"How could you possibly know?" I say shaking my head.
He loosens his grip on my arm and slides his hand down to take hold of mine "do you know why I hate the British so much? Why I joined the war as a choice"
"You're a patriot, it's obvious" I say.
"No, it's deeper than that" he says "Shayla, she was my younger sister. She was only thirteen when they murdered her. I was with her when they attacked, we were only feet apart from each other she died and I lived. So I left my family and joined the army trying to get revenge. Trust me revenge isn't worth it, and it defiantly isn't worth your life"
"But Irina is" I say.
"Kate you can't think like that. Would Irina want you to risk your life? Think about the rest of your family Tanya, Eleazar, Carmen they are already suffering the loss of someone they love, do you really want to double that pain for them" Garrett tells me.
"Why do you care so much?" I ask.
"Because I'm in love with you, I've told you that. That's why I followed you here" He replies.
I sigh "but it'll never last"
"What do you mean?" he asks.
"I know you love me and you think you can live my life style, but it's not as simple as you think it is. When the thirst becomes too much you'll leave to feed on humans again. I can't let you stay and kill the humans here and I won't be enough to convince you to stop" I say.
He caresses my cheek "you shouldn't doubt me so much Katie. I love you and I won't let anything come between us"
"You say that now" I reply.
At that he cups my face in his hands and kisses me full on the lips. I feel an urge to push him away but an overwhelming urge to stay and kiss him back. I get lost in the feel of his lips brushing with mine.
He pulls away slightly his lips skim my forehead "I'll never leave you, I promise"
I can feel something radiating inside me and all over my body, tingling and burning. A feeling stronger than my gift. It pulses with desire, just screaming at me to be near him. This feeling is stronger than the grief; if I can make it continue then I won't have to suffer. I can distract myself…
"Kiss me" I whisper my voice thick. I reach up and bring our lips together again. I press my body against his my back arching to try and even out our height, he's so tall. One of his hands goes waist, the other tangles in my hair. Our kisses become heated and the feeling only becomes greater more demanding. We pull back panting for unneeded breaths. Garrett slides my shirt up and I allow him to pull it over my head. The black fabric is discarded in the snow.
I've never felt passion and desire like this before. I hook my fingers in the belt loops on his jeans and pull him back to me. Our lips collide in uncontrollable passion. I can't get enough of him the burning just keeps growing. I jump up on him wrapping my legs around his waist.
He stops our kisses briefly a crooked smile etched on his lips "easy Katie. There's no rush, we have forever"
"Let's pretend we only have night" I pant as I bring our lips together ounce more.
"I'm sorry" I sigh as we lie in the snow cold bodies pressed together.
"About what?" Garrett whispers as he places a kiss to the top of my head.
"running away from you, not listening to a word you said, you told me about your sister's death and I immediately changed the subject, and then you know I sort of took advantage of you to distract myself" I say looking away sheepishly.
"Don't be sorry, you're grieving, I'm just making sure your grieving doesn't go to the point of insanity. And you can 'take advantage of me' any time you want" he laughs.
I can't help but laugh too "I swear if you dare leave me now, I promise I'll hunt you down and you won't get far"
"I won't leave you, I'll convince you of that one way or another" he replies.
"Even if you can handle the blood lust, won't you miss traveling around, Nomad?" I ask, teasing him.
"Change is good" Garrett shrugs "but I do want to take you somewhere eventually"
"I've lived for over a thousand years, I've seen the world already" I say.
"And what's so special about here?" he asks.
"It's secluded, not many people live here. It's right on the border of Denali national park witch benefits our life style. And its home to me" I explain "the lights, I like the lights"
"Lights?" he questions.
I sit up then hugging my knees to my chest and stare down at him contently "come on, get dressed. I want to show you something"
"Oh, those lights" Garrett says as we stand on the mountain peak.
I smile, watching the colors dancing in the sky. I feel his arms slip around me and I lean against him, for some reason I feel safe in his arms. But the feeling can't last.
"I thought I might find you two up here" a soft voice says from behind us.
"Go away Tanya" I sigh.
"I come looking for my little sister out of concern and this is the thanks I get" she says humorously as she walks in to view. She's always been talented at hiding emotion, but I know she's hurting right now. Before Laurent came and took advantage of Irina's easily gained trust Tanya Irina and I were inseparable. Now that separation is permanent. I know Tanya feels the same way I do… broken.
I don't know how some people do this; grieve more than ounce for more than one person. I don't know if I can handle this. Looking at Tanya my ever over protective older sister, and feeling Garrett holding me close, my stubborn caring new lover. I know if I were to die they would have to live this pain that I'm feeling and I don't want that. But sometimes inducing pain on a few for the sake of one just has to happen…
Hi so i'm Divergent - Underworld 4ever. this is my first official Twilight fanfiction but I've written a lot more that I didn't share. I decided to share this one because I am a huge Kate and Garrett fan and I noticed for one a lack of Kate and Garrett sorties in total and I have found only one Kate and Garrett baby story, only one! can you guys believe that? so here is my story. I will try to update soon and I promise the next chapter things will start to get more interesting.
So please tell me what you think so far and i'll see you in the next chapter
oh and just saying for any Divergent fans I have a Divergent fanfiction called the Serum files