Title: Resolutions and Regrets
Author: AislingRiverRaven
Series: Gossip Girl
Pairing: Chuck/Blair, mentions of Blair/Jack
Rating: eventually NC-17
Timeline: AU after 2x14
Summary: After the scene on the roof, Chuck and Blair discover that they need each other. They get back together, and things start to look up. But didn't anyone tell Blair that what you do on New Years' comes back to haunt you all year long?
Disclaimer: I don't own Gossip Girl. If I did, Blair and Chuck would still be together.
Chapter 1
Blair's arms were shaking and her vision was blurred with tears. She shook her head wildly and closed her eyes, demanding that this all be a bad dream.
Everything was finally alright again. Well, as alright as things could be when her on-again, off-again boyfriend just lost his father and went through hell and back. After the stunt he pulled on the roof, after nearly losing him, she finally got him back. She had been his rock for the past month. She was helping him heal. Things were getting better.
Chuck was learning the ropes of running Bass Industries, like Bart has written in his will. Jack was decidedly pissed, but hadn't done anything...yet. With every passing day, Chuck became a little bit more confident, and he and Blair grew a little closer. They were both starting to get to a good place in their lives.
And then it all had to go to shit again. When Chuck found out...no. He wouldn't find out. He could never know about what happened between her and his uncle. It would distroy them. Worse, it would distroy him.
She looked at the pregnancy test again, and she knew it wasn't lying. She was pregnant. With Jack's demon spawn. How could she have let this happen?
Sure, when she was caught between Chuck and Nate, it was one thing. She was stupid, and even if she had been pregnant that time, she knew that she could have told Nate it was his, and he would've stepped up and been the responsible man his parents had raised him to be. Even if Eleanor had kicker her out, things could've been much worse.
But Jack...no. There was no way she could have her boyfriend's uncle's child. Even the relationship between Serena and Dan wasn't that screwed up, and they shared a sibling. Giving birth to Chuck's cousin was just out of the question.
She took a deep breath and forced the tears back. Even though it would kill her, she knew what she had to do. But she also knew she couldn't do it alone.
She put the pregnancy test down on the counter and picked up her phone. She scrolled through her contact list until she saw the name she needed.
Blair held her breath and ran a hand through messy brown curls while the phone rang.
"Hello?," a drowsy-sounding feminine voice said from the other end of the line.
"Serena," Blair said, her voice cracking, "I did something really stupid. I need you, I don't have anywhere else to turn..."
"Oh God, B. What happened? Are you okay?"
Blair shook her head, even though she knew that her best friend couldn't see it. "No," she said, trying to hold back tears. "I'm...I'm pregnant, and I need to...please come with me to the clinic..."
"Don't move, B," Serena replied. "I'll be right there. We'll get through this together. I promise."
Blair nodded and hung up the phone. She tossed the device to the floor, and then covered her face with her hands and cried.
She hated herself for killing her child, but she knew she'd hate herself even more for killing Chuck if he ever found out.
TBC...