One night Out

I Thought I'd Let You Know

By Angel Wing

Disclaimer: All standard disclaimers apply.

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A/N: I'm letting people know ahead of time. This is a semi-romance between Quatre and Dorothy. It won't be too mushy, and like some of my fics, it is a deathfic. That means someone is going to die! Argh! If you don't like these kinds of fics…please leave now. Thanx, now please sit back, relax, and enjoy the fic!

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Quatre's POV (His Diary)

I thought I'd let you know…

You're not the only one in this world. There are people who care about you. Why don't you let them in? You don't always have to be so strong.

I thought I'd let you know…

You are making me miserable. There is no other way to put it. You keep this cold exterior around you and nobody can break it. Try as I might, you still stand strong. I am so weak compared to you.

I though I'd let you know…

I'm leaving. There is no point in staying. I know you don't love me. It's just an illusion I cloud my mind with, and soon enough I start to believe it. We are kidding ourselves if we thought this could ever last.

I thought I'd let you know…

Angels feel the pain I feel when I look so lovingly at you and do not have the feelings returned. It is burrowing deeper and deeper into my soul. I can no longer stand it.

I thought I'd let you know…

I've learned a few things. The war gives you much insight to human emotions and when times are appropriate. I keep these feelings bottled up inside, hoping that one day…they'll just wash away, like sand on the beach beneath the crashing waves.

I though I'd let you know…

I hope you're happier where you are going to go. I know I will. A vast burden will have been lifted from my feeble shoulders. My time is drawing near.

I thought I'd let you know…

It's not the end, but only the beginning. You can start over, so young, so beautiful. I should stop saying those things, because it may sway your thoughts, compliments mean nothing if emotions are not put in them.

I thought I'd let you know…

The water is rushing beneath me and I feel this incredible freedom. Something I have never felt before. I can just speak out and do as I wish now. No limits, no boundaries…

I thought I'd let you know…

This is my last goodbye. This is my last 'I love you'. This is my last all. My existence was short, and half lived in a war. But in all it was worth it. Peace, calm, serenity. It is all worth it. Remember that.

Fin