California Dreaming

Disclaimer: I don't own Big Time Rush

Logan Mitchell was almost your average person. He was smart, and funny, and was average looking. There was only one problem. He was in love with his best friend, James Diamond. Logan didn't know how it had happened. Just slowly over time Logan guessed. Sure he could hope that someday things will be different, but it's today and Logan was just happy to be with him. He wasn't one of those people that are depressed because his love would never love him back. Logan was just happy to be around him, his smile, his personality, and his good heart. While dozing off on another one of his day dreams Carlos jumped in front of him and scared Logan.

"Hey buddy!" Carlos yelled. Logan rolled his eyes in response. He was honestly sick and tired of Carlos always getting the jump on him. Carlos was more of an annoyance to Logan. Sure they were friends but Carlos would always find some way to bug Logan.

"Hi," Logan said, his tone was very irritated.

"Hey, so Kendall, James, and I wanted to do a movie night tonight. Do you want to come?" Carlos asked. Logan sighed, and thought about it. Kendall would probably be next to Jo and Carlos would be next to Stephanie. That leaves him and James next to each other.

"Sure," Logan smiled. There was a huge uproar in the hallway. Before they knew it, James and Kendall flew through the door, screaming at each other.

"Please, like you and Jo are the perfect couple?" James yelled.

"Like you would know what a couple even is! You've never been in a steady relationship!" Kendall snapped right back. Kendall had grown very ignorant ever since they started Big Time Rush. His attitude had grown bigger and bigger from day one. He gloated every day about him and Jo, in fact that was all that came out of his mouth.

"Really? I think I recall me having about twenty girlfriends before we even came to California!" James screamed. Logan hated it when someone was yelling at James. He felt like he needed to protect James and be his knight in shining armor every now and then. "These muscles aren't just meant for show Knight!"

"So, your muscles aren't even real! I remember a chubby little boy-,"

"Kendall!" Logan tried to stop it before Kendall said something that would go too far.

"- freckly, red headed, with split ends, and bad acne! In fact, I see fat now!" Kendall finished. James sat in silence, while Carlos and Logan both stood in awe at Kendall. How could he say that to James? How heartless could Kendall actually be? Over a few more minutes of complete and utter silence, a tear ran down James' cheek. He flew into his room and the room was left with a pain easing in Logan's stomach. Kendall laughed once James left the room. "Serves him right." Kendall stated.

"Kendall!" Logan screamed again. The boy was caught off guard by Logan's shout. Logan followed into James' room and Kendall looked at Carlos, who was shaking his head no.

"Not cool." Carlos said…

Logan rushed into James' room. He saw that the lights in the bathroom were on; he could hear a slight sob coming from the room. Logan gave a knock on the door, which got no response.

"James?" Logan asked. "Are you okay?" The door opened a crack.

"Logan?" James asked. Logan nodded in response. The next thing he knew, he was being thrown by his wrist into the bathroom. "I can't believe he would say that to me?" James cried. He sat on the closed toilet. "He knows what I did. My first ten years alive were pure hell!" Logan had been told about it before, but he only knew about James being fat. He didn't know anything else.

"Was that all true?" Logan asked. James covered his face with his hands. He couldn't talk, but he did shake his head. Logan's heart had broke in two because of Kendall being so mean to the guy he loved. James finally looked at Logan.

"I was fat, had acne, red hair, freckles, and split ends. Hell, I even had glasses." James sniffed. "I bleached my freckles, dyed my hair and eyebrows, went on some fancy conditioner, and got contacts. I went on Proactive for my acne, and threw-up in my toilet every chance I got. Eventually, I started to work out." Logan kneeled down to his level, and grabbed his shoulders.

"You're still good looking, to me." Logan smiled at his friend. James looked up at him, looking like an abused puppy. Man he was so cute, even when he was crying.

"Like that changes how the rest of the world sees me. I'm getting fat again, just face it." Another tear cascaded down his cheek.

"No you're not," Logan wiped the tear from his face. James sighed and gave Logan another look.

"Will you turn around?" James asked. "I don't want you see me like this." Logan looked at James as he opened the toilet.

"Wait, wait, wait. Have you ever quit since you were a kid?" Logan asked, and James shook his head. At that answer, Logan almost barfed himself, he turned around. The next thing that was heard was the gagging sound and something hitting the toilet bowl. It was obvious what it was, but Logan liked to imagine he had just read something disgusting in a magazine while going to the bathroom. Once the noise quit Logan turned around and James flushed the toilet. There was still a chunk of puke on his face, which made Logan gag.

"I hate myself. I want to be done with doing this!" James yelled. Logan grabbed the towel from off of the sink and got it wet.

"Look," Logan started, wiping the vomit off of his mouth. "I will help you get over this until you've stopped. But until then, just know that you always have a friend. One who will stand by you through thick and thin." Logan threw his wet rag in the hamper. His friend looked up at him, his eyes full of hope.

"Thanks," James stayed down on the ground. "Logan, can I ask you something?"

"Yeah, sure." Logan said. "What?"

"Do you think it's stupid to wish on a shooting star? That someday everything will be better?" James looked at his friend. Logan smiled. "That you can dream about life being easier and care free?" James asked .

"Not if it's California dreaming." He smiled. James gave Logan a smile back and rolled his eyes. He sighed, and Logan opened the window.

"Let's find you that star." Logan said, and James' face lit up. Little did James know that Logan wanted to be that star.

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