Chapter 1

Lucy's P.O.V

Somewhere in my brain I knew that I should tell him how I was feeling about things. For the last year I had been having this ongoing battle between my heart and my brain. My brain was winning at first, but for some reason now felt like the time to tell the truth. He's been my best friend since I was ten years old. That's a long time for someone to get to know you and the other way around.

The reason we fit so perfectly together is so hard to explain. My whole life I just felt like we were always meant to be with each other somehow. He was everything you could possibly ask for in a man and just because I'm me I didn't have the courage to just ask him if he felt the same way. Usually I wasn't this nervous about things. I am " just so outspoken and don't let anyone step on you." Is the way Claire put it once. Embry is just a different story when it comes to my confidence level. Don't get me wrong we can talk for hours and I can feel totally comfortable but when I really look at his big brown eyes or his soft lips something inside of me, which I think are my nerves, just falls and shatters like broken glass.

Embry has a free spirit and acts like a kid all the time, until it comes down to his official werewolf business. That was the one thing that I didn't ever talk to him about, because he thinks I cant handle it. Looking at that now is probably why I don't ask him, because in his eyes I'm just some little girl he hangs with after school and watches on the weekends.

"Lucy hurry up." Yelled Hana " I'm not getting any younger down here." She was always the impatient one of our group.

"Hold on I just have to get my hoodie" I had managed to get myself distracted AGAIN. Now where the hell did I put that thing.

"Genius its down here on the table. I'm going to wait in you're car." After she said that I heard the front door slam. I wonder what had managed to crawl up her butt today.

Running down the stairs with my bag in hand I felt a little better about the whole Embry situation knowing I had my car, which my parents had bought me because "your only sixteen once and for some reason you are more responsible than you're brother was." Thank goodness Alex had been such a hellraiser or I wouldn't have been able to get away with so much. The party's Claire, Hana , and I went to were all thanks to Alex and his slutty girlfriend.

When I grabbed my hoodie and pulled the front door open a cold blast of wind hit me. I really don't know why every winter I could never get used to how frigid it was. The aftermath of the cold was beautiful though. My front yard was covered in what looked like white cotton candy. You didn't see this kind of thing down south where my mom was from. She would always say how there were just fields of land that you could just get lost in. The sun was probably what I wanted most to feel blistering on my skin just like she described it. We had only gone back to her hometown twice to see my grandparents for Christmas. The other times they just came here like they were now.

"Are you going to come and start this icebox up or stand there and let me freeze to death?" she definitely didn't sound like her carefree self today at all.

"If you keep acting like such a bitch maybe I will." I said not liking her new found snobbyness.

" I don't know what your talking about " she said in a matter of fact voice.

"Yeah. Sure you don't." Hana was to much like Seth and Embry so something had to be wrong.

"Can we just go I'm ready to get to Claire's and go to sleep."

I put my bag in the backseat then jumped in the front and started the car. Hana reached her bag and pulled out a rectangle looking object as I pulled out onto the road. I looked over to see that the rectangle object was her ipod.

"Oh you should turn on some Gaga." I said knowing that any of those songs would pull a smile onto her face.

She didn't say anything, only focused on whatever she was looking for. Then about ten seconds later some sort of heavy metal band that sounded like the music Paul tried to get me to listen to came on.

"What the hell!" I said completely surprised. Hana was not the punk rock type. Hana was the Taylor Swift or Justin Beiber type. "Did you raid Paul's car or something?"

"No. I just like this band." She sounded offended.

"Since when do you like this band?" I said not believing her at all.

"Since now. Why is it any of you're business anyways?" there goes that snobby attitude again.

"Why is it my business?" control you're anger Lucy you're almost at Claire's house. Wouldn't want to run over Emily's mailbox. "Its my business because you're my friend and your being mean when I haven't even done anything."

"Believe me when Quil and Embry decide to finally tell you and Hana you will be so pissed off." She said her voice a mixture between hurt and anger.

"What is it Hana?" Could someone finally have told her about the secret? If they had I guess this was a natural reaction. She had always been mine and Claire's friend, but only started hanging out with the whole pack three years ago when she was twelve and Claire and I were thirteen.

Her voice was muffled, but I think I might have heard her say something along the lines of "cant tell them he says , sorry I didn't tell you sooner he says" maybe she did find out , and it was most likely from Seth , because she was always closest to him.

"Hana you know that you can tell me anything right?I can handle it and so can Claire we are always here to listen." I really just wanted her to open up so she could release some of the stress.

" I would, but he said that I cant tell you some of it because you don't know the whole story." What was she talking about? Of course we know the whole story.

We were now parked in Emily's front yard. "Do you promise not to tell Quil and Embry that I told you guys?"

I gave her the duh look. "Hana how many times have we kept secrets from those guys just to spare them an unwanted heart attack?"

"I guess now we just need Claire to pinky swear." She said getting out of the car.

"Such things are easier said than done." That managed to get the side of her lip to raise.

I looked up at Emily and Claire's winter wonderland that was once their home. The Christmas lights were the only thing that they asked Sam's help for. Of course Sam do anything to keep his wife and niece happy. Claire moved in with Sam and Emily when she was ten so her parents wouldn't have to travel to far to take her to school.

I looked around some more and saw Jared and Kim's car and also Paul and Rachel's car. I thought I might have seen Jacob's car parked a little down the road but surely that was just my imagination because Jake and Nessie had not been here in almost two months. I missed Nessie and so did Claire. We had always seen here as a big sister even though we were older.

I grabbed the door handle and swung it open. I heard that taunting laugh I heard everyday. I turned around and sure enough Paul was standing next to the Christmas tree laughing at me.

"What?" I said utterly confused.

"You're whole face is completely white and you're lips are blue." Why was that so funny? Oh I know because this was me.

"Oh Paul that hurts so much." I said faking the emotion "What if I had hypothermia?"

" I'm sure Embry would prevent that from happening." He said with and evil grin. I knew I should have never asked him about my stupid crush.

"You can kiss my a…."

"As interesting as that would be to see I think you should go upstairs while the adults talk." Emily said with a smile on her beautiful scarred face.

"That's not fair Em. Paul gets to stay down here and listen." I said trying to settle the score.

"Good one Lucy. Bet you've been waiting to use that one haven't you?"

"Could both of you shutup. This is getting on my nerves." Hana said.

"Woah look who forgot to take their happy pills today." Kim said laughing.

"What's the matter Hana did you find out that Justin Beibers a girl?" Paul asked also laughing.

That had obviously done it for Hanas's patience today. She had started to cry. "You know why I'm mad you asshole, but you guys just have to keep pushing it don't you?" she didn't wait for anyone to answer "I am so sick of all this fake shit." With that she ran down the hall to Claire's room.

"Nice Paul. Real nice." I said now knowing for sure why she was mad.

" How was I supposed to know he told her?" He said

"You idiot. She's a hormonal teenager who can get her feelings crushed by the simplest things." Rachel said slapping the back of his head.

I heard and ow before I turned and made my way to Claire's room. When I got there I saw Hana sobbing on top of Claire and Quil leaving the room. Claire's face looked like an overjoyed toddler on Christmas morning while she mended to Hana.

" You both know don't you?" Hana asked sitting up looking at both of us.

I didn't want to lie to Hana so I decided to tell her the truth before Claire cut me off.

"Yes, but Lucy doesn't know everything yet." What the heck was she talking about? I've known since me eleventh birthday party.

"Seth said that you both didn't know about the imprinting." Hana said confused.

"When Quil heard Seth told you he decided he should tell me before you spilled the beans and I had a pretty good idea about it." Claire sounded like a love struck puppy.

"What are you guys talking about?" I didn't wait for an answer. "Claire you know I that I know about the guys."

"Not everything Lucy" I heard from a warm familiar voice behind me.