Disclaimer - Stephanie owns everything, I don't even have my own wifi.
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Oh my God, how could I be so stupid?
I would never, ever have thought that that was the reason why he gradually started losing interest in me; it crossed my mind, of course it did, but for it to be confirmed by him personally? Face to face. I couldn't even kid myself and ponder over it being a sick prank by Eric or something.
I wailed because I'm pathetic and I smothered my face in my awaiting, plush pillow merely because I could. I just want to leave this sick world with its twisted ways.
How could I have been so naïve? Nothing good lasts for ever and my perfect little bubble popped in front of my eyes and five significant years turned into five years of trash and wasted moments and opportunities.
My life had meaning, I knew what I was going to do and now, all those years of planning on what I was going to do with my life vanished into thin air. My life had no meaning anymore, no purpose.
Three hard knocks on the door interrupted my morbid musings, "What?" I shouted into the direction of the locked door, lifting my head up a fraction so the sound could travel towards whoever was knocking.
"Bella, honey?" Alice's hesitant voice sounded from the other side of the door. "It's been two days now, you haven't washed or eaten and I don't approve of you drinking on an empty stomach Bella, who do you think you're kidding?" I cuddled my Jack and Daniels closer.
"Bella. Open this God damned door now, for fucks sake! I don't need this! Not now!" Rose was close to screaming, her octave levels were going so high, she was pounding on the door over and over again.
"Leave me al-alone. I'm fine!" Ironically, my voice broke mid-sentence – proving I'm anything but.
"You cannot expect to scream the house down and think we're not going to say anything about it! You think your heart is broken? Seeing you like this – or hearing, in this case - and not being able to help is working on mine and Alice's emotions too you know!" Rose belted out and that was the last thing that was said before I listened to their footsteps fade away a few minutes later.
Minuets turned into hours and hours turned into another painful day.
I watched the pastel, baby blue walls turn into a deep and daunting colour.
I felt the temperature drop as the harsh white moon risen. I then continued to feel the temperature to gradually pick up when the sun decided to shine through the windows that faced the east. It casted a warm and loving look throughout the room and for the first time in days, I felt.
I felt suffocated in this spacious room; I felt starving from not eating, my throat felt sore and my mouth was dry from the lack of water; I felt sick from my three day booze binge. I felt shit but it was far better than the numbness that over took me for the past few days.
I crawled out of my bed and I instantly felt dizzy, glancing at my luminous alarm clock, I note that it has only just turned one in the afternoon.
I open the door and its dramatic creak alerted everyone that I have joined the living once more.
I stepped foot into the living room where both Rose and Alice looked up at me expectantly.
"Go get yourself ready," Rose demanded, "we're going out."
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A/N - updates will be pretty irregular but there will be at least one a week.