Important note: After reading the story again, ı decided that ı don't like the concept of this story. Therefore, I will delete this and write another one. Same characters, approximately same events, different plot and different literary language. This will be on air about 1 week and after that, this story will be replaced with another one.

Thanks for reading! This is my very first fanfic. Trust me, things will become interesting later . This chapter, I made the story's root. Therefore, Im forced to quote from Oban Star-Racer's last chapter.I recommend you both finish OSR and LOK. Please give some time both for me and my story. Sorry for potential grammar mistakes, Im doing my best!

03/12/2015 update: Fixed minor grammar mistakes and spellling errors. There may still some of them but I cant find them sorry. Improved general reading fluency.

03/22/2015 uptade: Full relaunch. I have completely rewrote this chapter. I have big plans for the story so I have to take big steps. I will relaunch ch2 as well, stay tuned! The plot have only a little bit changed, mainly same story.

17 May;

At last, all alone. Aah, how could I knew calmness and loneliness feels so good? I mean, four damn years. After I have defeated Kuvira, I thought I would feel the taste of comfort. Well, I was wrong.

Since its my first entry, lets start with myself. I'm Korra, the Avatar, master of all four elements. Sounds cool isn't it? But you know what, it's not. My duty is bring balance to the world but it's literally impossible since… Nevermind, I can mention it later.

At the start, I had a simple life. My perspective was simple as well. Beat the bad guys and everything will turn out to be okay. Don't blame me, its not my fault to think that way. They isolated me from the world for ridiciluous reasons. Aang wanted this they said. We won't let you out until you are ready they said. But they didn't bothered themselves to prepare me for the outer world. Their tenets about the world was a fairytale compared the cold stern realities of life. The Avatar of the wonderland. Hah.

Anyway, I learned the realities of the world, from the hard way. My bending had taken away( for a short time atleast), my connection with the past Avatars have gone and a part of my staminia have gone . Even thought I'm now a prodigy of all four elements, I really miss my physical strenght of my old days. Man, I miss my yought. Technically Im still young actually, Im a 26 years old chick. But in mental and in spirit, I feel much older. Even thought my escape from the South pole had happened only nine years ago, Its only a blurry memory now. So much had changed, and not everyone of us have managed to adapt the changes…

Congrats for me, I ended up being a paranoid. This cannot natural. Must some damn thing have to show up and screw up everything we make? Why we could not simply sit back and peacefully watch the balanced world? I wouldn't mind that if only it was me, or Aang, or Roku etc. Every single Avatar had forced to deal with serious problems of world. Some of them did this at very hard conditions, they spent everything they had. But was it worth? No! Aah, some peace finally. I will just sit back at my chair and have some rest. Wait what? Riot at Earth Kingdom? Decleraton of war from fire lord? Sipirit terror? Avatar, we have a problem, get your ass here. Come on people, whats wrong with you?

Im starting to think that some kind of organization is distorting the balance. Human nature cannot be that wonky. And believe me, ıf I find them, I will make sure that they will live for a loong time. Sometimes I'm scared of myself.

But hey, the situation isn't that bad. Im marrying with Mako! He is a godsent for me since the beginning. I love him so much, even more than Asami. Asami, well… she is gone. I don't even know that she is dead or alive but one thing is certain. She is gone. She have lost the depts of sipirit world. I sought her everywhere but it was useless. She is gone. All I have is Mako now. And I will not let him go, no matter what.

But my only way to find my inner serenity is passing throught to find this organization. There is obviously someone, or something, I'm not sure yet. But I'm sure that they exist and I will find them.

Korra closed her diary and streched tightly at her chair. She was living at a chalet for a while, far away from the crowd. But people were still visiting here for chat, advises, even for begging. I don't have money dorks, go beg someone else!

She calmed herself and looked the scene from the window. The sunset was washing over the tall buildings of the republic city and the hillsides of the mountain which her house had built. But in a few moments, her vision had turned into pitch blackness from that beautiful landscape. She knew that she was still in her house but her senses was telling something else. According to her senses, she was in some kind of void. Then, someone started to talk. His voice have echoed throught the void.

"Your inner resources amaze me, but you are destined not to defeat me ,Eva."

Korra heard a slightly cracking teenager voice.

"You know my real name?"

"I know everything about you, my dear child. For centuries I woved and unwoved the threads of time, just find you . You are my creation, my secret weapon my most trusted pupil."

The girl gasped. "But thats a lie!"

"Deep down, inside you know I speak the truth. Who else whoever refuse the Avatar's crown? I patiently waited in my cell these many years for I knew you would come Eva, to set me free."

You're lying, I wasn't even meant to race!"

"And yet you did , didn't you?"

"Rick's crash. It was you! You caused it!

"Yes. The human had the potential of win, but far too high opinion of himself to refuse the Avatar's throne . He had to be… . Removed."

For a moment, the conversation have buzzed and she missed some of the phrases.

"I have never been free." Whispered Eva. "You controlled everything!"

"You were free Eva. The loss of your mother and desertion of your father created a perfect alchemy, a blazing pain within you. Once in place I simply waited for this flame to reach Oban and set the entire galaxy in blaze."

Eva started to cry in pain. "My mom, it was you! You made her crush! You made her crush didn't you?!"

"She had to go, to bring out the best in you."

His voice got started to wave. And she suddenly woke up in shock like she fell a very high place and stroke the ground. She was panting heavily. She pushed herself to stand up and rushed to the mirror. The scene was terrifying.

Her face was full of sweat and she had entered the Avatar state. She quickly quitted the Avatar state and washed her face. After the sweat and panting gone, her mind became clear again.

She frowned;

"What was that? Is this a prediction? Did I see a fragment of past, or is it happening right now? And how, why,who? Aah, whats happening to me?

She stood up and toured the room madly.

Now insanity huh? Bring it on. Nobody dies a virgin afterall, life fucks us all. It seems life haven't done with me yet."

…

Meantime, in the darkest parts of her sipirit, an evil being was sniggering with satisfication. He was nothing but scattered red clouds but his power was enough for his plans.

"You didn't lost your mind, Avatar. It's just a part of our plan." He said with a cavernous voice.