Summary: Becky never had to question her beliefs… until now.
Disclaimer: Don't own Degrassi. 'Nuff said.
Author's Note: Alright, so I wrote this down in a notebook back during Showdown, but completely forgot about it until now. It's my first time writing Becky's POV.
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Crisis of Faith
By: Lady Azura
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Becky Baker never had to question her beliefs.
Ever.
As a Pastor's daughter, there had never been a reason to. Her father was a man of God; he spoke on behalf of Him and taught on behalf of Him. He found those who were lost and confused and showed them the path to righteousness.
Growing up, it had always fascinated her. While Luke fought to stay awake during early morning sermons, she would sit there with wide eyes, listening intently to her father's every word as he relayed God's message. The Lord had sacrificed himself for her sins, so that she could be saved from eternal damnation. There was something so very comforting about that, to know that no matter what, God's benevolent presence was looking out for her – that she would never be truly alone, and that someone would always love her.
Becky had never had to question her beliefs… until she came to Degrassi.
Everywhere she looked, there was sin. It permeated the halls like a plague – sex, drugs and violence, and a disturbing acceptance of sodomy. She didn't understand. She didn't understand any of it. Couldn't they see that they were dooming themselves? Even Clare Edwards, a fellow Christian, seemed to have strayed from God's path. She was dating an Atheist and, as if that wasn't enough, she'd had the misfortune of overhearing Clare talking to Alli one lunch about just how talented he was with his tongue. The thought made Becky cringe.
It was no secret that she didn't like Eli Goldsworthy, and she certainly didn't want to think about him in that way. It baffled her how he managed to get a girl like Clare at all. She seemed so sweet, and he… he was arrogant, manipulative and rude. Clearly Eli was a bad influence on her, slowly tainting her and making her fall from the path of good.
Then there was Adam.
The boy trapped in the wrong body.
But that didn't make any sense.
God made everyone in his own image. Adam should've been happy in his – her – body. And yet… that wasn't the case. Did that mean that God had made a mistake? But God didn't make mistakes.
It wasn't fair.
She'd finally found someone she could connect with; someone who was genuinely kind and sweet and made her heart flutter, it was all a lie.
Or was it?
She didn't know what to think. Nothing she said got through to Adam. He firmly believed he had been born in the wrong body.
What did that mean for her, then?
If she felt something for him, did that make her a lesbian?
But according to Adam, he was a boy "between the ears" even if his physical body said otherwise. So did that make her straight? If that was the case, then God had made a mistake.
Becky didn't know which answer she liked better. On one hand, if having feelings for Adam made her gay, then she would be committing a grave sin by being with him. But on the other hand… if God had given Adam the wrong body, then that meant that God wasn't perfect, and that everything she had been brought up to believe was a lie.
And she just wasn't ready to deal with that.
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I had a better version of this typed up before, but then my computer crashed and I lost it. Boo.
Anyway, I hope you guys enjoyed.
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