Disclaimer - I own nothing besides the plot and characters I made up! Original SVU characters on the show belong to Dick Wolfe

It was October 1st, the warm autumn air was blowing in New York. People were out walking in central park, on the streets, going shopping or working. The last one was for Olivia Benson, the best detective in the Special Victims Unit of Manhattan. She got out of her car and slammed the door. She made her way up to the 16th precinct steps.

Olivia hasn't been the same since Jenna. Jenna. Every time she heard that name, or thought about him, it hurt her. It cut through her like a sword. How could he leave her? How could he just go without saying good bye?

Olivia gets inside the bull pen and sits at her desk. Every time she looked across from her, she expected him to be sitting right there. She wanted him to be there with her. She wanted him to tell her it was all a bad dream.

"Liv." Fin said walking over to her desk. To him she looked worse than ever. She had lost weight and her complexion was pale. Even for her, she was always had that healthy glow. Her eyes looked muddy, dark circles like she hadn't slept in months, her eyes lost their usual chocolate brown, and she was weak. Olivia Benson was weak. That is something he would never hear anyone say, even himself.

The other week, Olivia needed help picking up a perp, who was her size, well her size on a good day. Fin had to guess she was 110-120 pounds now. Normally she could pick up someone at around 200 pounds. This man was 130 pounds.

"Olivia." Fin said again, but she didn't look up from her hands. "Hey why don't you head home." Fin said grabbing her coat for her.

"I'm fine." She whispered. She didn't take her eyes off the computer screen as she slowly typed up her DD5's.

"You sure?" Fin asked.

"Yeah." She said putting on a fake smile.

Fin left Olivia alone for the rest of the day. No new cases came in today, so they basically sat and caught up on paperwork. Fin and Munch were arguing over some conspiracy theory about JFK 's assassination being linked to Abraham Lincoln's.

"Liv why don't you head out." Munch said, looking at the clock which said 5:50.

Olivia just nodded, grabbed her coat and shut down her computer. She was leaving the precinct and someone bumped into her. She didn't bother saying sorry, she just continued walking away.

The man Olivia bumped into, walked into the bull pen like he owned the place. He saw Munch and Fin arguing over conspiracy theories. He saw Cragen locking up his office, and Huangs light still on in his.

Fin noticed the extra person in the room, the man however had his hood up and he was looking at the ground so his face couldn't be identified easily.

"Hi, can I help you?" Fin asked walking over to the man with the two other men in the squadroom following him.

"Is Olivia Benson here?" The man asked.

"No, may I ask who is looking for her." Cragen butted in.

The man looked up and took down his hood. Cragen, Munch and Fin's reactions were all the same. They gasped, they couldn't believe that Elliot Stabler was standing right in front of them after a year.

"Where's Liv?" Elliot asked.

Fin ran up to him and Cragen and Munch held him back. "I should kick your ass for leaving her! Do you realize what happened to her? She fell apart, Elliot. She was so depressed." Fin yelled. "I will kill you Stabler before I let her get close to you again."

"What do you mean?" Elliot asked.

"She has dark circles under her eyes

pale as hell, she is skinny, maybe 100-120 pounds, and thats pushing it. She doesnt eat or sleep. Shes depressed." Munch said letting go of Fin.

Elliot was shocked he couldn't believe that the woman he saw walking in the precinct was her. That woman was tiny, fragile, weak looking. Nothing like the Olivia like he knew. "She, she looked so weak." Elliot stumbled. "Guys I have to find her." Elliot said. "I have to see her I care about her."

"If you cared soo much El." Fin started, taunting him with his old nickname. " Why'd you leave in the first place? If you really cared, you wouldn't come back into her life, she is doing fine." Fin eyed him down. Him and Fin always used to butt heads but this was different. They both cared about Olivia in a different way.

It was like Fin was Olivia's older brother, and Elliot was the boy who could cause trouble, make the girl do crazy things and was the kid that the brother didn't like. So Fin thinks it's his job make sure that he scares Elliot away.

"Fin is right Elliot. You can't just walk back into her life. She- She's with Brian. She is finally starting to get back to normal." Cragen explained. Fin had a smug grin on his face showing he was proud.

"Shes with Cassidy?" Elliot asked completely dumbfounded.

"Yeah." Munch said. "Why don't you stay at my place for tonight, and tomorrow you can come see her."

"No I think Elliot should stay here. You can sleep in cribs." Cragen said, "But come back here after you find food. We need to talk about somethings."

Elliot nodded and followed Munch out of the bullpen to find some food. He walked into a little bistro where him and Olivia used to eat at all the time. He walked up to the counter and ran into someone again. Jeez he thought.

"Oops I'm sorry." The man said.

"Cassidy." Elliot said as the man looked at Elliot.

"Elliot." Brian couldn't believe that he was here. That he was alive. He hadn't seen Elliot in over a decade.

"How are you man?" Elliot asked.

"Going to Liv's. We have-" Brian said.

"I know, you guys are together." Elliot said looking down. His heart was broken, he loved her.

"Yeah. Hey, it was good to see you." Cassidy said holding out his hand, and Elliot took a hold of it, shaking it.

"Yeah it was good." Elliot smiled. Elliot started walking away but Cassidy caught his attention again.

"Does she know? That your back?" Brian asked. Worry filled his eyes, he knew that Elliot had feelings for her and that as soon as he was back he would lose Olivia.

"I never left." Elliot walked away. Brian hurried out of the bistro and to his car. He drove to Olivia's apartment.

Brian knew what he had to do. He knew he had lost the battle as soon as he saw Elliot's face. She would find out that he was back.

"Hey." Brian said as he opened the door and walked inside.

"Hi." Olivia smiled and tried to kiss him, but he pulled away. She gave him a confused look. "What's wrong Bri?"

"Liv, I talked to someone I haven't seen in forever tonight. Our conversation made me rethink our relationship. I think we need time..." Brian whispered.

Olivia had tears streaming down her face. He ran into someone who was better than her, who could love him and give him everything he needed. "I'm sorry." He whispered and kissed her forehead. He grabbed his coat and went out the door.

Olivia walked slowly over to her to her couch. She had lost him, first Elliot, now him. The only men who ever gave a damn about her, left. I pushed them away, she thought. I can't be loved.

She needed to get out of her apartment. She put on sweats and a pair of sneakers. She got into her car and drove to the precinct. The drive was short, but her mind was flooded with all these thoughts.

"Don, I want to come back." Elliot said as his former captain sat across from him.

"Elliot." Don looked up at him. " I would love for you to come back, but what about Benson? I mean you saw how Fin acted today when he saw you. Imagine if I just gave you your job back."

"Please. I went through a rough time. Kathy left me and moved with her boyfriend to North Dakota. I see the kids two times a year. Dammit Don, Eli isn't even mine. I promise you, I will not leave Olivia again! She is everything to me, I care about her. She was all I had left and I threw that away." Elliot put his face in his hands.

"I threw it away." Elliot started getting tears in his eyes and shook his head, " I thought we were getting closer, I was going to ask her to dinner that night. I was going to take her to her doorstep and kiss her. Tell her how I have felt since the minute she walked into the squadroom. After the divorce we hung out every day. Either I went to her house, she came to mine, we were the closest we have ever been. We- we sat there and had take out and watched cheesy movies, but you know, I never watched the movies, I just sat there and looked at her. I miss that. I miss her." Elliot was crying.

She pulled up to the bullpen and noticed that lights were on. She got out of her car and walked into the bullpen.

She took notice that the Captains light was on and him and someone else were talking. She waited outside his door and heard talking.

Cragen looked surprised but then his expression settled realizing that it was only a matter of time until it happened. "Elliot, I will talk to IAB, and then you have to go through an evaluation by Huang."

"I will do whatever it takes to be with her again-" Elliot said, and was about to continue but someone barged into the door.

Olivia stood in the doorway, her face was red from tear stains and she looked rough. She looked at Elliot Stabler, the man she hasn't seen in two years stand right in front of her.

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