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So… Where've I been for the past few weeks, eh? What've I been doing?

Well, I've been thinking. A lot.

Fanfiction no longer appeals to me as much as it once did. I used to check this page every day for new stories— no, at least three times a day— and yet now I barely look.

I don't read as much either. Classics or the books only just placed on Waterstones' shelves.

And that, to me… is upsetting.

I'm an entirely different to the person I once was just over a year ago when I made this account— desperate to publish the almost meaningless letters that had been contorted into words in an effort to pen (or to key, as I work on my laptop) a story, or as some of you might know to call it, City Of Infernal Games.

Well, that now has almost 24,000 views. Almost 73,000 words. 35 chapters. 231 reviews, 63 favourites and 82 follows. And now it is almost at a close.

And what of Love this Town? Well. It used to be so, so popular. I'd post a chapter before bed and upon awaking I'd be flooded with at least 15 reviews. FIFTEEN. In not even eight hours. It was an unbelievable thought.

And that took its toll on me, as did the length of the tale.

The story was no longer fun to write— it was an obligation, and that definitely showed in my work. The humour, that was probably the reason you, my dear reader, might have stayed, became strained and forced. I didn't know what I wanted to do with the plot, I only knew the ending. I wanted it over with. Finished. I wanted to give up.

But I won't. At least 160 of you were reading it and 123 of you have favourited. That's not just a number. That's a mass of people mangled and warped to form three numbers. And I never really understood that you were all individual people.

So I wanted a fresh start.

And I got one, whilst still working under the name of SilverCarstairs on this account that is now a well-known name across the TID fanfiction section, I penned a new name.

TMI

TID

School Fics.

And it was incoherently fun. It was a new start. I wasn't burdened my name anymore; I had no responsibility to be funny, or to write well. I could just write stupid stuff. And it would be okay.

So, here's the important bit, 417 words later.

I've been feeling incredibly insecure about myself, and I'm blinking back tears as I write this. I changed my real personality because I wanted to be perceived differently in my everyday life.

It's time for me to do the same here.

Running away from your problems is NOT THE ANSWER, but it's always worked for me.

So I'm doing it, right now.

And that's where my oddly creepy fanfiction bio comes in.

TMITIDSchoolFics has had the penname changed to SilverCarstairs2. And I'm going to enjoy posting weird, random crap on there. Just for now.

I'll still be continuing with my work on Love This Town, and I'll be finishing off City of Infernal Games too.

But then, I'm going to be taking a break.

I don't know whether writing under a new name and with a new account with pain me, but here's to thinking that it won't.

SilverCarstairs2 is all about YOU GUYS. What do YOU want from me, I'm pretty sure I'll do it.

I have so many (14, no joke) stories saved on my computer. And there's so many I feel just aren't good enough for SilverCarstairs.

I'm not pawning off crappy stories onto you via the side account. It's just some are with themes I'm a little insecure of posting on SilverCarstairs, as I have little or no experience with the subject manner.

*mentally raises imaginary glass*

Here's to the new me!

…The new us.

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—SilverCarstairs