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*Note* this story contains yaoi (in later chapters)...boyxboy

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Tears fell freely down my face and I welcomed the pain enveloping my senses. After all of it, I knew that I would reach my breaking point. But, I couldn't grasp why. Why had I done this to myself?

Lightning flashed overhead and the sprinkle of rain falling around me turned into a pounding downpour. Although I was under a tree, I ignored the storm and pulled my legs in tighter to my chest in a futile attempt to protect myself from the recollection of the words screeched at me earlier.

Those words would be the last I ever heard from my 'family.' At least, that's what I used to call them; them being my Team. "Team," I murmured aloud, "Yeah right." A low humorless chuckle escaped my throat. There was no way our group should have ever been considered a word such as 'team.' It was obvious from the beginning that none of them liked me let alone respected me of all people: the nine-tailed fox demon's vessel.

Of course, at some times, it would seem as if they would see me differently and maybe even see me for me. Sasuke almost died protecting me from Haku's attack. I don't think he would havedone that for someone he hated. But I guess the thoughts were temporary for they always went back to despising me. A few hours ago, they really put it all into perspective for their 'moronic' blonde 'friend.'

'Friend.' I scoffed at the word. No one was my friend. Who would want to be?

It hurt. It hurt so bad. Not being wanted or even needed. I never accomplished anything and probably never will except being hated by everyone; what a great reason to live!

The wallowing was getting to me. Spreading like a virus and I was the host. It was all coming back to me. We had several missions this morning, seven to be exact, and I, being my idiotic self, managed to turn them all into catastrophes. Needless to say Sasuke, Sakura, and Kakashi-sensei were fed up.

I tried to push back the stream of memories by attempting to create a dam with my goals in life. 'You're going to be Hokage Naruto! You can do it if you train hard and never give up!' A wave splashed over it. "Hokage? As if! You can't even complete a single D rank mission without screwing up everything!" Sakura's voice pierced my mind, "Give it up Naruto! Everyone, even you, knows that you'll never amount to anything!" The cracks in the dam were growing quickly and soon I feared there would be nothing left of it.

Realization reached me and immediately turned into hysterics. I covered my ears with my hands and began to shake. I knew what was coming. The next part was the worst.

"Sakura that's enough! Insulting him won't do anything," Kakashi-sensei spoke in his eerily calm voice."No!" everyone jumped when they heard he anger in Sasuke's voice. He was trembling with rage as he shouted at me, "He needs to know! He's obviously living in a dream-world if honestly he thinks he'll be Hokage someday! How does it feel Naruto to be the most worthless shinobi-no person to be alive? Have you figured it out that if by some miracle, one-in-a-million chance that you became Hokage, that everyone would still hate you? We'd all be better-off - no! a hundred times better-off if you would just leave! Believe it Naruto! You are the most pathetic, stupid, and downright hated person I've ever known!"

The cracks finally split open allowing in the rampant streams of pain and the walls of the damaged dam collapsed. I grasped my heart as the recollection hit me even harder than the first time. It was far worse than before because the second time I wasn't so numb.

Sasuke kept glaring into my eyes with a hatred I knew only too well. "And that includes my brother."I looked downwards at this but smiled softly.

"So that's how you really feel huh?" I looked over at Sakura and Kakashi-sensei who I guess were still shocked by Sasuke's speech considering their wide eyes and open mouths but…still; they could've said something...anything. "I'll take that as a yes, Sasuke?" He was silent.

"Then…you'll never see me again…believe it," I whispered half-heartedly. With that, I leapt away and began a dead sprint. I was glad to see the rain falling around me for it made it easier to fool myself into believing I wasn't crying.

Curled upon the wet ground, I sobbed miserably. I wanted Sasuke to say he didn't feel that way or at least to say yes but instead…he didn't even answer. I'd known why he said nothing, I just hadn't wanted to really let it sink in. "It's because I wasn't worth his time. I'm too worthless for him to even waste a one second reply on." I heaved out a broken sigh.

It was a long long time before the exhaustion finally set in and I lay down beneath the tree. Despite the water dripping from the leaves, I managed to fall into a deep sleep. The dreams were more than enticing after such a nightmare of a day.

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I apologize for typos and the like. My computer doesn't have spell check and I think I caught most of them...

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