Hello and welcome!
I am back with yet another oneshot!
I was reading my second Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories and it inspired me.
DISCLAIMER: I do not own the Kingdom Hearts series.
Basically Namine's thoughts on how she made the Replica the way he is.
I just sat there with my pencil and papers, drawing fake memories for that boy, sketching fake promises that he made to no one, portraying him down an endless path of confusion to oblivion. I'm hurting him, lying to him, connecting memories that aren't his. I'm connecting lies just to help them. I want to stop but I can't. I'm a pawn in his game, leading them down a way to their demise. When they are down, I'm not needed. I've been used and it kills me.
He helps me through it. Even though he is fake, I am too. Perfect for each other? I think not.
I am dangerous, hurting and pathetic.
A nobody. A fake. A shadow.
He is a shadow, I am nobody. He doesn't deserve this at all. He doesn't have a heart to break but I feel like I am. He fights for me against the boy with the keyblade. He's protecting me, fulfilling his fake promise that I implanted. Should I feel special? Cared? Loved? I don't. I feel awful. I am lying to him by making him lie to me.
He is my puppet, I'm the puppeteer. I can't cut the strings, the bond's too strong.
But I do feel for him. Maybe love, I'm not entirely sure.
Does he feel the same way? Or am I making him feel the same?
He says that he does love me. I know it's fake.
He is fake and so am I.
He says he'll protect me. From who? Myself?
You can't. I'll hurt you even more and you won't know it, Riku.
He is gone, a doll, just a lifeless puppet that the "mad scientist" created. I broke his heart, the thing he didn't have, the hole within him that I made, I drew.
I cried. I don't think I ever cried that hard before. I lost everything that I had, even though it was non-existent. Now my heart that I do not have is a puppet, being pulled and strangled, rather than controlled, by strings. Strings that I cannot cut, break, or stop. They tear me apart in every direction.
Heartache. Betrayal. Guilt. Hurt. Regret.
Feelings I have for my existence, controlling me from unknown places.
I am controlled by fate.
Fate is cruel.
Never be a pawn
Or you'll feel what I feel.
Nothing.
I started crying halfway through writing this.
I love NaminexRepRiku
R+R PLEASE!
Chikara