Beneath the Fire

Hey :) This is my first fanfiction xP. Sorry if it sucks. It'll take some getting used to. Idk if this is boring or not original or what D: Just review and stuff and let me know if I should bother continueing. Umm I don't own degrassi. Kai :P Review. Go ahead and criticize!

CLARE'S POV

I smile as the sun rises, revealing his exhausted body. We fell asleep on his couch after a night of many movies. He seems so at peace when he's asleep. I have learned to treasure this, as it's rare. Eli. That's his name. Eli is caring, sweet, sarcastic but funny, cute, and everything great under the sun.

But, at times, he can be a monster.

Even though I know he protects me because he cares, he can appear to behave like a caveman. He gets mad over the smallest of incidents and explodes on me. Later, he will try to talk to me as if nothing happened. It's hard for me to just forgive him after, but he expects me to.

His parents have basically become my parents as well, always there giving help and supporting me. They're such great people. I've always wished my parents could be like this. To have whatever they had in their relationship keeping them together.

I love him...but I haven't told him yet, and he hasn't told me.

He's bipolar, but he refuses to take his medication. I have given up on trying to get him to. I'm trying to help him heal, but he thinks I portray him as crazy and weak. Maybe because he is!

No, it's wrong of me to say that. He has a condition.

He's recently forgiven Fitz, the guy who nearly stabbed him. That took a lot of convincing and apologizing. Fitz has changed a lot. He seems almost appealing, and attracti-

"Hey, what are you doing up so early?" Eli smirked, blinking away exhaustion, and breaking my train of thought

"Oh, just thinking," I smiled.

Eli gave me a much needed kiss and lied back down.

Hm. That was odd. I didn't get that burning sensation I normally get. The spark, you know? Maybe I'm just tired. I drifted off back to sleep...

THE NEXT DAY AT SCHOOL

I see Eli leaning against my locker.

Ugh, when did he become so clingy.

Hey leans in to kiss me. but I dodge.

"Clare, what's wrong?" Eli asks, looking at me questioningly.

"Nothing, just, my lips are dry," I lie.

"Heh, when have I ever cared," he smirks, gazing at me.

I look around the hall, searching for an escape.

There's Fitz walking down the hall.

Fitz gives me a light smile and stares. I stare back. My heart rate speeds up and my mouth slightly opens as my eyes follow him. My face turns red as a cherry and I'm snapped out of my trance when Eli says,

"Clare," with a firm, angry voice.

He must have seen who I was staring at.

My body hasn't acted this way since I first met Eli.

That feeling I used to get with Eli has long gone now. Maybe it was because was getting used to it with him?

There was something about Fitz' soft brown eyes and toned body that really got to me! He'd found Jesus and totally changed. He was sweet, funny, and easy going.

All the things Eli is (despite Christian). Well, when he's not having an episode, throwing his guitar across the room.

Lately, Eli's just been so suffocating and intense. I feel like I need a break! I could never tell Eli that. He'd explode.

"CLARE!", Eli screams, tears in his eyes, as all eyes are on us.

"Why were you just staring at Fitz?" Eli asks in a hush tone.

"I was just going to ask him something," I lie, face flushed wondering if I'd be caught.

Eli's face calms and he says,"Oh, well we'd better head to english," he gives me a quick kiss and I have a disgusted look.

Exhibit A! He explodes and bounces back!

I wonder what it would be like if I broke it off with Eli and tried Fitz. Eli and I have been together long enough...but I love him?

Please review :D I don't mind criticism etc.. just lemme know :P