AN: This is definitely one of my shorter fics. I wrote this as a vent-story; I hope it turned out okay. I tried to keep things in character. If I remember correctly, in XxxHolic, Sakura states that she saw Fai's past in a dream. I may have misunderstood, or I am completely making stuff up, but that's what certain lines are referring to. I tried a new writing style… By the way, the second to last line is NOT FaixSakura! I view them strictly as a MotherxDaughter (yes, even though Fai is a man xD) relationship!
DISCLAIMER: I do not own Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles, that belongs to the lovely ladies of CLAMP.
The final thing I see before closing my eyes is the look of despair and hatred upon your face.
The sight of tears streaming down your cheeks is enough to break my heart.
I keep telling myself this is the only way; that nothing else could save you.
I open my eyes and see nothing.
All around me there is darkness…much like your past.
When I was enlightened by the truth, I wanted nothing more than to hold you tight.
Instead I kept silent cries, because I knew it would kill you inside.
I'm not smart like Syaoran-kun, or intuitive like Kurogane-san.
I never saw the signs; never knew your pain.
You kept on smiling, just for us, even when you wanted to fall apart.
You comforted me when you most needed it, yet never once did you complain.
You're always there for me, but where was I in your time of crisis?
If it weren't for me, your life would be different.
I hear footsteps coming, so I must dry my eyes.
This needs to be Dreams if we are to be set free.
Please, whoever is coming, tell me: have I succeeded?
Good-bye my dearest Fai-san; I'm sorry for all that I have put you through.
I promise things will get better; for you have Kurogane-san, Syaoran-kun, and Mokona too.
Don't forget me; I love you too much.
There is only one thing I ask: can you forgive me?