Admitting Love

Nothing has really been the same between Raphael and Spike ever since Spike has been mutated into a mutant teenage turtle a few months ago...as well as finding out that Spike was actually a girl. It all began when Spike went missing, Raph went insane, found Spike getting mutated by The Krang and finding out Spike had been a girl all of this time. Despite this though, she doesn't mind being called Spike. She was okay with it. Over the time, Raphael had gone from thinking of Spike as a pet to Spike as someone so important.

Now Spike could talk. She could walk and run. She was now training in Ninjitsu along with the rest of the family. April was no longer the only girl the turtles knew. Spike had also developed nicely; had developed breasts as any female would, had curvy hips and looked very feminine and well...beautiful for...a mutant turtle and for a girl in general. Within those months, Raphael had began to develop feelings for Spike, as Spike did the same. While the rest of Raph's brothers and Splinter himself wanted to consider Spike a sister, Raph didn't want that. There's a reason why Raph was more sensitive and more protecting when he's with Spike. There's a reason why he's not as much as a brute or a hot head when he's with Spike. He wanted something...a bit more.

He wanted her love.

It was late at night, and Spike was awake. She couldn't sleep due to a nightmare she had about a gruesome death of Raphael and herself. She as well wanted Raph. But what would the other turtles think? Would they hold it against her for having feelings for someone they considered related? Truth be told, she was mutated at a different time then the other turtles and a different Mutagen had made her a Mutant, so that wouldn't make her related to the Turtles...or so she thought.

"It was just a dream..." Spike thought, gasping for air from her nightmare. "It was just a dream..." She looked up to see Raphael wasn't in his bed sleeping. (Since there were no rooms left, Raph and Spike had been sharing a room, but with two different beds.) Spike knew that Raph and his brothers would go out at night and protect New York from the Krang, Foot Clan, Purple Dragons and/or any other criminal the turtles have come across...even if Leo had a little secret fling with Karai, The Shredder's Daughter. But it was 2:00 AM. The Turtles should be back by now. Spike got out of her bed to check if the other turtles were sleeping. She quietly got into Donnie's room first. Sure enough, Donnie had fallen asleep in his own chair while on the computer.

"Typical Donnie..." Spike thought. She went over to Donnie's bed and grabbed a blanket, shortly placing a blanket on Donnie's lap. Spike then left Donnie's room and entered Mikey's room. Mikey's room was a mess, but Mikey was there. sleeping peacefully. Spike then left Mikey's room and went to Fearless Leader Leonardo's room. And sure enough, he was asleep.

Spike didn't get it. Where's Raphael? Spike left Leonardo's room. She turned around and found Raphael beside her.

"Raphael?" Spike asked quietly.

"What are you doing up?" Raphael asked quietly. Spike took a deep breath, then breathed out.

"I woke up from a nightmare," She responded oh so quietly. "I couldn't find you in my room, so I went to look for you." Raphael moved closer to Spike.

"Well I did sneak out just for a little bit on my own," Raphael whispered softly. He noticed Spike frown slightly. "Are you alright?"

"I'm okay," Spike whispered, trying to ensure Raph she was feeling okay even though inside she wanted to tell him how he felt.

"Do you want to talk about what happened in the nightmare?" Raph asked.

"It's a bit gruesome..." Spike said.

"We can talk about it in our room if you want," Raph said. "But do you want to?" Spike knew that if she didn't talk about her feelings to Raph sooner or later, he'll never know how she feels. Tonight would be the night she would tell him.

"Alright," Spike said, smiling a little. Raph and Spike then entered the room they were in. They then sat on Raph's bed, since it was bigger than Spike's.

"Okay, so what happened?" Raph asked.

"Well it started it out normal..." Spike began to speak. "The four of you were out at night, as well as I hanging with you guys outside for the first time. We were kicking some serious butt out there, defeating some Foot Clan Ninjas. Then the five of us went back to The Lair when an idea popped into my head. I wanted to explore some more of New York's sewers, and you agreed to come with me. We were exploring the sewers when something started to attack us." Spike began to shake in fear of talking about her dream. Raph grabbed Spike and held her tight, hoping she would feel better.

"It turns out that something was The Shredder," Spike said. "The Shredder started to attack us and was too strong for us to beat. You risked your life to save me, as I tried to run away from The Shredder. But my legs got tired and I started to get dizzy from nausea. I fell down and let the Shredder kill me...and then I woke up." At this point, Spike was in light tears, but was being held so closely to Raph that she wanted to kiss him.

"I won't let that monster attack you or anyone else," Raph said, embracing Spike in his arms. "He'll have to go through me first."

"Thank you..." Spike said, nuzzling him. At this point, no more words were said as Raph kept holding Spike. This is what they both have been wanting; to be close. But their fullest desires have not been met yet; they wanted to be closer.

"Raphael?" Spike asked quietly.

"Yes?" Raph asked.

"Would Sensei allow what I'm feeling?" Spike asked.

"What do you mean?" Raph asked.

"Would he allow me to...love you?" Spike asked. Raph blushed red, finally knowing that Spike wants him too.

"I don't know if he'll allow it," Raph said. "But that doesn't mean we can't express love in private."

"You feel the same way?" Spike asked.

"I do," Raph said. "If you want this to be our secret, it can be." Spike smiled as she kissed Raph on the lips. As the kiss ended, Spike hugged Raph.

"I love you," Raph whispered softly.

"I love you too," Spike said. Spike went back to her bed as she tried to go back to sleep. Raph did the same.

A/N: Hello ! I happen to be a new member here and this is my first story on here. Well, these are a series of One Shots RaphaelXSpike moments. Some things to keep in mind:

.Spike is a Mutant and in these series of one shots, is a female!

.Raphael is not as angry or tough with her since he shows his sensitive side with her!

.This is set in 2012 Cartoon verse!

.Some of these will be lemons!

.There might be some references to other couples throughout the series, like Leo X Karai or Donnie X April!

Alright. I Hope you enjoyed.