Never Meant To Be, a mi-5/spooks fanfic

Never meant to be

A tribute to Spooks

As I look up at his face

I wonder what could have been

What it would have been like

If we had given ourselves a chance

But it is very clear to me; we were really never meant to be

His face blurring now

Reality blurring into fantasy

I imagine our cottage, behind the peeling green door

He sat in his office, I sat on the sofa

A normal life; something we were never meant to have

We are both made of secrets; him and me

Have often been caught in countless webs of lies and deceit

We are two pieces of the same puzzle

But always there was some sort of connection missing

But then we both found that connection; it was love

As my face grows cold; life slipping away

I now realise all I really want to do is stay; stay in this life; stay with him

He holds on to the idea of our love; it is the only thing he has left

He has always had this belief in me; in us

He has always protected me; cared for me; loved me; now it's up to me to do the same

My body is numb; I now can't feel his hand holding mine

I want to tell him how much I love him but my lips won't move

I can see his lips moving; begging but can hear nothing

Things are going dark; he is crying; nothing makes sense

Everything goes dark; I am no longer there

All that is left to do is stare; he is the only one left there...