IV-

It strikes me that we all may die at any moment. I mean, what with the lives we lead. Being Dauntless, you know, as pretty much equivalent to being stupid. We make stupid choices and risk our lives – and for what? Because that's who we are. And now with Jeanine trying to kill us (especially you and me) I have decided that I need to leave a legacy.

Okay, this isn't much of a legacy. It's a letter to you. But it's still my legacy to you. The way I see it, my life is at risk and I will probably die before I get to say these things to you.

So let's get to it, shall we?

Four- or should I say, Tobias. You are an interesting person. You scare me, but I love you. When I first met you, I felt like when I was with you I would either melt, or spontaneously combust, or die. I wonder what went through your head. Anyway, it was only till later that I realized that – Oh, all these feelings together probably mean I'm attracted to this guy.

And then when you grabbed me, on that Ferris wheel, I realized that it's possible that you, with your stony mysterious expressions, cryptic messages, and crooked smiles may actually like me. And I just felt like OHMYGODOHMYGOD a boy likes me. Because, as you know, I was Abnegation. Abnegation doesn't do that, right?

But then I found out you were Abnegation too. And when we kissed, I remember realizing that even if I hadn't transferred, if you hadn't transferred, we could still have been kissing, except in secret and wearing Abnegation gray instead of the Dauntless black I have grown to love. This was meanto be. I can't imagine world without you.

I think there will come a point where you are not a different person, but an extension of me, a part of me I cannot stand to lose. I'm halfway there already.

Oh, Tobias – he with the four fears. You should not be afraid of who you are. You should not be afraid of your father, because that is gone. You are your own person now, you can instigate your own life. He no longer controls you; stopped controlling you the moment your blood sizzled on those coals.

You know, I may beat you at some point. I have six. It's not like it's a huge world of difference…

And I think I have five fears already – I'm definitely not scared of what I want for the two of us, not anymore, not now that every day is a threat.

Tobias Eaton – Four – I think I love you.

Not the way my parents loved each other – quietly and holding hands in the dark when we couldn't see them. I love you loudly, fiercely, with a great deal of meaning.

Every moment with you is a gift, Tobias, I swear it. Sometimes I think that I'm not meant for you, not good enough for you, because you are practically perfect. And for me, that is enough.

If I ever die… I didn't want to leave you.

And after all the lies I've told, all the bad things I've done to you, this is something I can promise faithfully.

Yours always,

-VI