It's been years now…
They've been asking how you've been
But I can't bring myself to tell them
You were my friend…
My lover…
My enemy…
You fought with me like a brother…
But loved me as I was a wife…
You understood me the most
And cared the most
Everyone else never listened to me
You were the only one who did
You would always assure me that it would all be fine
Even as I was crying
Even as I loved others instead of you
You were there as they broke my fragile heart
As the thunder shook the world
And the lightning struck my heart
You held me close
But as I had to leave…
I didn't know you'd do that…
I had received the call I never wanted to hear
Your mother called me…
She was crying…
As I asked what was wrong
She told me…
You were found… the gun in your hand
Your blood on the floor
And a hole in your head
You destroyed yourself…
I miss you…
But I know you can't come back
I know you felt so scarred from your father
When he left bruises on your body
And those unforgettable words in your mind
"You'll never live up to anything! You're worthless!"
"I never considered you my son!"
You looked up to him
But… he didn't love you
He didn't protect you…
It took me so long to realize that…
I visited you today…
I brought your favorite flowers…
And laid them on your grave
As I broke down, into tears
The sun was shining on me
I remembered that you'll always be watching over me
Even if I don't sense you
You're holding me in my arms right now…
Your ghostly lips are pressed against mine…
I love you…
And I always will
No matter our distance.