Hi guys, I'm back with a little Christmas sequel to Without You for you all. It's only going to be like 2 or 3 chapters but I didn't plan this at all it just came to me and I thought it'd be a cute idea so hope you enjoy! Tell me what you think

Christmas Kisses

Chapter 1

'Mommy are we going shopping?' The angelic voice of my gorgeous baby called out to me as I strapped him into his car seat.

'Were just going to pick up a few things for your birthday and Christmas!' I told him as I dropped a kiss to his cheek and he smiled up at me clutching his toy wolf in his hands. It was my little cutie's third birthday tomorrow and I couldn't believe that time had flew by so quickly. He was perfect, everything I could ever want and more. He was so well behaved and loving and kind, he was beautiful. As time had passed more features of me had started to appear in him which thrilled me to no end. He still looked more like Jacob but his eyes were a replica of mine as was his cute little nose. I loved him more than anything in the world. With Alex being a Christmas baby it was also only 4 days until Christmas and I had still not finished buying all of my gifts. With Alex being the angel he was, I could go shopping and take him with me. When we got to Port Angeles mall I parked my car and lifted Alex out of his seat.

'Do you want to walk or do you want me to carry you?' I asked him

'Mommy please carry me first and then I walk after' he said sweetly to me. My heart melted at how adorable he was. I held him on my hip as we went shopping. I always received unwanted male attention whenever I went anywhere by myself but today I seemed to be receiving a lot more. I wasn't sure why, I was in jeans and a sweater with a two year old on my hip. But I suppose my heels were kinda high. Although I didn't want people looking at me and checking me out, it was sort of nice to see that others thought I was pretty. Besides Jacob and my family/friends. We went into the small clothes boutique first and I picked up a few things for my wolf girl friends. I skimmed past a white button down shirt in the men's section and I thought about how good Jacob would look in it. He always looked so gorgeous in white, the way it contrasted against his dark skin. And there was just something so sexy about button ups, I could undo each one...

I went to put it back down, remembering I wasn't on the best terms with my husband right now. He didn't deserve presents. Unfortunately though Alex had seen me holding it and pointed to the shirt.

'For daddy?' He asked, looking up at me with his wide innocent brown eyes. He was so clever. I kissed him on his nose and he wrinkled it.

'Yes, it's for daddy' I confirmed as I picked it back up.

We shopped for about an hour, I could have spent longer but I knew Alex was probably hungry and I knew he was getting tired because he had buried his head into my neck. By the time I had loaded all of my bags into the car and settled him into his seat, he was asleep. It was around 3pm so it was his nap time anyway. The last stop I needed to make was to the cake store to pick up his birthday cake I had ordered a few days ago. It was a three tiered animal kingdom themed cake. Alex loved animals and I knew he'd be in awe with his cake and presents. Alex now knew what a birthday was (kind of) so he was really excited about it. I carried him still sleeping into the store with me and the woman over the counter eyed him adoringly.

'Is the animal cake for this little beauty here?' She asked kindly. I nodded and smiled. She told me to wait a moment while she quickly went to collect it and I looked around a little. My eyes landed straight on his which were boring into my own. He sat, with a cup of coffee staring straight at me. Not again, I thought. In three strides he was in front of me and I frowned. I hadn't seen him in almost three years. The last time was at the coffee shop, where he'd promised he would keep in touch and try to be my friend again. He was a liar.

'Why are you here?' I asked

'Is that your baby?' Nahuel said, his eyes lingering on Alex.

'No, he's my moms' I said sarcastically.

'He's...cute.'

I rolled my eyes and the woman came back with my cake. I thanked her and Nahuel lifted it up before I had the chance.

'I'll take it' he smiled kindly.

'I don't want or need your help Nahuel' I told him seriously. 'You're a liar and I don't need you in my life.'

'Just let me carry the cake to your car, your hands are full' he insisted. I relented. He placed the cake in my car carefully and I raised my eyebrows at him.

'What do you want from me?'

'Nothing. I really was just having a coffee, it's actually grown on me' he smirked. I ignored him and opened my door but he shut it back and placed his hands on my lips before I could protest.

'I haven't been around because you were happy Renesmee' he told me solemnly. 'You were married, you had a baby - I was just a third wheeler. You don't deserve to have a best friend who's in love with you. Seeing your face all the time is like a form of torture. I needed to move on. I've been travelling, trying to find a girl to call my own.'

'Did you find her?' I asked. I hope he had.

'Not yet.'

I sighed but he continued quickly. 'But I'm still looking, there's been lots of girls I've dated but I'm looking for love. I want to fall in love with somebody, like you did.'

'I hope you find her Nahuel' was all I said.

'Me too' he replied, somewhat sadly. 'It was nice seeing you Renesmee, I'm glad you're okay.'

'Me too.'

I got in my car and drove away. A few miles away from home I got a flat tyre and groaned in frustration. I really didn't need this. I got out and tried to change it myself but all I ended up doing was covering myself in black grease. I phoned Embry and he was here in five minutes.

'Thanks' I said to him as he was changing it.

'No problem Ness' he smiled. 'I see you tried yourself' he noted. I blushed and tried to wipe the black smears off me but he just laughed. He was finished in like two minutes. I dropped him off back to the shop and looked behind to see that Alex had just woken up and was looking rather grumpy. I spotted Jacob through the glass mirror holding a clipboard and he stared at Embry as he got out of my car. He strode out immediately and started questioning him before coming over to me. I put the window down.

'Hi daddy!' Alex squealed, cheering up at the sight of Jake. Jake walked to the back of the car and pulled Alex out who started chatting to him happily all about his day. I sighed, waiting impatiently.

'I don't have all day, I need to go home' I snapped at Jacob.

He glared at me. 'A flat tyre and you called Embry? Seriously?'

I didn't answer him.

'You're being childish and ridiculous' he said to me seriously. 'Why do you always have to act like a brat?'

'Fuck you' I said. How dare he call me a brat? I instantly regretted swearing. I'd never swore at him before and it was in front of Alex. I couldn't help it though, I was angry. He looked shocked but he recovered quickly.

'If you're gonna curse at me make sure it isn't in front of my son.' He put Alex back in his car seat and he was still chatting happily, oblivious to our argument. I drove off before he could say another word.

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Alex was playing with his toys and watching TV in the living room and I was making dinner. When Jacob walked through the door at 6 o'clock I groaned. I really didn't want to deal with him right now. He put down his things and went straight to Alex who ran to him. I set out two plates on the table and called Alex to come and eat. He told me to wait 2 minutes while he finished the last pieces of his Lego. I smiled to myself. Jake walked in a few moments later and looked around.

'You didn't make me anything to eat?' He asked quietly in disbelief.

'There is a fridge full of food' I told him, in case he didn't know. 'Make it yourself.'

'Are you seriously acting like this?' He asked angrily, annoyance written all over his face.

'Don't' I warned.

'6 days. You've been like this for six days, when are you going to stop it? It's Alex's birthday tomorrow, it's almost Christmas.'

I sighed and turned away from him, going to the living room to get Alex. When we'd finished dinner I saw Jacob trying to cook some pasta. He didn't really like pasta, he was just doing it because it was easy but he couldn't manage to do it properly and he looked really upset and I felt like crying. I sent Alex back into the living room to play and I went over to Jacob and brushed his hand out of the way. My skin tingled when we touched. It had been six days since I had touched Jacob, at all. It was killing me. I emptied the pasta in the bin and cooked some more of the chicken me and Alex had had. Jake moved out of my way and we said nothing at all to each other. I finished his dinner and plated it for him. He brushed his hand across my shoulder and said thank you. I guess I felt like making dinner was my way of saying sorry for swearing at him. I tried to tell myself that, really it was because I hated seeing him suffer. His pain was my own.

'Are you excited for your birthday tomorrow?' I asked Alex as I gave him a bath.

'Yay!' He squealed happily. He was covered in soapy bubbles as he splashed around with his water toys.

'And all your friends are going to be there and you're going to get lots of presents!' I told him as I washed his hair. I'd trimmed it last week, it was now almost to his chin.

'I love my friends and presents Mommy' he told me sweetly

'I know you do honey.'

I finished giving Alex his bath and got him changed into his toy story pyjamas before carrying him downstairs with me. Jacob put a movie on for him and I went to make us hot chocolate. I lingered over Jacob's cup but I decided to make him one. He looked shocked when I brought it in but didn't say anything. Alex sat in between us but I lifted him onto my lap. I was freezing today, it was icy outside and even though my house was all fully heated I was still cold. I knew my husband was as warm as an oven and I'd do anything to melt into him right now but Alex was kind of warm, he would have to do.

'Love you Mommy' he whispered as he snuggled into me.

'I love you darling.'

I saw Jacob looking over at us and I shifted my eyes from him back to the TV screen. When Alex was getting sleepy I took him up to bed. His nursery was now his room and it had been redecorated. He had a small children's bed now instead of a crib and we'd just started to try and get him to sleep in there at nights. It wasn't my idea, Jacob insisted it was time for him to sleep in his own bed. That was another one of our disagreements lately but he was relentless in his decision. I knew if I went against him then he would just stop sleeping with us and go into another room. I had no choice.

'I want to sleep with you Mommy' he told me sadly as I brushed his hair behind his ears and tucked the covers around him. His big innocent eyes and sad expression broke my heart. He was only two, he was still my baby.

'You're going to try and be a big boy now Alex and sleep in here okay? There is everything you love in here. Animal pictures and Elsa is in the corner and you have your nightlight' I said to him softly.

'Please' he said 'I love you I want to sleep with you. I not naughty.'

A tear actually escaped my eye and he brought his hand up to wipe it away. 'Don't cry Mommy' he whispered to me. I got into his little bed with him and pulled the covers over us both. He positively beamed.

'You're not naughty at all. Don't ever think you are' I told him making sure he understood. 'I'm going to read you a story and stay with you until you fall asleep. If you wake up and you're scared you can come and sleep with Mommy okay?' I told him. He nodded in understanding. I hoped this would work. I read him a long story and he fell asleep soundly in my arms. I lay with him for a while, listening to his strong heartbeat and steady breathing before I quietly got out of the bed and tucked him in. I placed his wolf in his arms and kissed his cheek before exiting the room and leaving the door halfway open. When I was outside the room the tears I'd been holding back came. I sank to the ground against the wall and cried. I was crying because I wasn't allowed to sleep with my baby but I was mostly crying because of Jacob and how things were between us lately. It was just awful. I remembered every single detail of our argument six nights ago so clearly. It broke my heart.

We were in bed, in the moment and Jacob reached into the drawer to pull out his favourite sex ruiner ever. That fucking condom.

'No' I murmured pushing it away with my hand and onto the floor. 'I don't want it.'

'Nessie, you're not on birth control which by the way you should be now. Alex stopped breastfeeding ages ago.' He picked back up the condom.

'I don't care, I want another baby anyway. Alex is almost three.'

He sat up a little and ran his fingers through his hair.

'What are you saying Ness?' He said quietly

I leaned up to him on my knees and kissed his chest. 'I'm saying I'm ready Jake' I smiled 'I'm ready to have another baby.'

'Well I'm not Nessie, I'm not ready.'

'What do you mean?' I frowned. 'Don't you want another baby with me Jacob?' I was confused.

'I do Nessie but not right now.'

'Why not?' I asked getting annoyed.

'Because I think we should focus on the one we've got for now, I think we should wait until you're a little older.'

'Older? I'm twenty one Jacob.'

'Technically you're eleven.'

I opened my mouth in shock. Never before had he ever used my technical age. I was gobsmacked. He went to apologise but I interrupted him.

'So are you in the habit of having sex and marrying eleven year olds then Jacob? How dare you use my technical age as an excuse for not having a baby. That's bullshit and you know it. You just don't want any more children.'

'Don't put words in my mouth, when have I ever said that?!'

'Or maybe it's because you think I don't look after Alex well enough? Well I'll have you know that I'm a freaking amazing mom to him.'

'I know you are. You're perfect, I never ever once said you weren't...I just wanted to wait -'

'Screw you' I hissed. 'Everything you say in this house always goes. Have you ever once considered that maybe just one time we should do what I want?'

'We do everything you want!' He shouted at me. 'All the damn time!'

'Forget it. Just forget it.' I stormed out of the room without a backward glance.

And ever since it had been like this. No touching, barely talking unless it was to argue. It was seriously weighing on me and draining me. Looking back, I probably overreacted a little but I was just so hurt that he was refusing to have a baby with me. The rejection stung and I was a proud person. It made me feel like crap. The fact that he hadn't apologised had also grated on my nerves. If he'd walked in with chocolates and flowers and an apologetic grin I'd have probably forgotten all about it but he hadn't. Sometimes I forgot he was an Alpha male. He was proud too. I slowly wiped my tears away and went into my bedroom to fetch the big boxes of decorations we had for Alex's birthday. Jacob saw me when I came downstairs and he helped decorate the house in silence. I was the first to break the tension.

'It's Alex's birthday tomorrow. He deserves an amazing day so we have to be civil with each other' I told him. 'Plus, lots of other people are coming.'

Nobody knew of mine and Jacob's fallout except his pack who had insight to his mind. But as for the girls and my family they had no clue and I'd rather it stayed that way.

'I was never not civil to you Renesmee, you're the one who's been cursing and screaming and yelling at me.'

'Don't make this all my fault' I snapped 'you haven't even said sorry.'

'Why should I have to grovel and beg for your forgiveness every time we have an argument? It doesn't work like that. This time I didn't do anything wrong.'

'You never do do you? You're just so perfect' I said sarcastically.

'The balloons will be here at 6:30 in the morning' he said to me as he finished the last of the decorations. 'I'm going to bed.'

I waited at least half an hour before I went to bed hoping he'd be asleep by then. I took a long hot shower and changed into a long sleeved tee and joggers because I was cold. On my way into my bedroom I tripped on a wire by the nightstand and collapsed straight on top of Jacob. He was wide awake and he didn't look pleased.

'Sorry' I mumbled but I didn't move. I wanted to but I hadn't felt this warm in days. I'd forgotten just how hot he was.

'Nessie, what are you doing?' He asked me

I closed my eyes savouring the moment and then quickly got up off of him. I moved around to my side of the bed...far away. I fell asleep alone and cold.

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I awoke to the sunlight playing on my face and the tiny pitter patter of footsteps walking over to me. I smiled when I felt him jump up on the bed beside me and I turned around and lifted him in the air, tickling him and then bringing him close to me.

'Happy birthday baby! You slept in your bed the whole night' I cooed 'Mommy is so proud of you.' I looked around, Jacob was already up.

Alex was giggling as I peppered every single inch of his beautiful face with kisses.

'You are so brave' I told him 'I knew you could do it, let's go and open all of your presents!'

'Yay presents for me!' He laughed, clapping his hands together. 'I am three now.' He held up three of his fingers and I grabbed them and kissed them. I carried him downstairs and he ran to the huge pile of brightly coloured wrapped presents.

'All for me?' He asked me in amazement, just making sure.

'All for you' I confirmed. The balloons were beautiful and Jacob had placed them carefully all around the house. He was smiling sitting on the floor as he watched Alex tear off all the wrapping on his presents.

'Mommy look what I got!' He said excitedly, showing me his new Lego set.

'Wow' I said, going to sit next to him. He was so excited, it warmed my heart.

'Do you want some breakfast?' I asked him, running my fingers through his soft hair. He nodded at me, still in awe and entranced by his presents.

My family arrived a few hours later with armfuls of presents and huge happy smiles. I should be happy, it was my son's birthday but I just couldn't dull the aching in my heart. I excused myself to go and get dressed and changed into a matching pale pink ensemble of a long sleeved crop top and a ruffled skirt. I put my hair up into a high ponytail and didn't really bother with makeup. Or shoes. When I came downstairs Alex was in the middle of opening a giant train set off daddy and Jacob was staring at me. I couldn't make out his expression; his eyes were simply following me. The lines of my body, the curve of my hips... I shook my head and averted my eyes back to my happy little cutie. I tried to put the happy back in my heart.

'Nessie you look sad' Rosalie noted as she came over to sit next to me on the couch. Oh crap, did I? I didn't want to look sad at all.

'I'm not, it's just kind of cold' I told her.

'Your eyes look heavy. Tell me what's wrong' she whispered.

'Nothing is wrong okay?' I said to her. She sighed heavily.

'Come on let's take pictures!' Alice squealed. I swear she appeared out of nowhere sometimes.

'Nessie go and pick Alex up, Jacob hug Nessie' she instructed. I stiffened inside but nobody appeared to have noticed. 'Go!' She said again. I walked over and picked Alex up and Jake came and wrapped his arm firmly around my waist. The heat from his skin sunk into my bones and my knees almost went weak from just one touch. It was all over too soon and we were apart again.

Others arrived later on and soon my house was absolutely filled with people and presents and food. Rachel had brought Brandon who was the same age as Alex and Emily had Mady who was two. She was pregnant with her second and she was glowing and so happy. I bet when she asked Sam for another baby he was only too happy to oblige. As was Paul. Rachel wasn't pregnant yet but she told me that they were trying. Why couldn't my husband give me that? Alex was having such a good time and he was being spoiled loads. I was so happy he was having an amazing time. He deserved everything. I cut the cake with Alex as he blew out his candles and we had to take yet another family picture.

'Oh, my baby has the cutest little family in the world' mama gushed as Jake, Alex and I posed for a photograph. After cake my dad called me over to him and asked me to take a walk with him outside. I was confused but I went with him anyway. I put on a coat and although it was cold the fresh air felt good against my skin.

'Renesmee what's wrong with you?' He asked getting straight to the point.

'What do you mean?'

'You know what I mean. You're unhappy and since I can't read your thoughts I wanted to ask you.'

'Why? You can read Jacob's, you've probably saw everything in there' I said annoyed.

'Yes I have.' He stopped short and stood to face me. 'But that's his version of events, I want to know yours.'

'Dad it's between me and Jacob.'

'I know, you know I don't like to pry into your private life but you're obviously not happy and that concerns me Renesmee. I never want you to be miserable.'

'Me and Jacob had an argument and now things are...hard between us' I sighed.

'In a marriage, you aren't always going to agree. You need to learn how to resolve these conflicts.'

'That's easy for you to say' I rolled my eyes. 'You and mama never have arguments.'

He smiled a little. 'On the rare occasion we do we always resolve it. We never ignore one another.'

I shrugged my shoulders. I didn't know what else to say.

'Just talk through your conflict and try to resolve the issue' he said softly to me. He pulled me to him and gave me a hug. 'I hate seeing you upset.'

'Thanks daddy.'

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Jacob and I were left to clear up the mess after everybody had left much much later. Alex had crashed out on the couch a few hours ago and I'd left him there to sleep until I decided to put him to bed. He looked so angelic and peaceful. I'm glad my baby had a good birthday. An unexpected visitor arrived at about 10pm and I looked at Jacob quizzically. He shrugged his shoulders, he didn't know who it was either. I quickly emptied the left over cake I was holding into the trash and went to open the door. I came face to face with Rebecca Black. She had changed since that last time I had seen her, almost three years ago. After she'd found out I was pregnant she left town again and we hadn't heard from her since. Well, Billy had. She had grown her hair out and she was dressed better but she still looked as mean as ever. I couldn't understand why she was on my doorstep.

'What do you want?' I asked. How dare she just show up at my house?

'It's my nephew's third birthday. Rachel told me. I'm here to see him.' She shifted her feet and looked down when she talked to me. She couldn't even look me in the eye. Jacob came over and she looked up at him.

'Thank god you're here' she said, bypassing me and walking into my house. 'She wasn't gonna let me see him -.' She trailed off when her eyes made contact with Alex sleeping on the couch and her eyes changed a little. They became a little softer and I think a trace of a smile graced her hard features. She made to walk over to him but I beat her there.

'No way. You don't just get to show up at my house unannounced, barge past me and see my son. You couldn't be bothered to see him for three years so you don't get to see him now. Just leave' I snapped. She stared at me in disbelief and then looked over to Jacob with questioning eyes.

'You should go' he said, his face set in a hard line.

'Do you seriously let her tell you what to do?' She asked

'The next time you want to see our son Rebecca how about you call first? We can arrange a time and place but don't turn up to my house unexpectedly and treat my wife like crap. Also, what kind of time is this to come and see a toddler? He's fast asleep. Please leave, I won't ask you again.'

She gave Alex a last lingering look before nodding and turning on her heels. I had the feeling that this wouldn't be the last of her. As the door shut Jacob sighed and ran his fingers through his hair. I let myself remember my conversation with daddy earlier and I braced myself before speaking.

'We need to talk.'