Disclaimer - I don't own Degrassi
"It'll be ok, son." Bullfrog said when I turned around in my bed after watching Clare walk out.
"She left me dad." I whispered as reality hit me hard "She…left…me." I repeated slowly letting the reality sink in and a few tears ran down my face, I began to tear my Gothic Tales comic book into shreds. I started to feel bile coming up from my the pit of my stomach causing me to bite my cheek and swallow as much as I need to in order to keep it down. I continued to frantically rip at the comic book to keep my nerves under control.
"Taking it out on a comic book isn't going to help this, Eli." Bullfrog said as he massaged my shoulder one of his ways of soothing me that rarely worked.
"It's helping me feel a little better." I stated.
"You really are one weird kid." He chuckled.
"Baby boy I'm so happy you're all right." CeCe said as she ran into my room and hugged me, trying not to wrap her arms tightly around me because of my neck brace. I hugged her back tightly as I pushed the pain aside yet again and sobbed into her shoulder. "What's wrong baby boy?" She asked.
"Clare left me." I choked out "She said I was manipulating her, that I wrecked Morty because I knew she would come." I stated "It's my fault."
CeCe pulled away, and put a hand on each of my shoulders as she looked into my eyes.
"Baby boy, I don't believe that you knew she would actually come, I also don't believe you were manipulating her. But wrecking Morty was stupid." She soothed and I nodded as my tears started to slow down. She handed me a trash bin for the pieces of my comic book and I threw the shredded pages away.
"I know, but I wanted to show Clare that I'd give up everything for her. It seemed rational at the time." I admitted as I looked down.
"Excuse me, but visiting hours are almost over." The nurse said causing CeCe and I release each other from our grip.
"I'll get the car, everything with be ok son, just don't do any stupid things like this." Bullfrog said as he gave my shoulder one last gentle pat before he left.
"Give it time I think Clare will come around." CeCe said assuringly .
"What if she doesn't mom?" I asked
"You'll be ok and you'll move on just like you did with Julia." She stated
"Julia's dead mom. Clare's not I'll have to see her every damned day." I said knowingly.
"When you get out you'll have your first therapy session and that should help you." She said
"Right group therapy, opening up to a bunch of strangers, fuck that. I'm not getting hurt again." I scoffed as I crossed my arms.
"Baby boy things have a way of working out and you also have at home sessions. I love you, but I have to go." CeCe said as she looked at a nurse who pointed to her watch.
"I love you too." I said as I watched CeCe leave.
"How are you feeling?" The nurse asked grabbing my attention.
"Like I've just been in a car accident." I chuckled.
"I can give you some medicine to help with the pain more." She said as she hooked me up to a machine.
"Will they put me to sleep?" I asked knowing I'd like nothing better than to escape my reality.
"They're strong enough to."
"Thanks." I said softly
"I'll be back in a minute with your medicine."
I pushed the button on the remote to the bed to make it so I was laying down. I was really uncomfortable with the boot on and neck brace on, but tomorrow the boot would become a cast which I knew would be worse. I closed my eyes as my thoughts drifted back to Clare and a few tears fell, but I quickly wiped them away and pushed the thoughts aside as best I could.
"I'm back with your medicine, I'm going to give you a small dose of Vicodin." the nurse said handing me a cup of water and two small white pills.
I quickly took the two pills and chased them with the water; downing the whole cup. They worked almost instantaneously as I felt my eyelids growing heavier.