Leena's Goodbye to Fallen Love

By Kitten Starr

Leena Toros stood with her hands balled into fists at her side. Tears of anger, grief, and fallen love streaked her face. Bit had walked in so casually with his arm draped around the waist of a little blonde tramp. She wanted to scream and become invisible. She thought he was going to be the one for sure. She was wrong. Leena knew that she could never love Bit Cloud like she used to. It was impossible for her. He had really stabbed her heart until it bled all the emotion ever felt towards him.

Leena sniffled a little while longer as her mind flashed back to the prior argument they had the previous night. Bit's voice had held so much vehement that it caused Leena to cling to every fiber in her body to keep from weeping.

-~*~-

"Damnit, Leena! You should never have done that silly thing out there on the field. You cost us the last battle for a chance at the Royal!" boomed Bit's very angry voice.

"I told you that I was sorry. I've said it until I'm blue in the face. How much more do you want me to do? Gravel at your feet?" spat Leena.

"I really don't care right now. How could you have been so stupid? I'm so disappointed in you right now!" countered Bit.

"You're being such a jerk, Bit Cloud! It was just a simple mistake."

"If it was so simple, why did we lose the battle, Leena? I don't want to see your face right now. Better yet, I don't want you in my presence. We're done and over with!"

Bit stormed away to leave Leena alone. That last sentence had sent a chilled shiver up her spine. She didn't know what to do. Should she cry? Should she be angry? Leena felt an empty goodbye seep into her heart. She was no longer Bit's girl anymore. They were over with, as simple as that. Those last five words replayed in her head until she finally fell asleep in agony.

-~*~-

I thought it was over, baby

We said our goodbyes

But I can't go a day without your face

Goin' through my mind

In fact not a single minute

Passes without you in it

Your voice, your touch

Memories of your love

Are with me all of the time

Let me let go, baby

Let me let go

If this is for the best,

Why are you still in my heart

Are you still in my soul, let me let go

-~*~-

Leena bit back her lip as she let out a meek greeting to Bit as he walked into the kitchen that morning. It had been two weeks and neither had spoken a word to one another. Leena really couldn't help it. She didn't know what to say to him anymore.

Bit simply responded with a nod of his head and a simple "hello." He didn't want to be bothered by her at the moment. He thought he would feel grief over what he had said to her out of spite, but he didn't. Usually he would go right back to her and apologize on the spot, but he didn't feel like he needed to. This caused him to question his love for her. Were they really meant to be like they had thought so long ago?

He didn't say anything else to her as he ate his cold breakfast of cereal and milk. He kept watching her over his sips of orange juice. She looked so forlorn. She wasn't her usual cheery self. He knew that he was the cause for it all. He wanted to feel remorse, but no matter how much he tried, it just wasn't happening. Leena was so heartbroken that she didn't realize that Bit was scrutinizing her. S he seemed lost in her own world of misery. Maybe they weren't meant to be, but could she still ever love someone like she had Bit? The raw emotion was still all new to her. It hurt too much to even think about it.

-~*~-

I talked to you the other day

Looks like you made your escape

You put us behind, no matter how I try

I can't do the same

Let me let go, baby

Let me let go

It just isn't right,

I've been two thousand miles

Down a dead-end road

Let me let go, darlin', won't you

I just gotta know, yeah

If this is for the best,

Why are you still in my heart

Are you still in my soul, let me let go

-~*~-

Leena left that night after dinner on her Hover-Cyc. She passed through the nearest city and seemed alone even though there were thousands of people around her. She didn't know what to do with her life now that Bit was out of it.

She gazed at the city lights as they whizzed by. She smiled at how her love for Bit just seemed to whiz by like the lights. It caused a few tears to trickle down her cheeks as she went into a turn. Everything had happened so fast. She didn't even get the chance to enjoy it all.

Leena knew that letting Bit go was for the best. She didn't know how she would ever accomplish it, but she knew it was the right thing to do. She still didn't know whether or not she could ever learn to love another. Maybe love would find her heart and be as strong like it was for Bit and her. She hoped so.

-~*~-

The lights of this strange city are shinin'

But they don't hold no fascination for me

I try to find the bright side, baby

But everywhere I look,

Everywhere I turn, you're all I see

Let me let go, baby, won't you

Let me let go

It just isn't right,

I've been two thousand miles

Down a dead-end road

Oh, let me let go darlin', won't you

I just gotta know

If this is for the best,

Are you still in my heart,

Are you still in my soul, let me let go

Let me let go, let me go

-~*~-

"Let Me Let Go" by Faith Hill