-Solitary Flower-

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Warnings – Bad grammar, dark themes like- violence, torturing, blood, character deaths, torturing etc. Shounen- ai (Yaoi), so if you don't like, don't read. A/U!

Disclaimer – I don't own Kingdom Hearts

Pairings – First TidusSora, but on the background is RikuSora all of the time.

Side Pairings – LeonCloud, CloudAerith, AnsemRiku (I'm not sure about all of these…)

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Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
Is so much simpler than change

-Linkin Park Easier To Run

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Chapter One – I'll Wait For You

-Sora's POV-

It was so dark… So cold… I could hear footsteps echoing somewhere far away. I reached out to touch something. But all I could feel around myself was… Emptiness. Unending silence, every now and then broke by those low paces… Where am I? Am I… Alone?

…No… I feel something warm. It's wrapped around me… Like hugging me.

I try to open my eyes, but it feels impossible. They're just too heavy to even blink. I wonder where I am. Am I dead?

This is strange… I can feel myself, I can sense the blood flowing in my veins, but I still can't tell if I'm alive or not. But… Who am I? Why am I here?

Finally, I manage to open my eyes. It wasn't dark anymore. The white light nearly made me blind, and I had to squeeze my eyes shut again. I wasn't surrounded with emptiness anymore. I could feel something soft yet cool under my fingertips, as I placed my hand to the fabric I was lying on.

Voices… I heard voices, calling something. I can't recognize the words, or understand the sentences, but they sound relieved. I touch my chest, feeling my heart beating. Even if I was real, it just felt so unreal. Who am I, and why am I lying here?

"Sora… Sora open your eyes…"

I wonder who's Sora… Maybe it's me? Who knows… Maybe I'm no one… I'm just lying here without a name, without an identity. But if this is all just my imagination, whoever I am? Maybe I wake up soon only to notice this all was a dream? Everyone is someone, so I can't be no one. Maybe my life has some kind of meaning in this life's endless current?

So I open my eyes, only to see worried faces all around me. They're all staring at me. They all seem to know me, even though I don't know myself. It's… scary to look at them. Those comforting smiles, and happy looks made me feel even more misplaced. Like they wouldn't really be watching me, but someone right through me. Someone they really knew… Not me…

"I'm so glad you're okay!" A short girl, with short black hair giggled and jumped up and down, "We were so worried about you?"

Who am I? Why they were worried about me? But… If they really were worried about me… then that means I am someone. But this emptiness inside of my head is disturbing… It feels like this'd be the first time I live. And if wouldn't know any better, I'd say that this was the first time.

I sat up and looked down at hands lying on my lap. My hands. They're bandaged and they feel sore all over. I wonder what happened to me?

"Sora say something!" A spiky blonde haired man said and kneeled down next to me. He placed his hand on my hand, smiling warmly. So my name really is Sora.

I glanced at the peoples around me. Three… Three persons. That short haired girl, the blonde guy and a girl, with brown hair and yellow sundress. All of them had a relaxing smile plastered on their lips, all of their eyes focused gently towards me. I felt so naked under their glares…

"…" I opened my mouth, but I couldn't say anything. No words came out from my dry throat. The blonde haired man seemed to realize my problem and handed me a glass of water.

"Here."

I drank it awkwardly, just hoping that those three would look away from me. It was horrible enough not to even know myself, not to mention the emptiness inside of my mind. I just felt like I should have remembered something very important, but had forgotten it all.

"…I…" I managed to say finally. Everybody focused their attention towards me, hoping that I'd continue to speak soon. My voice surprised even myself. It was so quiet and weak, nothing like I was expected it to be, "…Where…?"

"You're in a hospital! We found you when you we-" The brunette girl said over-cheerily, before the black-haired woman slapped her hand in front of her mouth, stopping her speech.

"That's enough Selphie!"

"But Yuffie, I think he sho-"

"I said no." The girl, who was called Yuffie, said, nodding her head firmly towards Selphie who pouted hardly.

"How are you doing Sora? Does anything hurt?" The man beside me asked. I shook his head, but that caused me to wince in pain. I touched my neck, and felt a burning wound in it.

"…A bit." I said, grimacing, as the wound started to ache painfully. The blonde haired man sighed, and pushed me back to the sleeping position. I frowned, as he gave me a worried glance.

"You should rest… I'm happy you finally woke up… Yuffie, Selphie- Go to get a doctor. I think his condition needs to be analyzed, or something." The man nodded his head towards the door in the end of the room. The two women rolled their eyes, but went away anyways. I looked at their backs, as they closed the door quietly.

Should I tell that man that I had no clue who he was? No, that would be really harsh, and maybe hurt his feelings.

"You don't remember a thing do you?"

My head snapped up, and I looked at the man's smiling face, as he weakly shook his head. "I knew it. Doctor said that something like this could happen."

Was my expression that easy to read? I wonder what I look like… And I wonder what I used to be. And how old I am…

"Don't worry Sora." The blonde man said, while turning around, "He wanted this after all."

"He?" I asked, sitting up again, only to be pushed down by the blonde man again.

"That's right. But I'm afraid I can't say anymore. I'm Cloud by the way." Cloud said warmly, keeping me down from my shoulders. That name… It caused something ache on the back of my head, like I should have recognized it, but even if I tried my hardest, I found nothing from my mind. It was pretty frustrating really. To feel like you should know, but you don't know anyways.

"But… Who? What happened? Why am I here?" Wow, first time I spoke that much. Well, okay maybe not first time, but the first time I remember.

"I'm sorry Sora. But this' all because of you." Cloud stated sadly, and turned around, his back facing me now. I blinked, as confusion swept over me. Who would want me to forget? And why? Who am I? Who Am I?

Cloud looked over his shoulder at me, concerned look on his face. "You shouldn't think of it too much. It's better this way."

And before I could say anything more, he already walked away from the room, leaving me speechlessly staring after him. How could someone tell me that it was better this way? He didn't seem to understand what it felt like to wake up, and notice that I don't have a clue who I am, or who the peoples around me are.

…I was… scared…

But before I could stress myself further, Yuffie and Selphie walked in, followed by a white dressed woman. The short black-haired woman looked around and frowned thoughtfully, "Where's Cloud? Did that bastard leave already? Oww, I'm so gonna punch him for this!"

"Noo! Don't get all violent again Yuffie!" Selphie squealed and bounced up and down, "We'll just go look for him! Is that okay with you Sora?"

I nodded, and the two of them dashed out. The doctor hawked, before walking beside my bed and taking my arm, examining it carefully. "Well, you still have pretty bad bruises and all… I'm Doctor Quistis Trepe, but call me just Quistis, okay?"

I nodded once again, wincing slightly, as the doctor opened the bandages around my arms.

"You've been in coma for two weeks now." She said, and pushed her glasses back closer her eyes. "You were brought here by one of your friends, but even if we tried to find out what was wrong with you, there was nothing out of ordinary. It's strange that you fell to come because of nothing."

I couldn't help but frown. I bit my lip, as the doctor Quistis touched the wound on my neck. What's she's saying, that there's nothing wrong? I have wounds and cuts all over my body, for god's sake!

"I mean, that there was no injury, that'd lead to coma. You were injured alright, but that's not the reason why you fell to coma." She replied, like she'd heard my thoughts. I hissed as she took out the bandages, painfully slow. After taking them off, she put new ones to cover my arms. There were strange cuts in my skin… Like letters or symbols… She noticed that I was staring at them, and sighed.

"I have no idea what those are either."

I looked at her, raising my eyebrow. Was she some kind of telepathic?

"No, I'm not a telepathic, but you're just so easy to read." Quistis laughed and patted my retied hand gently. "Well, that should do it. I'm going to come check on you soon again, okay? Just don't leave anywhere. I'll go to summon the amnesia doctor, though he might not be available today."

And so she left. I lied on the bed, staring blankly at the ceiling. It was all so confusing… I didn't even know what to think anymore. It was strange… I was so alone. The loneliness literally squeezed my heart as the reality hit me- I had no one to turn to. There was no one there for me, and I had no clue who I could trust to.

I squeezed my eyes close, feeling so weak and all I wanted to do was go and smack the one who wanted him to lose his memory like this. Then a felt my lips curving up- I'd go and find the one who had done this to me. But then again, how I'd find anyone, since I couldn't find myself from my mind?

"Hey you…"

I turned my head slightly, and saw another bed, where was a dirty blonde young man lying in it. I lifted my eyebrow, since I hadn't noticed him before. I guess I was just too busy to pity myself, that I forgot the world around me.

"Hmm?"

"I've been watching you since you came here…" The blonde said, smiling widely. He let out an embarrassed laugh, and scratched back of his head, "No, don't get me wrong! I'm not a stalker or anything… You just happened to lie in a bed next to me, so…"

"Who are you?" I asked.

"Oh, I'm Tidus." Tidus said and stood up from his bed, and walked towards me, offering his hand. "Glad to see you're awake finally!"

I took the hand and shook it awkwardly. "I'm Sora… though I don't know anything else…"

"Yeah, I heard about your amnesia… That's sad…" He said and sat on my bed, while I tried to get up too. But before I could barely lift my body, he pushed me down. Really, these peoples really want to keep me tightly on the bed…

"You wanna talk about it?"

"Huh?" I asked, not sure what he meant. "Talk about what?"

"Well, duh." He snorted, and playfully shoved me to my shoulder, ignoring my hissing and grimacing, "Well, how it feels like. It's not good thing to keep it all to yourself, you know. You'll end up killing yourself, if you can't talk about your problems to someone."

"…I…" I frowned, not sure if I could freely talk to the stranger, who was already befriending with me. But I guess he was right… "…It's scary… and… well, I just feel kind of… alone. I don't even know myself."

"I can't say I'd know how you feel, but I know it has to be pretty rough." Tidus said, nodding his head.

"Yeah…"

Then it was quiet for a while. Distance sounds could be heard from behind the door. I closed my eyes, frowning my forehead. Somehow, I already felt better, even though I said merely two sentences to Tidus. It just felt like I –at least- had someone to share my feelings with. Even if Tidus still was only a stranger, he made me feel amazingly much better.

"You know…" Tidus said suddenly, and broke the silence, "I'll help you to find that what you lost, what do you say? Let's just leave before that doctor gets back."

My eyes widened, "I- We can't do that!"

"Yes we can!" Tidus smirked and jumped to his feet, "I'm so tired to be here anyways! I just want to see the sun shining again! This' worse than being in prison! I mean honestly- you can't even watch the TV when you'd want to!"

I smiled weakly, as I listened Tidus' explanation. But that didn't mean that I'd think that we could do what he wanted to… "Why are you here, Tidus?"

"Hmm? Oh, nothing big! Just played blitzball, and I broke my arm! It's been cured a while ago, but these nuts don't want to let me go!" He answered hastily, while grinning widely. I nodded and couldn't help but grin slightly too.

"Blitzball?" I asked, tilting my head to left, and sitting up.

"Oh, it's just a game- fucking awesome game! I just can't wait till I can play it again!" He said, pumping his fist into the air, and grinning like a madman. I shook my head and chuckled slightly-

"But we still ca-"

"Oh, cut it off already! I know how badly you want to find that dude who did that to you!" He pointed towards me, and I looked down at my arms, "Don't try to act so innocent."

"But I'm no-"

"We'll have to hurry! Quistis will come back every time now…" Tidus said, after glancing towards a clock, which was hanging on the wall. He grabbed my arm, and jerked me up. I gasped, as I fell on the floor- my feet felt like two numb iron weights. I groaned slightly, and rubbed my back.

I tried to stand up again, but I ended up falling again. I rolled my eyes and decided to give up for good. Tidus rubbed his nose and kneeled down on the floor in front of me, smirking goofily.

"Oh yeah… I should have thought that your legs and such aren't working so well after two week's come… Oh well, let's see what we can do…"

-Third person's POV-

After a while, Sora found himself being dragged down a corridor by Tidus, who had his strong arm around his waist. All he had to do was act like he'd be cuddling Tidus, even if he really was supporting his weight on the blonde man, who only smiled to the peoples who passed them.

"Excuse me sir? Where are you going?"

Tidus spun his head around, and saw a nurse giving him a strict glare. But he just winked and smirked. "My dear Sora and I are going to go to toilet… Is that illegal?"

"No, of course not…" Nurse smiled awkwardly, before hurrying away. Tidus just shrugged, and looked down at Sora, who frowned to him.

"Oh, don't mind her. She doesn't like me very much." He said and tightened his grip around Sora's waist. He leaned down and whispered into his ear, "Hang in there... The toilet is just two doors down from here…"

Sora nodded, and smiled to a doctor, who gave them a very long and unbelieving glance. Tidus just ignored the old doc, as he pulled Sora into the bathroom, closing the door after them. Luckily, the room was empty…

"So what are we doing here?" Sora asked, as he let go off Tidus, leaning to the wall, next to the door.

"Just, wait…" Tidus said, before walking into one of the toilets. Sora rolled his eyes, and took few steps, trying not to fall onto his butt again.

Somehow, he managed to make his way to the sink, and he poured some cold water to his hands. He splashed the water to his face, and shivered from the coldness. Above the sink was a mirror. He looked into it, his eyes widening. It was his first time he saw himself… And the sight was… Well, everything, but he had waited it to be.

He looked into those azure orbs- his own eyes… That shaggy brown mess, aka hair, was spiky, and his slim frame… From what he looked like, he estimated that he was about 15 or 16 years old, even though he wasn't sure.

He touched his cheek, and felt his silky skin. It was strange how much you can surprise when you look into a mirror… He frowned, and removed his fingers from his cheek and pressed them against mirror's cold surface. So… Now he knew one more thing about himself… Name and appearance.

"Hey Sora, I… Oh… Sorry, I didn't know you had touchy time with your reflection." Tidus snickered behind Sora, who spun around, and smirked goofily. He scratched back of his head absently, and laughed nervously.

"No, I just… I just was surprised." Sora said.

"Yeah, I understand… - Here!" Tidus threw a pile of clothes to Sora, who snatched them clumsily from the air. "Friend of mine came to hide them here… In the case I wanted to get out, you know."

Sora nodded and looked at the clothes in his arms. Then he looked at his current clothes- ugly blue long shirt. He poked his tongue out, and nodded his head to Tidus. "I'll go to change then!"

He tried to start walking again, but fell on his face to the marble floor. He groaned, and rubbed his nose. Tidus tried to bit his tongue, to stop a laugh pass his lips, but small giggle managed to make its way out. Sora looked up and pouted.

"This' so not funny!" He cried, as he clumsily got on his feet again, this time taking careful steps this time.

"Sorry Sora." Tidus chuckled, and watched, as the toilet's door was slammed close. He rolled his eyes, and walked into the other toilet, and pulled his shirt over his head. Finally he'd get out… And this time he wouldn't so not be caught. He didn't want to lie here for the rest of his life. No way he'd do that.

He heard loud cursing and groaning from the toilet next to him, as Sora tried to pull the jeans up to his hips. He chuckled and shook his head. Quickly, he dressed up and walked out of his toilet, and in front of the stall where Sora was in, knocking it's door.

"You need help?"

"No… I'm… Damn… Fine…" Sora mumbled angrily, as he finally managed to dress up completely. He examined his chest, and gasped. It was full of deep wounds and scars. His eyes roamed down his stomach, until they stopped above his navel, where was some text cut into his skin. He narrowed his eyes, as he tried to read the letters. 'I'll wait for you.' were the simple words, which made him shiver.

"Are you sure you don't need any help?"

Sora tore his eyes away from the text like wounds, and pulled his (or Tidus') shirt down. "No- no! I'm already done!"

Tidus eyed Sora, as he stepped out from the toilet, straightening his shirt. The blonde whistled playfully, and slapped Sora's back teasingly, causing the brunette to wince visibly, "Well, aren't we a handsome guy."

"Tidus…"

"What?"

"That sounded pretty gay."

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A/N: Hope you liked it. If I have even few reviews I'll continue this, but if I got none, then it's byebye Solitary Flower. So please, review, if you want to read more of this! Thank you for reading!