Hey guys! I will randomly be adding chapters to this. I think I should have a certain day in the week to do this but I'll figure that out later. TRIGGER WARNING! I made this rated M because of the triggering content. This may be depressing but I had to write about it. This is the longest chapter yet!
"Nico!" Will called, waking him up. "Get up so I can feed you!"
Nico opened his eyes groggily. He stuffed his face back into his pillow. "Nooo," he groaned. Will appeared at the doorway.
"Come on. You haven't eaten since yesterday morning and don't lie to me about it," Will sat at the edge of his bed. "And I know you have be shadow-traveling. What did I say? No Underworld-y stuff!"
Nico sat up slowly and sleepily next to Will. "Oh come on, Will. You know I need to—," With that, Nico's head plopped on Will's shoulder, falling asleep again.
"See Nico, this is what happens when you stay up too late doing Underworld-y stuff! No more, okay? Doctor's orders." Will grinned and he bounced his shoulder up and down, jolting Nico awake.
"Wha… Huh?" Nico dazed up.
"Get up and eat please," Will got up and felt a soft tug on his arm. He turned around to see Nico holding on.
"Can you bring the food here?" Nico asked, sleepily. "Please?"
"Alright," Will sighed. "But only because I love you." And with that, he left.
Nico recollected himself and got out of bed. He glanced at his Stygian iron sword and grabbed it with him inside the bathroom. He locked the door and stood against the sink, facing the mirror. He stared coldly at his reflection, despising it. His first thought was Bianca. Then Percy. Then Cupid. A tear trickled down his cheek and he choked back a sob. He stepped back, hitting the wall behind him. Nico slid down the wall slowly to sit down, dragging his sword with him. He gripped the handle of it so tightly that his already pale knuckles turned white.
Nico pulled back his long sleeves revealing cuts and scars all over. Some were light pink and fading while some were bright red and recent. He placed the cool black blade of his sword against his arm, wherever he could find room, and pressed down lightly. As he applied more and more pressure, he saw the crimson color trickle down slowly. He lifted his sword and did it again. And again. And again. Gods that feels so good.
He pulled back his sleeves further and saw that there was no more room. Styx.
Since he was already wearing his shorts, he pulled them back and started hacking at his thighs. Slicing over and over. His mind was clouded with negative thought and terrible visions. He saw Bianca dying again. He saw her in the Underworld again. He saw Percy kissing Annabeth. Oh Gods please. No.
Then suddenly, he thought of Will, smiling his million dollar smile. He thought of how much he cared for him that night he had that dream. Nico stopped. His thoughts unclouded hazily as he tried breathing evenly. He blinked his eyes and few times and looked at his arms and thighs clearly. They were bloody with gashes everywhere. Nico's cheeks were stained with tears and his hands were covered in blood. It would appear as a murder scene to another which was partially correct. Nico had murdered the happy little boy who once was obsessed with pirates and Mythomagic card. He had murdered his innocent soul.
He heard a gentle rapping on the bathroom door and snapped back into reality. It was Will. "Come on. Breakfast is ready. Hurry up and eat because I have many patients to tend to, Death Boy." Nico wiped his tears and cleared his throat.
"You go ahead. I'll eat don't worry," he called back.
"Promise?"
"Promise," Nico said, choking back a sob. Gods I hate lying to him.
"Okay bye, Neeks. See you in the evening!" Will said as he walked out.
Nico didn't want to admit it. He was addicted to cutting himself. It was his way of coping with emotional pain; Turning it into physical pain.
He wasn't sure how to bandage his cuts so he slipped in the shower. As the cold water ran against his open wound, he winced as they burned furiously. He hit his head lightly on the wall as the water continued rushing down his back. He couldn't let Will know about this addiction. He would never forgive me. Nico was disgusted at his actions himself and Wil would be furious. I can't believe I actually enjoy this… Something is really wrong with me…
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