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I do not own finding sky
Lena's pov
I always get judged.
Nobody really get's to know me.
I'm just the filthy prostitute.
They all think I'm doing this because I want to.
Because it's so great to sleep with different old men every day.
Well it's not.
It's horrible.
I'm not doing this for fun.
I'm doing this because I have to.
I can't escape.
I wish my power was to have a solution for everything.
Instead all I got is I can see people's biggest fears and dreams.
That way I really get to know people.
That doesn't really help by my 'job'.
I know why these men are here.
Some have a hard life and they see this as a distraction.
Others just cheat on their wife
Because their wife won't put out, I have to.
I look over to Amber she's reading a magazine.
She just got back.
I want to know what's going around in her head.
How it's like to her.
She doesn't seem to care.
But I can't ask.
It's like an unwritten rule.
We don't ask each other about our work.
We pretend there's nothing going on.
We just talk about other stuff.
Amber is like me, she's only 21
I'm 20. I'm the youngest here.
I've been here for a little longer than 2 years.
When my dad brought me here.
you probably wonder why any dad would do that to his daughter.
Well it's because he needed money.
Money for all the alcohol he drinks.
I'm glad I finally could escape home but being here isn't really better…
My dad…
I can't say I miss him.
I miss the man he used to be…
Before..
My mom, his soul mate died.
He was so happy before that.
Finding your soul mate is special.
So I guess my mom made him that happy.
But because she was so special to him and because he loved her so much and they had a special connection. The blow was even harder.
So it made him react to it in horrible ways.
He started drinking.
Even had to be removed from the funeral because he was drunk.
He was drinking so much and didn't go to his work anymore.
So I had to take care of everything.
Making dinner, cleaning up and working so we had some money.
All of that plus my schoolwork.
It was a miracle I graduated that year.
I didn't go to college we didn't have the money.
My dad kept drinking.
And even started hitting me and abusing me.
It hurt me so bad.
But I had to keep being strong.
Otherwise there was no one who would take care of us.
After a while my job as a waitress didn't get us enough money anymore.
So my dad sold me out, like a piece of meat.
Like I was nothing to him.
Like I didn't mean anything.
I took care of him all that time
And he just sold me.
That's how I got here.
And that's why I can't get out.
Believe me I've tried.
My bruises confirm that.
I look over at Amber.
I wish she'd tell me her story.
How she got here.
'what are you reading?' I ask.
'Some story about a girl who found the love of her life while being on vacation in Turkey' She says.
'Do you believe that?'I ask
'What? The story? No they probably just made that up.' She answers.
'No, I mean. Do you believe there is somebody out there for you? Like true love or something?' I ask.
'Yes, I believe in true love. But I also believe it's really rare and that I'll never find it'
'Why not? You could get that lucky'
'Yeah, like I'll ever get out of here.' She says
'Good point.' I sight
'But if you're right and I get that lucky then I'll never let it slip away. Because I think once you found it. You can't live without it. It's irreplaceable ' she says
I think about my dad. That's why it's so hard on him.
'You're right. But doesn't that make you want to run away for it at the same time?' I ask.
'Maybe…but don't you think true love is worth the risk'
'No, I've seen the damage it can give. I had to live with that damage. True love is the reason I'm here. A true love that slipped away.'
She doesn't ask further. We don't ask about each other's story's. It would make it harder.
We already have a hard time dealing with our own story.
We can't pull the weight of someone else too.
I wish someday I will be strong
I will be strong enough to lift not only myself but also other people.
But for now I first need to learn to lift myself.
I've had this stroy in my head for a long time and I'm plad I finally got to write it.
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