Yea its a new story, i am so sorry but this Bella, is a badass, if you dont like Bella being that way, you wont like this story

i own nothing, but the plot, i hope you guys enjoy

My life was far from normal; I lost everything, my best friend Rosalie aka Rosa. I lost her because Jessica and Lauren seen potential in her and give her a make over and guess what, she looked beautiful (I always told her but she never believed me). After that she decide to leave me for her new best friends, I don't care anymore but back then it hurt like hell. They just didn't steal my best friend but my twin brother Jasper too, that one hurt the most, and I loved him with everything in my heart. We did everything together, we were never separated, and nothing could tear us apart, if you messed with me than you messed with him. Ever since Alice went out with him I hardly see him, we hardly talk, I lost everything because of those three and now I have a new personal, a guarded one.

I hang out with the bad people of the school, I smoke weed, get drunk and go to parties almost every night. My new friends are James and Riley, and James cousin Laurent. I am the only girl in the group but I don't care, we have loads of fun. I get rides from them everyday so I don't have to see the worried looks from my so called brother or his friends. He claims he worries about me, but I don't care, if he really cared about me he wouldn't have left me in the first place.

I groaned as I woke up the next day, I barley got any sleep. I kind of remember some things from last night, like I snuck out at midnight but I don't know how I got home. I remember smoking cocaine and drinking whiskey. I heard the drugs double the affects of the alcoholic, so of course I wanted to go back to my happy place.

I dragged my feet across the rug in no hurry to get to school today. My father said I had to ride with my brother to school, because he didn't approve of my friends, like I care. I was a little still dizzy so of course I walked into the door. I had bad timing when I walked into the door cause at the moment Jasper came outside his. "Bella, are you okay", he asked, I rolled my eyes. He put his hand in front of me stopping my way of escape. "I asked you a question"

"You aren't my father last time I checked"

"I am your brother"

"Says the doctor, you got to show me some proof"

"What time do you come home?"

"Why"

"I don't like your friends"

"I don't like yours either, you don't see me complaining"

"Well, you better, they are riding with us today"

"Better go get the drugs", before he could say anything I ducked under his arms and run to my room locking the door. I always kept a stack of drugs under my bed, away from Charlie, like he checked anymore. Nobody bother me anymore, nobody noticed I was missing so i don't care either. I heard knocking on my door but I ignored it; as I light the drugs and put it to my mouth. I felt it taking its effect already, all my previous worries all disappeared. I sighed and pulled out the bottle I kept under the bed too. The more I take the less I feel and because of that I drunk the whole bottle, it was better this way. I felt dizzy but I ignored it, almost everyday I went to school late or drunk so today wasn't any different.

I got ready and ran downstairs, of course my name is Bella I fell down the stair, lucky Jasper was there, or unlucky depends on how you look at the situation. "Whoa Bella, what's wrong", I laughed at his statement, nothing was wrong now. He searched my face for something, I don't know what but he must have found it because disappointment covered his face.

As soon as he opened his mouth to talk, the car beeped signaling, I rushed outside leaving Jasper in the house. He came out just as my hand hit the door. "Bella", he shouted, "You left you bookbag". I laughed at that, yea like I was going to use it. I rolled my eyes and got in the car, I made sure to make no eye contact with no one in there, really I didn't know who in there beside Jasper. He soon came in sitting in the front, leaving me beside 3 strangers. I didn't acknowledge them and Jasper was getting irritated by it. I felt everyone eyes on me and I couldn't help but to turn in see who was in there. I was shocked to see Rosa, she looked at me unsure, then Alice, Jasper girlfriend, she never tried to meet me, and she already met Charlie so I be damn if I acknowledge her when she didn't even want to meet me. Beside Alice, was Edward, the one I secretly had a crush on, but he was too good for me, I was a bad child and he was an angel so I didn't want to talk to him either. Lastly was Emmett, I didn't really know him, but from what I've heard he goes with Rosa, and that's reason enough not to want to talk to him.

"Are you going to say thanks for the ride, or hi atleast to them", growled Jasper. I laughed at that, yea right. He seemed to be getting angrier."How rude", I heard Rosa mumble. She was killing my buzz. I looked around for my iPod but it was no where to be found. "Damn", I cursed, I left it in the house. Good thing they haven't driven off yet, I hoped out the car and run into the house quickly picking up my IPod. When I came back out they were gone. I growled at that, how the fuck can you leave your own sister?

My walk to school was horrible, it started to rain, and I didn't bring a raincoat so I got soaked from head to toe. I made it to school in time for lunch, I was pissed beyond reasoning, and it was a bad thing when that happened, I tended to do really stupid stuff when that happened. I pushed the door open when I walked into the lunchroom, soon everyone got quiet.

I was concentrating really hard on not doing anything stupid. Jasper and his 'crew' looked up to see me and he got a shocked look, so did everyone else, where they expecting me not to be mad. I walked over to his table, ignoring the whispering, I could deal with them later. When I reached the table Alice started to speck but I held my finger, stopping her. "What kind of brother are you, I go inside to get my iPod and you guys bail, I never thought I could really hate own family, dislike I am sure, but you prove that wrong, I cant stand you, you make me sick, you always turned your back on me, your own twin, we were so close nothing could tear us apart but I guess high school, I was stupid enough to believe we were the twins that could make it through that, no matter what I said, you were the one I wanted the most to take my side but I see that is impossible now, now I know my real brothers are James, Riley, and Laurent.

"They are nothing like brothers", Rosa argued. I glared at her, she was one to talk, she abandoned me and she was supposed to be my sister. "Shut up Rosa, like your any better, you left me, you own best friend, when you realize you care so beautiful that you didn't have to hang with me anymore, I was there for you when, Jessica and Lauren weren't, remembered that". She looked ashamed, well she should. Alice looked at me with pity, I didn't fucking need her pity, she was one of the reason Jasper left me side.

"Look Bella, please tell me you don't mean it, that you really think of me as a brother", Jasper begged.

"Yea, sure, not likely," I walked away from the table, not once feeling regret for specking the truth. I heard them calling my name but I ignored them, they weren't worth my time. I walked up to James and he looked sad. "Need a ride?" I nodded yes, atleast I can count on some people.

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