I don't play games, and I don't like it when people play games with me. You said you missed me and I believed you, cause so did I. But it feels like we are going in circles and I am tired of wasting my time with someone who is afraid to commit. Either you want to be with me or you don't. But I am no one's second choice. I want somebody that wants to be in a relationship, who is honest with me and doesn't run away from their feelings. I get that you are going through a rough patch right now but that shouldn't be an excuse. Just because things get tough doesn't mean you bail and move on to something easier.
When we first met I told you I wanted a relationship and if wasn't to be then I was fine in being friends. Also being friends with benefits was not an option. It was good for a few months and then I noticed you became distant and we decided to be friends. That part really sucked because I really did like you. We went our separate ways and started to date other people. But it wasn't the same because all I thought about was you. A few moths had passed and we exchanged words here and there just to see how we were both doing. Then on some chilled night we met up at the Snuggery. I wasn't sure at first if it was a good idea but once I saw you it was magical and all my feelings came rushing back. But I was still hesitant.
The day you said you missed me was the greatest day ever. I was overjoyed and speechless to hear that you still had feelings for me. Then we started to hang out again and it was amazing. Spending time with you and Aaron was unbelievable. Even though he had his bad days it was still amazing. Hanging out with your friends was a blast and having moments with you like in the forest reserve was special. But then I noticed you started become distant again and I was scared to confront you about it because I didn't want another repeat.
But with all that has happened this year I can't take any more bullshit and I'm tired. It's clear that we both want different things and it not fair to keep stringing things along so I am ending whatever we are. I care too much about you to push you into something you're not yet ready for. I wish I could say we could still be friends but I invested to much of my heart this time around and it hurts way to much. I hope you find what you are looking for.
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Spencer