-chapter 1-

post City of Lost Souls

Alec pov

Alec's room looked as if a tornado had casually passed by. Books were scattered everywhere, some open and others not. His laptop, plugged in, was open, and the screen glowed. The bed was a mess, with rumpled blankets and pillows on top. Clothes were strewn all across the floor.

Alec himself was worse off. It had been a week since his breakup with Magnus. He had tear tracks on his face, as if he had been crying a lot. Which he had been. But now, his expression was one of steely determination. He glowered at the screen, muttering furiously.

Someone pounded at the door. "Alec, let me in please. We don't have to talk about it if you don't want to, but at least eat something!" Isabelle yelled through it.

Glaring at nothing in particular, Alec ignored her. But she had a point. When was the last time he had eaten? Or showered? Or even stepped out of his room? Oh that's right. About a week ago when a certain warlock told him never to see him again.

He hadn't thought of Magnus in a while, and now as he did, fresh tears threatened to spill. He blinked and shook his head. He will not think of Magnus. Not now, when he had to focus.

Izzy knocked again. "Alec I'm not gonna leave until you open this door. I will camp out here all night if I have to."

Alec sighed.

"Or maybe I could break it down. No I would probably get in trouble for that." Izzy mused.

Alec groaned and opened the door. There was no point arguing when Izzy makes up her mind. Her eyes widened when she saw what a mess he was. Squinting in the light, he sat back at his desk. Izzy closed the door behind her.

"What are you doing Alec?" she asked softly, looking at the books that were lying everywhere. He heard her sharp intake of breath as she looked at his open computer screen, confirming. "Alec? Are you really...?"

"Yes" he said shortly. His voice cracked. Well, it had been a week since he had said anything out loud.

"Are you sure you want to do this? What about me and Jace and everyone? What if Magnus doesn't -"

"He has to." Alec cut her off, tears forming in his eyes again. "I cant imagine what would happen if he doesn't. And I have thought about all of you guys, and it hurts me to do this, but living without Magnus-"

Alec shuddered at the words. Izzy put her hand on his.

"I understand Alec. And I can help you."

He turned to face her. "Really?"

"Yes. Magnus is the best thing that ever happened you, and if you becoming immortal is the way to make you that happy again, then I will help you."