She tried over and over to just ignore all the pain and suffering, however nothing helped. All that's left now is an empty shell, filled with the voices of her once kind friends.
Day and night; every passing second she mourns, mourns for the loss...the loss of her one true friend. Everyone knows she's the reason their all alive but they don't know how ,all they know is that she saved them. However, she lost something so close to her heart that the light inside her very being shattered. All that's left is a dark void that has no where to go but insideher,just to leave an empty shell with no light.
Now everyday when she opens her eyes she feels...dead. Maybe she actually is on the inside but in reality she is way past the point of dead...she is nothing. She walks into the guild everyday forcing a smile on her face however there is one thing she doesn't know and that's ,that there is someone who knows of her sacrifice and it is the one person anyone would least expect. He watches her day in and day out, she come in at dawn and cries she leaves at sunset drunk. However, the most surpising thing is, is that he seems to be the only one who has noticed her immediate and drastic change. The biggest change of all is that she has to force a smile everyday and suffer alone. He just doesn't understand how Lucy the light of fairy tail could become Lucy the shadow of fairy tail.