SB: This is to the song Ave Maria by Beyonce. Please listen to the song if you havent, if just to really feel the story. I hope you enjoy.
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It was a warm summer evening in the human world. Kurama sighed as he melted into the soft layers of the new couch. The old one had been quite loved, but was falling apart at the seems. He sipped his lemonade.
What a beautiful night.
Searching, he found the remote on the edge of the coffee table and turned on the tv.
Nightly news is quite depressing. How about a sitcom?
Half heartedly flipping through channels, he finally found a program which was slightly interesting. He stiffened.
What was that?
It could have been anything at this hour. With the lights dimmed, the house seemed looming. Kurama took a few deep breaths, calming down his heart rate. He was a thousand year old kitsune and a bump in the night was scaring him? He chuckled to himself.
I think Ive been here too long.
He heard it again. It was coming from the front door.
Someone knocking at this hour?
Always cautious, Kurama gently placed his glass on a coaster and crept to the door. He waited a few moments. Another few knocks. A dangerous creature probably would not be knocking politely at his front door. He resisted the urge to roll his eyes.
I have really been here too long.
He casually opened the door to greet his visitor.
"Kurama."
She was lost
"Hiei! I wasnt expecting you so soon. Please come in. "He closed the door quietly as the fire demon waked through to the living room.
Out in the darkness with no guide.
I know the cost,
Of a losing hand.
And if for the grace of God, oh I..
"I thought you were going to be at Mukuros for a few more weeks at least."
I found heaven on Earth
"I need to talk to you. I....I just need you."
Normally the kitsune would pounce on the opportunity to get some talk from his friend, but Hiei's tone was wrong. Something wasnt right.
You are my last my first,
Kurama entered the living room and reclaimed his seat on the plush new couch. Hiei stood by the window, keeping his eyes in the distance. Yes, he could definitely sense it. Something ominous was hovering over the youkai, but what?
"Whats wrong?"
And then I hear this voice inside,
He leaned forward onto his knees. He had never heard Hiei admit that he needed anyone, especially in front of them. His pride had always gotten the better of the demon. Kurama stood and stepped over to Hiei. Looking over his shoulder, he tried to discern what he was watching so intently.
"Kurama...I...I'm pregnant."
Ave Maria.
He froze. That...that just wasnt possible.
"Hiei."
In the reflection of the glass he could see the pain in the youkais face. The distress.
"How is that possible?"
Hiei's head turned slightly to his right, acknowledging Kurama was there.
"It must be something from my Koorime nature. I am not quite sure, but I do know it is true. I can feel it." His voice was soft, carefully quiet, as if cautious to make anything worse than it currently was. Kurama sighed silently.
"Who is he?" Hiei turned his face back to the blank scenery outside.
I've been alone, When I'm surrounded by friends.
"I dont know."
What..? How could the silence be so loud?
"I.." Hiei took a deep breath. It was hard. "I don't even know the bastards name Kurama." He could feel the sting in his eyes.
Is this what its like to cry?
But I still go home,
Silence filled the room as Kurama digested the information. He grabbed the demons small frame and turned him around to face him. When did this happen? His voice held anger, frustration, the indescribable hate for the attacker. Hieis eyes remained fixed on the cream carpet.
Theres only us when lights go down.
"I was on my way back from Mukuros. Five days ago. I was twenty feet from the portal. Twenty fucking feet!" He waited for his frustration to calm before he continued.
"He was much stronger than me, physically at least. I....I tried, but I could not stop him."
"Hiei."
You are my Heaven on Earth,
Kurama encircled the fire youkai in his arms. He needed it. They both needed it. Hiei threw away his resistance and melted into the warmth surrounding him. He felt the stinging grow. Small drops started to fall onto the carpet.
I always hear this voice inside,
"What am I going to do?" There was no way he could raise this child. He barely could take care of himself, let alone another. He wouldnt even know where to start.
Ave Maria.
"Hiei. You must make a choice. Are you going to keep it?"
He didnt know. Raising a child was a task he knew he wasnt ready for. But who ever really is? Would the joy of a child be worth it? But it would not be his child. It would be of that monster. It would look like him, sound like him. Could he handle that? What about adoption? He paused as he realized.
Sometimes love can come and pass you by,
"Kurama. This isn't a child to me. It is a monster. It is none of me and all of his evil. I dont think I could stand his filth inside of me for even a month." It hurt him to say, but it was the truth. He could not lie to himself in this situation. His hand drifted to his stomach. He could feel it. Weak, but the creature's ki was slowly radiating inside if him.
Suddenly hits and then you realize, It's out of your hands.
"Well, you have two options." Kurama pulled away and looked to the shorter demon.
"You could give it up for adoption, or kill it."
Baby, you've got to understand.
Hiei made eye contact. "How? By killing myself?"
Kurama pulled out a seed from his red mane and barely watched as it was transformed into a small leafy plant in his palm. He plucked one of the leaves and shrunk the plant back to its seed form.
You are my Heaven on earth,
"This leaf will kill the child, but only within a week of . If you choose this, you will feel pain, but only for an hour at most. The being will be consumed by the plant and it will dissolve in your system when it is finished." Hiei eyed the leaf held before him.
you are my last, my first.
"It is your decision Hiei. I will be here no matter what you choose."
The room was once again filled by silence, and anxiety. Hiei reached for the plant.
He hesitated as it touched his lips. If this child were to live it would have no rightful mother or father. He knew what that was like, and he would not cause that pain on anyone.
And then I hear this voice inside,
I am doing this for the childs own good. Ave Maria.
He chewed and swallowed. He felt the plant start the destruction. Hid hand drifted to his stomache once more. He moaned. Kurama led him to the couch.
"You need to take it easy. This will take a lot out of you. Hiei rested his head on Kurama's shoulder. The stinging returned. He felt a warm arm wrap around his shoulders and he made himself more comfortable as the pain began to set in.
"Did I do the right thing?"
Ave Maria.
Kurama buried his face in soft black hair.
"Only you will know.?
Hiei sighed. "Thank you Kurama. Idont know what would have happened if you werent home when I knocked."
"Lets not think about what hasn't happened, hm?"
Hiei hissed as a ripple of shock went through his system. Kurama tightened his grip.
"Dont worry, Ill be here."
Ave Maria.
SB: That was a tearjerker - no? This story is much better when you hear the song. Please look up the song Ave Maria by Beyonce. Please let me know if you think the story is better with or without the song, and preferably if you listened to the song J Thank you for reading, and I am dying for reviews. If you have any songs you would like me to write to, let me know! I love doing it.
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While youre busy making plans.
You are my hunger my thrist.
Knowing that I've got you.
I know the cost,
Of a losing hand.
And if for the grace of God, oh I..
In so many different ways.