If I should lose your love

So back to the world of writing fanfiction, I thought iv read enough now time to write it again. The last time I wrote it was probably about 10/11 years ago. Yes, I'm old and still reading fanfic.

You know the gist, I don't own twilight it's not mine Bella isn't mine Jake isn't mine Edward and anyone else you recognise isn't mine. They all belong to Stephanie Meyers. This is Team Jacob, iv never been a fan of Eddy sorry I just believe she deserved a chance at life.

Bella POV

"So you chose the leeches then Bella?"

I looked into his brown eyes, trailed my eyes down to his angry mouth, I couldn't help but linger at his lips wondering what he'd taste like…..wait no this is Jake I'm thinking about here he's my best friend, we grew up together, there's no way I could possibly have any feelings for him.

I tried hard to look at the floor but all I could see was his beautiful russet chest and feel the warmth radiating off him when did I even get this close to him? I looked back up to his face I could see the unshed tears in his eyes and before I knew it my hands had cupped his face, he closed his eyes sighed and said "leave now Bella"

I was floored I didn't expect that reaction at all.

He walked out of the Taj not looking back at me and I fell to my knees my heart beating like crazy, what just happened...why did he do that…

I sat on that floor for what felt like hours, Had choosing the Cullen's, Choosing Edward, Did it make me lose his love.