I live in a world where we should never be. We are a forbidden love and maybe that was the appeal, forbidden fruit. But the truth is I let myself fall for him and be crushed in the end. This is my story; this is what he did to me.

The pain I felt was so intense it felt as though a thousand knives were stabbing me repeatedly; the hurt I felt was so great that I cried to the point that I couldn't cry any longer. It was as if life had no purpose; the things in life which used to bring me such joy now only bring me sorrow. Despite the pure agony I feel now I can't bring myself to regret what has happened; people say that only time can repair the damage, but they're wrong. The only way to fix a broken heart is to wash away the past and start over. Its funny how being in love can make you blind to the otherwise obvious; it's never until after the happiness has been replaced with grief that one realizes what he or she has missed. If someone told me love can hurt this much then I never would have become attached, but then again I never would have known the amazing feeling you get when you're in love. That moment in time when you look into that one person's eyes and you know they're everything to you. That heart pounding feeling that makes you feel as if you're floating in mid air, and nothing can bring you down from the joy you feel inside. The complete and utter bliss that takes over your heart and all you can think about is the raw passion you never thought you would have for one person. This is why I can't hate him; as much as I would like to I can't. He hurt me with his betrayal, and I could spend an eternity holding onto the feeling of having your heart ripped into, but I won't. I have my memories, and even if it doesn't seem like it; they are enough. And one day I hope I can move on and find someone else I can laugh with and talk to; someone to make me happy. I would love to feel the joy of being in love again; I want to move on with someone new. However, if what they say is true; you can never forget your first love. You can move on and try to forget them, but you can never truly erase them from your heart. The first person you give your heart to will always to some extent still be in possession of it. I know I will love again; I will move on and one day get married and have kids. I will love life and enjoy it till the day I die, but I also know he will always be their in the back of my mind. He was my first in so many ways; and I hope he can find happiness as well. Despite everything; I could never wish him any harm. He hurt me but in time I will forgive him. As for this pain, it will go away; I just need to give it time.

I guess in a way Ron and Harry were right, in the end he always will be on the dark side. I am Hermione Granger the Gryffindor princess; I did the unthinkable. I fell in love with the slytherin prince,

Draco Malfoy. He will forever have a place in my heart.