He. Left.
I still can't believe it.
Okay, of course I believe it. Who hadn't seen this coming? Me.
But obviously I should have known better. He is brilliant, why it took him as long as it did to get a clear glimpse of me is still the biggest mystery.
He's beyond brilliant. He's talented in every sense of the word, in every way a person could be talented he was. He just, sparkled…Literally. No creature was ever as perfect as he is.
I, on the other hand, have only ever been good at falling…and maybe reading. But in every other way I'm horribly average. Sometimes, below average. Forks has been the only place where someone outside of my immediate family has begged to differ.
Forks also happens to be a pretty messed up little town.
I don't know why I was so surprised to find myself being left by this glorious angel. It probably shouldn't hurt so much; not in the beginning, and surely not now. I loved him, yes. But I never expected him to keep me. For what reasons would he? I should have simply thanked him for sharing any of his moments with me at all…as opposed to wandering aimlessly among trees and bushes and then finally collapsing in a heap.
Still, it does hurt. I won't blame him though. I can't. He has to do what's best for him, just like the rest of us. And really, it's my fault for loving him so much…not that anyone could have helped themselves. But I went into it knowing I wasn't good enough…expecting it to end at any moment. I shouldn't have allowed myself to think that maybe it wouldn't. I'm the one to blame for this.
All I'm good at is falling…and boy did I fall for Edward Cullen.