axayashinoceres: Hello my readers! Well, this is my debut story for here. I actually wrote a few stories at fictionpress but this would be my first. This story is still ongoing so please be patient with me. I hope to receive any reviews to help me improve my writing style and skills. I'm in your hands. *bow*
In Whose Arms
Doubts. Is there a man out there who exists without doubts? I wouldn't know. For the seventeen years that I have lived I have doubted numbers of times. And I am again feeling doubt. It creeps slowly on the edge of your consciousness and grows in varying speed. When it takes root, it can never be shaken off. It bothers its host like an itch begging to be scratched. And the host, like a vain fool tries to hold out, resist. But sooner or later the host would give in, and the doubts sprout stronger than ever now that it had won. It always wins in the end. It always did for me. And the results are always ending with me being humiliated.
This doubt I'm feeling, it has been bothering me for a month now, spouting its logical lies that I resist to believe. But now I have a feeling that something is about to change. For the better or worse, I don't know. All I know is that I'm going to give in very soon. And this time it's going to end up a lot worse than me humiliated. It's going to end up with me getting hurt. I don't know how so don't ask me. I just know. And so here I am taking slow reluctant steps towards the apartment I live in; the apartment where I live with my beloved. Here goes the doubt again. I know that once I get there, the real story will begin. It will be agony for me. But I can do nothing else except to ride it out till it's over. No matter how painful it'll be for me once this is over
Here I am standing outside the door. On the other side of this door, is my worst nightmare. There's no turning back. I never had the choice, really. I can never run away so might as well confront this. I reached for the doorknob and gave it a twist. And with one last, big gulp of air I push the door open and plunge into my version of hell.
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TBC…
axayashinoceres: Well there it is, my prologue. Thank you very much for giving this story a chance. Truthfully, I planned to make this a oneshot but it somehow grew on me. (nevermind that I don't know how to make a oneshot...hehehe.....). It was completely unexpected. Farewell for now!