A/N: Hello there. This is my first real Twilight fanfic, so i hope it doesnt dissapoint. Its something unique that i wanted to try, so i hope you like it. it takes place after the wedding in Breaking Dawn, so Bella will not be pregnant or a Vampire. This chapter is more of a prologue that kind of depicts the Future. Maybe, Maybe not, but this first chapter is more future in the future. lol Review me if you think i should continue or have questions.
Desclaimer: Stephanie Meyer ows the rights, i only own the plot.
1. Prologue- Nothng Gold Can Stay
Nature's first green is gold
Her hardest hue to hold
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour,
Then leaf subsides to leaf,
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down today,
Nothing gold can stay.
- Robert Frost
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This was never what he wanted. Not at all.
It all started out as a game. A harmless little game, but now he was paying the ultimate price.
Isn't it funny how one wrong move can cost you everything? And I don't mean money. No, not money. Money meant next to nothing to him, seeing as he had so much of it already. I mean, the very purpose of your existence. The very reason you keep on going after everything else was lost. Gone. Forever.
But he had gotten over that, as best he could. Now he had no reason for anything. Now he wanted to let everything go, let it slip away. Just like everything else that had happened in his life.
Maybe he was cursed. Maybe he would never get to experience true love, at least not one that would last. He was too much of a monster. A murderer. A blood-thirsty fiend.
He couldn't think about that now though, not when his world was crashing down around him. And he still was in denial. He knew it was all over, as soon as the thrumming of her heart ceased, he knew it was all over. But he never got it, he never let it in.
It was now, as he ran aimlessly though the dark forests, taking in every sound around him, that he felt the pan radiating all over his body. As if he was being overcome by monstrous flames. And he didn't care. Feeling this aching pain all over was better than thinking about her. Thinking about her soft brown hair, and her appetizing floral scent. What he wouldn't give to just hold her in his arms one more time. And yet, that day would never come. But he always knew that it wouldnt last. At least, not forever. Not like she wanted.
If only he had given in, like she had said on so many occasions. Maybe, just maybe, she would still be here, with him. She wouldn't have been sucked away into oblivion, where everyone else he had ever loved seemed to go. He thought he had readied himself for this. He thought he would be prepared for this day. It was just the law of nature, human's live, and human's die. But today was not her time, it was too soon.
He hated her, hated every fiber of her being for leaving him. For abandoning him.
But, of course, that could not last very long. How could he hate such a beautiful creature. How could he hate his own guardian angel. She had saved him, in every way a person can be saved, but now she existed only in his memory.
And It's the hardest thing, being in love with a memory. Searching for what no longer exists, and in the end all you can do is decide what you want to remember next.
And that's what his mind wandered to, no matter how hard he tried to stop it. All of his memories, his good ones at least, were of her. All the times they had touched, all the times they had kissed, all the times they were together. Making him hurt even more, but not physically, no, mentally. He was at his breaking point.
A mind could only handle so much before it snapped, showing everyone the monster within.
But he would never let that happen. She would never want that to happen, to see him as the true monster he was, even if she never believed it herself. His inner demon would stay locked away, deep inside him, even if it killed him. But it wasn't his inner monster that would follow through with that deed.
His pace grew faster as the scent of salt water filled his brain, he was nearing the coast now, the last place anyone would think to find him. The last place he himself even wanted to be, but he needed quiet, calmness. Away from the raging thoughts of his family. The thoughts that were killing him.
Feeling the soft sand underneath his bare feet, he slowed down to a walk. His human pace.
The beach was bare except for a few fallen trees lying across it. Not a soul in sight. This calmed him a bit, now able to think clearly. Alone. Free. Letting all the guilt and remorse flood through him. A small voice, soft and melodic swam through his head. The last words his dearly beloved had said to him before she succumbed to the darkness.
When you move on, remember me, remember us, and all we used to be.
This was just an idea that popped into my Brain and i hope you enjoy it. Again, this is a prologue, its not the official first chapter because, believe me, Bella will be in it.
Please Review if you would like me to continue, otherwise i dont know if i will find the time. I need wonderful reviews to keep me going :]
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