It was very late and Castiel was waiting for Dean to come home. Like any other day Cas knew Dean would be shit faced drunk when he got home but at least Lucy was asleep. Lucy was their three year old adopted daughter who was the world to Dean and him. Castiel sighed and leaned into the couch and looked up at the ceiling tears stinging his eyes, he didn't want to live like this any more it was to much. taking the beatings he didn't deserve, he loved Dean he really did but this was just to much for him to live with. He would never fight back because he knew it would just make Dean punch harder.

When he heard the Impala he wiped his eyes and walk toward the front door stopping by the stairs for Dean. The door opened and Dean stumbled in Castiel stepped forward in case Dean fell but was met with a punch to the jaw. He stumbled back catching himself on the railing of the staircase, Dean slammed the door behind him and yanked Cas up by the front of his shirt.

Castiel grabbed Deans wrist "Dean... please" he begged fighting back tears, Dean threw him into the wall. He bounced of with a loud 'thud', he tried to pick himself up off the floor but Dean kicked him in the gut. Castiel felt something snap inside him and he cried out in pain, and without thinking dropped kick Dean to the ground. He quickly got up and ran toward the living room, but Dean gabbed him by the arm and slammed him against the wall face first. He then grabbed Cas by a clump of his hair and began to slam his head into the wall.

Suddenly there was a pull on Deans jacket "Stop it" a little voice said and Castiel's heart stopped. Dean grew aggravated and threw his hand back slapping Lucy. She fell to the floor with a cry and stopped moving.

"No!" Castiel said and pushed Dean down so he could get to their daughter, when Dean hit the floor he saw his daughter limp on the floor. He sobered up pretty quick after he saw her face.

"Oh god." he said and reached for her but Castiel pulled her away, he lifted her up into her arms tears streaming down his bruised bloody face. "Cas... oh god Cas I..." he said standing and following Castiel as he headed for the front door. "Cas wait please" he said following him to the car, Castiel opened the door to his Honda and placed Lucy in the backseat "Castiel talk to me"

"Why" his said in a firm tone and turned to face Dean "There is nothing to say Dean I can take the punches and the kicks that I don't deserve but Lucy is your daughter Dean and I'm sorry but I am done." he said tears still falling from his eyes as they formed in Deans. Castiel looked Down at his hand and took his wedding ring off and gave it to Dean " I will not let you ruin her life with your problem" he said and got into the car.

"Cas please don't go please!" Dean begged but Castiel just drove away.

~three weeks later~

"Dean you saw this coming" Sam said shaking his head at his brother.

"Don't you think I feel bad enough Sam!" Dean said " I don't even know where they are or if Lucy's okay" he said his voice weak.

Sam sighed "he's with me and Gabriel" he said.

Dean shot him a look "What?" he shouted "Why didn't you tell me?... Sam you know I am worried about them"

"I know Dean but he made me promise and with the way his face was torn to shit I said yes" Sam said.

Dean sighed and leaned back "Fine is... is Lucy okay?" he asked Sam frowned and bowed his head.

"Sam is Lucy okay?"

"She hasn't spoken since that night" he said lifting his head "Shes also been waking up screaming for the past three weeks" he said plainly.

"Oh god" Dean breathed covering his face with his hands, he breathed for a moment. "I'm never gonna see her again am I?"

Sam sighed "That's not up to me" he said " and you damn lucky I kept Gabriel from killing your ass" he said.

"Great now Gabe hates my guts" Dean said "Could this get any worse?"

"actually I think it can"

Dean laughed darkly "it was a rhetorical Question Sam... but go ahead try and make it worse"

"Cas is filing for a divorce"

Dean looked at the floor and started to cry silently "Okay I'm losing everything" he said when Sam's phone went off.

"Hello"

"Sam I need you home right away"

"What why I think I need to spent more time with Dean"

" I understand that but I need you to go home right now to watch Lucy"

"Gabriel what are you talking about Cas is there"

"No Cas is... is in the hospital right now"

"What! What are you talking about"

"I don't no Sam I just left for a minute... oh god it's all my fault"

Sam could heard Gabriel begin to cry "honey don't cry... I'll be home soon okay just give me a call when you calm down okay"

"Okay... I love you Sam"

"I love you to bye" Sam said and closed his phone. "I have to leave" he said and stood.

Dean stood with him "Wait whats wrong?"he asked wiping his eyes.

"Nothing Gabe just needs me home is all" he said looking at the floor.

"Sam I can tell when your lying now whats wrong?" he said.

"Cas is in the hospital" he said.

"What why?"

"Don't know okay I have to get home now... Dean stay away from the hospital please" Sam begged.

"Okay I won't go near the hospital" he said.

~o~

Dean walked into the hospital and the first thing he saw was Gabriel near the front desk. Unfortunately Gabriel saw him as well, "You... what gives you the right to be here" he said

"The fact that my husband is in the hospital"Dean said.

"He's not your husband any more" Gabriel snapped back.

Dean sighed "Gabe please I have to talk to him"

"Look if it were up to me I'd say fine, but Cas doesn't want anything to do with you anymore Dean" he said his tone a little softer.

"Gabriel please" Dean said.

Gabriel sighed and thought for a moment "Room 265" he said.

Dean made his way down the hall to Castiels room. When he saw Cas the first thing he saw were the bandages on his wrist "Cas" Dean breath. Castiel tried to kill himself and it was all Deans fault, Dean took a step forward and Castiel turn his head to find Dean.

"Dean?" he said sitting up.

"Cas we need to.."

"Go away!" Castiel interrupted.

"Cas please I've changed okay I stopped drinking I'm going to AA please just give me another chance"

"I gave you to many chances Dean, but... you hit our daughter our three year old daughter and I can't let you put her in danger anymore" Castiel said plainly. "Now please leave!"

Dean was now close to the bed "And what let you kill yourself in front of her!" he shouted.

"You don't know me anymore Dean I have changed more than you will ever know!" he shouted back "and this being in the hospital is because of you because I couldn't bring myself to hurt you only knowing it would just make you hurt me more and I can't take it anymore okay so please Dean stay away from me and Lucy because you will never see us again!"

Dean never let his teas fall as he left the hospital without a word to Gabriel.