Note: I do not own X/1999, they belong to CLAMP. There is a slight hint of Seishiro/Subaru pairing, but also a slight hint of Subaru/Kamui pairing. From again, Kamui's POV.
My Wish
Hearing my destiny I feel detached,
The feeling of strings threading through and attached,
They pull, dangle, and made me limbs move,
A puppet or doll for a cruel person by the name,
Fate, she gave me two choices to decide.
Neither, I would've chosen if there was,
But neither I have a choice and time.
So I stop, calm my self and think,
Between two, my best friend or the world.
The world is where I have group of friends now,
My best friend who is unintentionally involved,
I know what is like to be controlled and watching.
My heart thumps and quickens,
The day reaches near and I have to choose.
I haven't chosen yet, my wish remains unchanged.
Then I met you, a kindle soul.
You offer guidance, advice, and help.
I've reached for your hand,
Giving myself hope that there is another way.
Then you fell into a shock,
Killing the one you treasure the most.
I wouldn't blame you when you went into sleep,
Refusing to come out of your shell,
Unresponsive and still awake.
I've watched hopelessly, waiting for you come.
But some of the walls are tumbling,
Bonds are being made,
Trust and friendship from places we never knew,
The cheerful monk made the none moving miko cry.
The fire maiden died for the wind master.
I couldn't do anything until its too late,
The dog guardian cried in to the Forest Man's arms,
You, my Magician, is unaware,
You're heart is confuse and lost,
You've lost your double-edge sword.
Forgive me for my critique, but I am being blunt.
Though I haven't choose yet, my wish has.
Wishes and dreams are born from the heart.
The heart itself needs to be strong,
Strong enough to carry the will towards the wish.
Some wishes won't be granted when we wish,
But we can dream, can't we?
Forgive me for my wistful thinking, but it's true.
Over time those strong wishes will change,
Their heart desires will change it,
Changing it into something we'll satisfy.
Then it changed mines, my wish.
What I want is to keep on moving with everyone,
To see how the future of the Earth will be like,
To see you open your eyes, and I'll say 'Good Morning',
But I also want for the Earth and mankind to live,
Even though some of them don't have the right to.
And so, I have to decide.
Deciding which of two wishes I should use.
I want my friend back, I want everyone to live on,
I want the Earth to live, and...I especially want you to live.
You, my Magician, save me from myself,
And I would have returned the favor if I have time.
Time itself is hasty, fickle and mysterious,
If anything, I'll carry the pain, the hurt, the hate,
From you and my friends, I'll carry them alone,
To spare you and them from those emotions,
Giving them and you enough time to be happy.
So that is my wish,
My wish for the world and mankind to live,
To survive, to rebuild, and to relearn,
What we should have cherished the most.
And from that wish alone, I'm willing to pay the price.
Even if it cost my heart or my soul.
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