A/N: This is a new story that i've been working on. there's going to be one more chapter after this. Sort of my investigation into the mind of the oh so frightening Eiri Yuki. :D please review and be kind enough to answer the poll on my profile page:D and if you havent read my other stories you should do that too. oh and in this story, please disregard gravitation DJ for those of you who have read it. and for those of you who havent... well i find half of it rather adorable and half of it EXTREMELY disturbing so... yeah, be prepared

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Secret: Yuki smokes less because of Shuichi.

Evidence: When Shuichi is on tour, Yuki goes through at least one pack of cigarettes if not two. When Shuichi has work all day, Yuki tends to go through 10 or 12 sticks, all before Shuichi gets home. On Shuichi's rare days off, Yuki has exactly 4; one after each meal and one after they have sex. It's not that Yuki doesn't want to smoke more, it's just that every time he pulls out a cigarette, Shuichi will complain. Technically speaking, complaining isn't really the issue, Yuki can just ignore that. The real issue is the crying, love confessions, lectures about cancer, and ultimately seduction that follows after the complaining. Shuichi makes absolutely sure that Yuki is too preoccupied to even think about having a smoke.

Secret: Yuki likes Shuichi's voice.

Evidence: It doesn't matter how many times Yuki tells Shuichi to shut the hell up, it doesn't change the fact that Yuki loves to hear his lover sing. Why else would he listen to In the Moonlight when he got bored? Why would he "waste" his precious time going to Bad Luck concerts? And when they're in bed, Yuki loves the sound of Shuichi more than anything. I know what you're thinking… not like that Gutter Brain! I meant Yuki likes it when Shuichi sings to him before they go to sleep, like a lullaby. On these nights, Yuki sleeps particularly well and his nightmares never show up.

Secret: Yuki will miss Shuichi if he's away for too long.

Evidence: One time, Shuichi went on a four month tour, it was the longest period of time he had been way from Yuki since they started dating. Of course, he called come at least three times a day to check up on the author, making sure the remembered to eat and take his medicine and all. But during the last few weeks of tour, his calls home became less frequent; from three calls a day to two and then to only one call a day. One day, Shuichi forgot to call entirely. The next morning, he received a strongly worded text message from Yuki with words that should never be used…ever. It was so strongly worded that Shuichi didn't even know what half of them actually meant, and had to ask Hiro, who ended up asking K because he didn't know them either. The topic of the message was along the lines of Shuichi being a "fucking whore" with a "loose hole" and cheating on him with "that prick with a small dick, asshole" Hiro. When Shuichi got home from the tour, K was nice enough to give them three days off to rest up. Unfortunately, it was a week before Shuichi could walk again.

Secret: Yuki likes having sex with Shuichi more than anyone else.

Evidence: I know this will be very hard to believe, but Yuki hasn't had sex with anyone other than Shuichi since they started going out three years ago. For the renowned sex god, that's saying something. Shuichi is also the only one that can get him hard without a blowjob. It's strange, but somehow Yuki always gets hard when he watches Shuichi come all over the place. Normally, it would be a total turn off, his partner coming before he did; but Shuichi was different… which is good news for Yuki since Shuichi sucks at blowjobs regardless.

Secret: Shuichi is Yuki's only man, ever. (Please disregard Gravitation dj)

Evidence: No, Yuki has never had sex with another man. He shot Kitazawa and the other thugs before they could do anything to him. After that, the idea of having sex with a man was absurd, absolutely out of the question. Even Tohma, ruler of the universe, had to back off. It had always been dirty whores with loose vaginas until Shuichi came around, which would explain why Shuichi's tight hole turns him on. Why it was okay with Shuichi, we will never know… it just seems that Yuki thought the little singer was acting "sort of cute" at the time and he was sex deprived.

Secret: Yuki likes to lie, especially when Shuichi is involved.

Evidence: When Shuichi sings, Yuki will say he sounds like a dying cat with a torn vocal cord. When Shuichi cooks, Yuki will say he's trying to poison him with food that was unfit for even the lowliest dog. When Shuichi asks Yuki to read the lyrics he wrote, Yuki will say that a first grader has more talent, then tear up the paper into a million pieces. Too bad for Yuki, he's a really bad liar, and Shuichi knows it all too well. He knows Yuki loves his voice because Yuki will tell him to sing to him until he falls asleep, so he'll sing day in and day out just for Yuki. Even though Yuki complains about his cooking every time, he'll always finish all of it and sometimes he'll even as for seconds, so Shuichi knows his cooking isn't that bad. That's why he tries hard to never leave the house in the morning without making Yuki some lunch. And he knows his lyrics aren't that bad because Yuki always types out a copy after tearing the original up and leaves it on the desk for Shuichi to find later. So no matter how hard Yuki tries to hide his feelings with lies, Shuichi always knows the truth.

Secret: Yuki needs Shuichi.

Evidence: Yuki has become dependent on Shuichi, so much so that it scares him a little bit. (Okay maybe more than a little bit, actually it's more like a lotta bit.) Without Shuichi around, Yuki wouldn't be able to live, literally. There would be no one to cook, clean, do the laundry, get his coffee, remind him to take his pills, make him go to sleep after three all-nighters, provide sexual relief, or sing him to sleep. Yes, life without the pink-haired singer would be a living hell for him and he was not planning on going back there anytime soon. But it's not just chores and stuff, Yuki really needs Shuichi, mentally and emotionally. Don't ask him how, but the little brat never fails to make his day a little less tiring even though you'd think that Shuichi would cause him to be more tired. This one's a mystery even I can't solve. It's okay though, some mysteries are better left alone.

Secret: Yuki loves Shuichi.

Evidence: The puddle of water where Yuki's ice heart finally melted.

A/N: again would you please be kind enough to review and answer the poll on my profile page :D thank you and have a Gravitational Day :D