This Is Goodbye ;;
Paper Cuts
The blood dripped slowly down his pale arm, going over his past scars, mixing in with the tears that began to flood from his tired eyes. Clenching his fist so he could see his veins more clearly, careful to miss them, he dragged the razor across his skin once more, the blood was thicker this time, spilling faster, its what he wanted. He wanted to feel, feel something that was because of him, and not a creature of the night. He hated what he did to himself, but this is the only way he could stop pretending.
"Sam, hurry up dude, i need to take a leak," The familiar screams of his brother at the over side of the door startled him, used to the silence, Dean was usually asleep at this time. He put a tissue over his arm, and put his jumper on, even though the weather was mildly hot, he needed to hide his true form. He flushed the toilet, and splashed water over his face, unlocking the door and walked out, Dean staring at him.
"You need to eat more fibre," He laughed, Sam nodded his head, feeling uneasy he sat on his bed. Dean flushed the toilet five minutes later, and walked into the motel room, sitting on his bed, not a minute later Sam heard the familiar grunts of Deans sleeping body.
How can i tell him that i so badly want to go? So badly want to leave and go back to being normal, what's normal any way, I've been away from it for so long, I've forgot what it is. I don't want to leave Dean, he is my brother and my best friend, but i don't want to hunt any more, all of my life has been about hunting, about saving other people, but who was the one that was saving me? Dean, i was sick of him saving me, it was like his mission to save Sammy, that's what Dad always told him, that's why Dad hit him when ever i got bullied, when ever i got hurt Dean was left to suffer.
"Sammy, are you okay?" Deans voice said shakily as they drove down the high way, he had noticed the bitter silence that made him feel nervous.
"Fine." Sam replied, not looking at Dean. "I'm fine."
Dean continued to drive at his usual fast speed, the silence got so irritating he turned on his classic selection of mullet rock full blast.
Sam made a small scream as he held his head in his hands, Dean turned the music of, and stopped the car. "Sammy, are you okay, Sammy, talk to me." Dean said, he hated the fact that his younger brother had to go through so much pain, because the powers that be wanted him to see things that no one else could.
"Sammy..." Dean pressed on, when there was no reply from his brother.
"She's so scared," Sam said, tears streaming down his face, "Dean, she's scared, he's going to kill her, we have to help, God, she's so scared." Sam said not bothering to stop the tears, they rolled freely. "We have to help her." He cried. Dean looked at his brother through confused eyes. And began to drive.
"Where to Sammy?" Dean asked, and put his foot down.
A/N;; So this is my first supernatural fic, hope you liked it.
There will be more obviously, this was sort of like a taster to see what people thought.
Please Comment on how i can make it better and if you have any suggestions.
The Title is from Mcfly's song BubbleWrap.. it kind of just gave me the idea and suited the fic really well.
Chapter title : Paper cuts taken from Nirvanas album Bleach.. i felt it just went with how sam feels really
Love Jen xx