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_Okay, this is probably kind of sad. It'll get better though. You'll just have to be patient. There is a little OOC for Heero, but give the guy a break.
'Lose and Gain'
Chapter 1
Heero watched Duo's son run with ever-present energy across his living room floor. Close behind him ran Duo and his wife Hilde. "Solo." Duo called helplessly. "Don't you want a nap. Daddy wants a nap." Duo reached for the small retreating form and grabbed the child by his overalls and lifted him off him feet. Solo didn't seem to notice he had been lifted off the ground because his legs still moved in the rhythmic motion of running. "Got you Shinigami!" Duo yelled happily and Solo screamed in delight his face twisted in laughter.
"I'm going to get you!" Hilde called at him and reached her hands down to tickle the child's stomach. He giggled and pleaded with them to stop, but Hilde pretended she didn't hear. "What did you say Solo?" She teased. "You want me to tickle you more." Solo broke down into more laughter and Duo joined him. "I think." Hilde said when she was finished and Solo was smiling adoringly at them. "That little Shinigami needs a nap." Solo reached out for Hilde from Duo's arms and wrapped his chubby fingers around her neck.
"Okay mommy." He said sweetly and turned to look at Dou. "Good night Daddy." Turning again Solo turned to face Heero. "Good night Uncle Heero."
Heero smiled at him and nodded. "Good night Solo."
"Mommy can I get down for a minute?" He asked. Hilde smiled and placed him on the ground. Solo ran over to where Heero was sitting and jumped into his lap. A little confused Heero just looked at the child. "Will you give me a hug?" Awkwardly Heero lifted the child and wrapped his arms around the toddler's waist and around his back. "Thank you Uncle Heero." Solo said and jumped off Heero's lap and went back to where Duo and Hilde stood patiently waiting for him. "Now I'm ready he announced happily and grabbed Hilde's hand and pulled her toward his bedroom.
"He's a handful." Duo commented before he sunk into the couch beside Heero his eyes closing slightly as he enjoyed the moments of silence. "Sometimes I don't know how I do it."
Heero turned and smiled grimly at the floor. Sometimes Duo I wish I knew how you felt. "So what did you want me for Duo." Heero asked turning to face him again.
"Well," Duo said smiling and trying to hide his excitement. "Hilde and I have been thinking about this for a while and we were wondering if you would be Solo's Godfather." Duo's grin broadened. "I know it's been hard since Relena and Trey died and I think Solo would be good for you. Plus if anything was ever to happen we'd know he'd be in good hands."
Heero didn't look up from the floor he was momentarily lost in the past. Just a year and a half before his beautiful wife had gone into labor.
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"Heero." Relena whispered in a calm voice even though her heart was beating rapidly and something deep down inside her told her something was wrong. "Heero please wake up." Heero stirred beside her and his eyes fluttered open. "Heero, I think it time. I've been having pains for almost and hour now." With those words Heero leaped from the bed his eyes wide and wild.
"A-are you sure Relena? Of course you're sure. Oh gosh I'll get the car. Yeah. Yeah, you just wait I'll be right back." Heero felt his heart race with excitement. He was going to be a father in just a few short hours. Never in his life had he expected things to end like this. Heero was happy and everything he did or experienced just made him happier.
"Heero, Heero hurry." Relena called after him and groaned in pain.
Heero almost turned back to go after her but figured it was just contractions. I have to get the car, just one-minute. Heero flung open the garage door stumbled through the assorted junk scattered across the floor, mostly mobile suit part, and tried to reach the car. Finally pulling his leg free of a stray piece of metal Heero managed to get into the car and start it. Calm down Yuy, there is no need to panic. He told himself and took a deep breath before he started the car and pulled the out of the garage and onto the road. Leaving the car running Heero jumped out and bounded back into the house to get Relena. He didn't hear anything on his way up there all that met him in the darkened hallways was dead silence. "Relena." He called. "Relena are you ready." No answer. Rounding the corner of their bedroom door, Heero peeked into the room and called for her again. "Relena I…" Heero trailed off as he caught sight of her body sprawled across the floor. Her beautiful hair was lying limply around her head and her eyes were closed in a peaceful silence but her brow was contorted in pain. Running his panicked eyes over the sight he caught sight of the blood that had pooled around her body. "Oh God Relena! Answer me!" Heero kneeled beside her and picked up her shoulders. Her head lolled back and her eyes remained closed. Slowly and almost in fear Heero put his shaking fingers on her neck. She still has a pulse. Thank God. I'll save you…Oh god. Heero laid Relena's unconscious body in the passenger seat and climbed into the driver's seat. "Hang on Relena, please hang on."
"You've got to help me." Heero called as he entered the hospital with Relena cradled in his arms. "Please something's wrong. She's pregnant." Heero searched desperately for a doctor someone, but the lobby was empty. "Help me God dammit! She dying." A thick red blood ran down his shirt and soaked into his pajamas. He didn't notice though all he could think of was her and his son. A nurse rounded the corner and caught sight of the bloodied man almost in a panic.
"Oh." She gasped involuntarily and ran to the intercom. "Doctor, Doctor Janis come to the lobby stat." Looking at Heero again the nurse tried to calm herself. There's no way this girl will survive. She thought. "What happened?"
"She's pregnant. Oh God… She was fine. She woke up and I went to get the car…I shouldn't have left her." Heero tried to sort his thoughts but he was to bombarded by worry and guilt he couldn't think.
"Just calm down sir and tell me your name."
"Heero Yuy. And this is Relena, please you've got to save her."
Heero watched helplessly as Relena was wheeled away on a gurney and tried to collect his thoughts. She can't die. Did I get her here in time? Is she in pain? What about our son, will he survive? Heero rested his head in his hands and tried to stop the tears that threatened to fall. She can't die, no I promised to protect her, I promised.
"Mr. Yuy, um Mr. Yuy sir, I'm sorry to disturb you, but I need you to fill out some forms." The nurse looked genuinely sorry to be asking him to do such a thing. She paused as if trying to think of a way to ease the pain and to help. "Is there anyone you want me to call?" She asked hopefully.
Milliardo, Noin, the others… "Yeah you need to call her brother Milliardo Peacecraft and his wife, and could you also call Duo Maxwell, Wufie…" Heero went on to recite the names of all the Gundam pilots but his thoughts were elsewhere. Somewhere in this hospital his wife and son were dying and this time there was nothing he could do to stop it, there was no one to blame but himself.
* * * * * * 1 Hour later * * * * * *
Duo ran into the hospital and down the hall to the third floor. I can't believe I was gone on a mission when Jousan needs all here. Duo thought to himself as he used his pet name for Relena. I hope Heero's all right and what about Hilde she's pregnant, too. I hope she's not worried. Duo redoubled his effort and sped for the wing in which his best friend's life was coming to a deadly and abrupt halt. Finally finding the right floor Duo burst into the waiting room his breath coming in labored gulps. No one seemed to acknowledge his presence; they were all lost in thought. All of them were there: Hilde, Wufie and Sally, Trowa and Catherine, Quatre and Dorothy, and Milliardo and Noin. Heero was no where in sight.
"Were is Heero?" Duo asked breaking the deafening silence that filled the room. "How's Jousan? What happened?"
"Oh Duo." Hilde whimpered turning to face him her cheeks swollen and red with tears. Her arms were wrapped protectively around her swollen stomach and her lip quivered as she looked as him. "I…" Hilde couldn't speak. Duo ran over to where Hilde was standing and wrapped her in a hug.
"It's alright Hilde." He said smoothing her hair and kissing the top of her head. "Don't worry babe, everything's going to be alright. Where's Heero?" He asked again hoping by some miracle that Relena was all right.
"He went to see her about 20 minutes ago." Trowa informed him and continued to look at the floor while Catherine leaned mournfully on his shoulder. "She hemorrhaged- they lost the baby. The doctors tried to save him, but he was dead before they could get to him. Relena's in a coma- a blood vessel burst in her brain. The doctors don't think she'll live through the night."
Hilde leaned against Duo and stifled a gasp as Trowa finished the synopsis. "How's Heero?" There was silence all around. Trowa turned to look at Catherine.
"Not good." Wufie picked up the speech, his voice very controlled. "He's not taking it too well. He broke down when they told him his son was dead…"
"He named him." Quatre spoke up. "Before they told him Relena was dying. "He said both of them had decided on it yesterday…Trey-Trey Odin Yuy/Peacecraft." Quatre's eyes were brimming with tears as he remembered the broken soldier reciting his child's name softly to himself.
"Can we go see her?" Duo asked
"Yeah." Quatre said. "Heero wanted to go first though. Then the rest of us can go."
* * * * 15 minutes * * * *
Heero shoved his trembling fingers into the pockets of his jeans. 'It all happened so fast, now my son is dead and my wife is…' He stopped he couldn't even finish the thought, couldn't admit it. 'Relena's invincible.' It wasn't long before he reached the dark wooden door; behind it lay the broken shell of his wife. The halls were quiet so many people had suffered and died in this building. Turing the knob Heero willed his tears to stop. He had to be strong for Relena.
As soon as Heero opened the door he could hear the beeping of the medical machines, and smell antiseptics and various medicines. As he entered further he caught sight of his beautiful Relena. Tubes, millions of tubes ran throughout her body. Her eyes were darkened and her head in a white bandage. Her face was pale almost the color of her hospital sheets and the rosy red color that once painted her cheeks was gone. Lips parted in a small semi-circle, her breath escaped her body. The thing that caught his attention most was her stomach. It no longer bulged with his son, but was flat and the sight of it chilled him to the core. Moving up beside her Heero clutched her hand 'They're so cold,' between his. Sinking into a hospital chair right beside her bed Heero once again tried to stop his tears. "Relena." He said his voice breaking. Heero swallowed the lump that welled in his throat and continued. "Relena I'm here. Will you come back?" Only silence followed his request. "I don't know if you know Relena, but Trey-Trey he's gone… I'm sorry I left you and I didn't pay closer attention to your pain. Maybe if I'd driven faster…I could have…" Heero stopped it was too much, the guilt and the sorrow overwhelmed him and the tears that had wanted to fall so desperately cascaded down his worn and weary cheeks. "Please come back. Please I can't live without you." Heero leaned over resting his head in the crook of her neck. He breathed in deeply smelling her, remembering her. "I'm so sorry. Please come back." Heero cried into her neck, but despite his desperate pleas her eyelids never lifted to reveal the sea of jade underneath. In that hospital room Heero's life ended. He was left to face the world with emotions he didn't know how to deal with.
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` Heero let the memories play through his mind as he tried to answer Duo. I don't think I can do it. Heero turned to face his friend. "I…I" He stopped his words when he saw the hopeful expression on Duo's face. "Yeah Duo, I'll do it."
"I knew we could count on you Heero, now…" He added coolly. "Me and Hilde were planning on having a date Friday night and if your not busy…."
Heero would have smiled. "Yeah Duo, go ahead." With that he stood not able to deal with the emotions that assaulted him. Why does it still hurt? Heero waved bye to Hilde and headed back for his home. He couldn't go back to his and Relena's room, not since the accident. Not since he'd lost his angel. Too many happy memories were inside that house and Heero didn't want to be happy, not without her and not without his son.
As the small white house came into view Heero pulled into the driveway and turned off his car. How was he supposed to be a 'Godfather' to Duo's child? He could hardly take care of himself and mostly he just wanted to end it all. To leave this world full of pain and sorrow and live with his wife and the child he'd never known.
Stepping into the house he let the darkness surround him and sank to the floor. It wasn't fair. He'd suffered so much before the war and then when he'd finally found peace it'd all be ripped away from him in one vicious moment. Heero covered his head with his hands and cried. Everything hurt so much now. Nothing made any since.
* * * * *Outside Duo and Hilde's around 12:45 P.M.* * * * * * *
"Are you sure this is the place?" Calvin cupped his hand around his lighter and lit his cigarette. As he inhaled he looked at the small brick house. "It doesn't look all that big."
"Yeah, this is it. I hacked into the Preventer files just last night." Trent waved the smoke out of his face and pointed at the third window from the right. "That is the Maxwell's room."
Calvin took the cigarette out of his mouth and flicked some ashes on the pavement. "What are we doing this for anyway?" He asked and took another drag.
"He's a Gundam pilot." Trent told him simply. "Our orders were to eliminate all and every form of threat to us. The Gundam pilots more than fit the criteria."
"What about his wife. Surely she doesn't pose much of a threat."
"Oh she's plenty lethal. Ex Oz soldier, mobile suit expert, intelligence, hand to hand combat. Together they're a regular army." Trent snorted. "After them we'll go for the pilot of wing zero."
"Do you know where he lives?" Calvin asked and ground his cigarette into the side of his seat.
"No, his files are encrypted."
"Good thing we don't have to kill that Peacecraft woman." Trent said
"At least we can be thankful for that much, but they've go a kid."
"Who? The Maxwell's." Trent's eyes widened. "You think we need to grease him too."
"Yeah." Calvin opened his door and stepped onto the street. His gun was drawn and between his fingers. "This will only take a minute. We'll get them while their sleeping, and the kid. We'll just smother him."
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