Disclaimer: I don't own law & order UK or any of it's characters. If I did then along with a good few others would not have had Matt Devlin killed off or James leave.

Summery: D.S Matt Devlin's world is torn apart by the murder of his girl, can the rest of the team get who did it, as well as help Matt from spiralling out of control and attempt to get his life back on track.

Chapter 1

Ronnie sat watching his younger partner. He looked awful, he was pretty sure he hadn't slept much recently and by the looks of him not had a decent meal for just as long. Sighing he decided to attempt a conversation with the detective, something that had been hard work recently.

"Say what you are thinking Ron. You just watching me is doing my head in!" Matt Devlin's voice beat him to it, as he pulled himself away from whatever he had been reading and fixed dull blue eyes on the older detective. Again Ronnie sighed.

"You shouldn't be here Matty." He told him.

"No I shouldn't. I should be out looking for my fiancée, but as I am not allowed to do that being at the station is the next best thing. I cant go home…" he trailed off dropping his head in his hands.

Ronnie watched him, his heart going out to the young lad, it had been 4 long weeks since Emma had gone missing, though he was pretty sure to Matt it had felt like a life time and the strain of having to hold up the shields he always held in situations like this was starting to show and to Ronnie's relief he was starting to let Ronnie and Alesha in bit by bit.

"I need to be out there Ron. I have let her down…" Again the words caught in his throat.

"You haven't let her down mate. We will find her. We have the best team out there and you know that." Ronnie tried to assure him, placing a hand on his shoulder, not sure it was making any difference. Matt didn't say anything.

"Ronnie" DI Natalie Chandler's voice called through the room, stopping him from offering any more re assurance.

"Guv?"

"A word please." Natalie said glancing at the young lad next to him who still had his head buried in his hands, seemingly unaware of the pressance of the DI in the room. Ronnie nodded getting up and following her out.

"How is Matt doing? He really shouldn't be here." Natalie told him, nodding at him to take a seat as she resumed behind her desk. Ronnie sighed, seemed he had been doing that a lot lately.

"I have tried telling him that Guv, but I don't think he can face home at the moment. And as for how he's doing…I don't know? He is blaming himself. It's exhausting him stopping himself from going out with the team looking for Emma." Ronnie explained. Natalie ran a hand over her face, concern growing for Matt and his state of mind. There was a knock at the door.

"Come in." Natalie called. Ange walked in a grave look on her face, she was glad that it was just Ronnie and the Guv in the room with the news she was about to deliver.

"Guv I have just received a report through. A women's body has been found…" She trailed off trying to compose herself. Taking a deep breath she continued.

"They are pretty sure it's Emma. They need a team down there for conformation." She finished watching the face's of the two people in front of her pale.

"Oh god." Natalie breathed as Ronnie dropped his head in his hands wondering how the hell he was going to break this to Matt.