Disclaimer: I don't own Pushing Daisies and the song which is This Time by Vanessa Carlton
Olive Snook lay in her bed it was four am, but she was wide awake waiting for herself to stop thinking of Ned, or trying really, it never happened.
"Today," she thought. "I'll tell him I'm head over heals in love with him today." She sighed, why couldn't she tell him, she was sure that he might like her too, but their is always doubt. Olive hated the hurt doubt brought.
Time slowly passed and before she knew it the early summer light streamed in her window. "I should get up," Olive thought. "I need to get up and go to work." Even though it was her day off, there was always things to do. Olive just couldn't get up hours crept by and before she knew it it was 7. She slowly yearned for the day she was missing.
Maybe when she told Ned he would realize that he loved her too and passionately kiss her. "This time," Olive told herself. "I'll tell him."
"What the hell do I do wrong," Olive thought. "Maybe I push him too hard, when I do I always end up on my butt. Whenever I seem to have it the moment fades and slips from my grasp. Can't thinking of Ned long enough to think." Then she did something she was very good at, screaming.
"Olive?" Ned tapped on her door. "Are you alright?" He was so sweet, so beautiful, he was caring, good at baking, he was perfect.
"Except for the fact that my heart is burning up in my chest I'm fine," replied Olive.
"Ok, wait what?" replied Ned, now confused.
"Never mind," Olive stuffed her face into her pillow. She would say too much, she hated herself for it. She said idiotic things around Ned, her heart just went into a panic. She whispered, "If I told you the truth would you love me too?"
Her head was going to explode, her heart was going to burst, she got up and ran out of her bead and started running around her apartment. She thought what she would wear, how she would confess her love, she couldn't go on pretending, it was more then her little body could carry.
"I won't walk away," Olive said. "Not this time. This is the time." She saw Ned's face running through her head.
"No," Olive sighed. "This isn't the time." She ran out the door to face another day without telling the man she loved that she loved him.
Latter that night she jotted down a little song:
It's 4 a.m. and I'm wide awake
Waiting for my thoughts to fade
The flickering of all of my mmistakes
And as the light starts creeping in
I slowly feel the day I'm missing
But I won't even know where to begin
Do I push to hard? I fall too fast
A moment never seems to last
Will I stop long enough to know?
'cause everybody burns
And when it starts to hurt,
I cry
I feel it in my veins
I just can't walk away,
This time
Your words circle in my head
Weigh so heavy on my chest
And I'm crushed by your expectation
I only want to do some good
Too dumb to know if I could
And I just wanna feel the days I'm in
Do I go to far,
Not far enough?
Why can't I keep my big mouth shut?
And do we lead the life that we should?
Everybody burns
And when it starts to hurt,
I cry
I feel it in my veins
I just can't walk away,
This time
Did I say to much again?
I'm just a girl in a panic
If I tell you my truth
Am I getting through?
It just seems I should confess
Who am I to pretend
This is more than I can carry
Everybody burns
And when it starts to hurt,
I cry
I hold my head up high
I know I'll be alright
This time
I feel it in my veins
I just can't walk away
This time
This time,
This time
This time,
This time
It's 4 am and I'm wide awake
Waiting for my thoughts to fade
It's times like these I see your face