Always Darkest Before The Dawn

by Athena0

The darkest point in life is when you are getting so close to the light. When you are so close to achieving something you never thought was a possibility. Sam is left alone when Dean and Cas killed Dick, he was wasting away until a beacon of hope change his life. What happens when one night changes the events of your life in the most significant way and the darkness finally turns i

1. Prologue

Title: Always Darkest Before the Dawn
Series: A Light In The Darkness
Author: Muse
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairings: Sam/Dean,
Characters: Sam, Dean, Henry, Kevin, Amelia, OFC
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: ~64,000
Spoilers: End of season 7 and a lot of season 8

Summary: The darkest point in life is when you are getting so close to the light. When you are so close to achieving something you never thought was a possibility. Sam is left alone when Dean and Cas killed Dick, he was wasting away until a beacon of hope change his life. What happens when one night changes the events of your life in the most significant way and the darkness finally turns into light.

Notes/Warnings: Cannon divergent, Violence, Language, Angst, First time, Smooch, Semi- Case Fic, MPreg, WINCEST , no beta

Always Darkest Before the Dawn

Prologue

Sam has not been feeling well for the last couple of months and today is no exception. He blames this all on the stress of having to deal with the leviathans and having no other option but to receive help from Crowley in order to formulate a plan that would work in killing Roman. His stomach is a string of knots, he feels dizzy because he hasn't been able to keep much of anything in and he is exhausted from lack of rest. But at the same time his adrenaline levels are set on overdrive, because if the plan works, the world would be rid of the threat of the leviathans. Sam knows that for the plan to work he needs to be one hundred percent in, or at least as close as can be, so he drowns all uneasiness and focuses on his objective.

Dean and Cas have Dick cornered in the lab while Sam and Kevin are off defending their perimeters. Dick is right where they want him. Dean sees the opportunity and stabs the bone right through Dick's neck and dark fluid begins to slide off the inflicted wound. The atmosphere is charged with energy and time seems to go fast and slow all at once. Dean feels the energy as something solid as it travels in waves from the leviathan in from of him to the rest of his surroundings. One minute he is in the lab killing the leviathan and covering his face from the exploding mess that is Dick, and the next there is only darkness.

Sam runs into the lab pumped with adrenaline and wanting nothing more than for all of this to be over. He is also fearful that something has gone wrong. Kevin is right behind him and they came to a complete stop once they see Dean stab Dick with God's weapon. Sam feels the small surge of energy that are the residues generated from the sight in from of him. This only intensifies his fear and his focus is directed towards Dean. Dick explodes and out of reflex his arm came up to shield his face and shield Kevin who is standing just behind him. Time stops.

In just a matter of seconds, although it feels like hours, Dean, Cas and Dick are nowhere in sight and Sam and Kevin are left alone in the lab. Sam's heart drops as a million questions race through his head and an endless feeling of despair flows through his body as he tries to make sense of the confusing scene in front of him. The leviathan is gone for certain as there is evidence of this in nearly every inch of the lab in the form of dark fluid that can only be assumed to be Dick's blood. But what is also certain is that Dean is no longer in sight nor is Cas.

Kevin is scared beyond imagination and his voice stutters a little as he mutters, "Sam we should go."

For a moment Sam can't breathe, can't think and his confusion is easily visible. 'Where is Dean?' is the phrase that his mind keeps on repeat for what seems like forever. Sam faintly hears a voice from behind him. He turns his head from side to side until he sees Kevin's face and sees a similar expression of confusion and fear. The next time he turns in the direction where Dean used to be standing, Crowley appears.

"He is gone Sam," says Crowley in what can only be described as a sadistic tone as his lips twitch upwards as if holding back a smile.

Sam is taken aback when he sees Crowley and he suddenly inches closer plagued with a look of confusion, but with a strong will to find out what is going on. Sam does not even register what Crowley just said, and keeps moving towards him determine to get answers.

Sam stops when he is roughly four feet away from Crowley and asks, "Where's Dean?"

Crowley remains unaffected by the emotional human in front of him. He only helped the Winchesters because he needed them to get rid of Dick and the other Leviathans and damn the consequences. And now the leviathans are gone and there is no deal of alliance or profit to be gain from the remaining two in front of him. As it seems, fate has granted him with good fortune as he now has one less hunter behind his back and his sidekick of an angel. He has no idea where Dean and Castiel have gone or if they are dead, and he does not care. He is a demon after all. But right now, in front of him he has even more good fortune; the ability to break down another hunter and take possession of the prophet.

Crowley takes just one step closer and says, "Dean is gone. You can't honestly think you can use one of God's weapons and not expect casualties. It is just the price to pay." He pauses for a moment staring at Sam and there is a look of understanding in Sam's face. He then looks at Kevin, standing quietly behind Sam.

Sam refuses to believe anything coming out of Crowley's mouth. Dean cannot be gone, and it is as simple as that. It suddenly dawns on Sam and he yells, "this was your plan all along, let us do all the work and then go after Kevin. Where are they Crowley?"

Crowley smiles at Sam. "You got what you wanted Sam," Crowley keeps the malicious smile on his face as he continues by saying "Dick is dead. Saved the world, all I want is one little prophet." And with the snap of his fingers two demon spawn appear taking hold of Kevin, and with another snap is as if they were never there.

Sam starts to panic, and his body is betraying him and is letting some of that fear show on his face and body language. By each passing moment the feeling of hopelessness is intensified. He is getting dizzy and he just keeps thinking about how terribly wrong this all has gone. Sam doesn't want this. Yes he wanted Dick gone and the world safe from the wrath of the leviathans but not at this cost. And now Dean and Cas are gone and he couldn't have done anything to prevent Kevin from being taken.

"Sorry Moose, wish I could help. You certainly got a lot on your plate right now." Says Crowley with a hint of a smile which just shows how sorry he truly is.

The next few words out of Crowley's mouth hurt Sam more than all the years he spent in Hell. "It looks like you are well and truly all on your own. " Crowley says just before he disappears.

Sam forgets to breathe after that. All the uneasiness he felt, the dizziness, the tiredness and the endless despair just explodes inside of him. In the next moment his body gives out and he falls to the floor. 'Dean is gone and I'm truly all that's left,' is Sam's last thought before darkness takes hold of him.