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She couldn't believe how quickly she'd been sucked into a world that was not her own. She'd even formed a relationship with someone, someone she wished she could still be with. Although she had had her memories altered it was her personality and a great deal of herself was aware of what she was doing.
Jaffen had been her type, someone strong and kind with some gray hair to distinguish his appearance. True, she'd liked a few men without gray hair but she did prefer it. For some reason it made her feel young and fulfilled some vanity she had indulged from time to time. He was the perfect man for her, and yet she was knocked back into reality, a reality where she couldn't have a relationship with a real person because they were all members of her crew, and if he had come with them he would have been a crew member.
She had cried that night after he left for the planet, heartbroken that she'd lost someone she cared deeply for. Would she ever get home? If she didn't get home she would never have real love in her life, at least not romantic love. She often indulged herself in a relationship with a holographic character, and that was probably as real as it would ever get.