Bella is still shy, but she discovers a hidden talent of singing and songwriting. She writes while Edward is still here, but she doesn't tell him. Then when he leaves she starts to sing even better and write better songs. When a new guy, Trevor, comes to town he offers to help her out with it and one his friends, Jonathan, says they'll play the drums. They start a band and get singed. Three yrs later they first Album hits stores. They get pretty big. On the Today Show is where our story begins. (we're going to pretend that Keane and Evanescence don't exist mmkk?)
I can't believe this is really happening. To me, of all people. I never thought something good would come out of Edward's leaving me.
"We're live in 5…4…3…" the producer yelled and completed it in a whisper, "2..." he used his fingers to say "1".
"Good morning! Hi, I'm Cathy Carnell and with us today we have a wonderfully talented band who just released there debut album that's been number #1 in the record sales for 5 weeks now. May I present to you, Topaz and Onyx!"
Topaz and Onyx had a very obvious reason behind it. I figured it was there inspiration, so they had a right to be recognized. I walked out onto the set and sit down. Jonathan and Trevor sit on each side of me. I take a deep, calming, breath before smiling widely and realizing that I'm the Today show for God's sake.
"How are you this morning?" Katie asked leaning forward in her chair a little and smiling widely; just like me.
"Good, really nervous, but good." I say excitedly. Trevor grabs my hand and squeezes.
"So, first off, how does it feel a hit on your debut album?" she asks. Trevor answers for me.
"Great," he says in his Australian accent, "It feels like its just a dream and I'll wake up sometime." We all laughed at his answer. I envied Trevor's ability to be so calm.
I look down at the ring on my hand and smile. I know that I'll never have Edward again and Trevor was great and I really do love him. He's funny, caring, spontaneous, affectionate and handsome and knows his boundaries. That's why I said yes to his proposal. We hadn't announced it yet though, we would do that on this show.
"So, Bella, you wrote the songs on this album, correct?" she asks me.
"Yes, yes I did." I answer. I was prepared to talk about him.
"I think the reason why you're so big is because of the emotion in these lyrics and the way each of you are so passionate about each word of it." She says. She was absolutely correct. "It makes you feel so…I don't know the right word… somber. But it's a wonderful album."
"Thank you." We all say in unison.
"So Bella, what was the inspiration behind this album and how did it all happen?"
I take a deep breathe before continuing.
"My depression. I suffered from a severe depression when I was senior in high school. I was like a zombie. My father tried everything but nothing could get me out of my depression. I would sit at home and cry and write and sing. And then I met Trevor," I said grabbing his hand again, "and he put my lyrics to music, the piano, and then Jonathan came along a played the drums. I started working out of my depressive state and we got signed."
"You were in a depression? Was it caused by anything particular?"
"Well yes, I was in love and I was completely dependent on him." I could feels the tears start to well up in my eyes. No, I willed myself, I will get through this! " and he left me. I was to dependent on him. it was my mistake, not his." I said as I bit my bottom lip.
"Your mistake? Honey, look at you, obviously he doesn't know what he's missing. You look wonderful!" she said in her excited voice. I blush and giggle.
"Thank you but really, it was my mistake to fall so quickly. Even if it was perfect while it lasted." I reply. Trevor never gets mad when I talk about Edward. He listens and comforts, knowing that he has the power to heal me.
"Well I have to ask, there's one song on your album that just seems out of place," I cut her off there.
"Somewhere Only We Know?" I ask.
"Yes."
"Well I wrote that when things between us started getting distant. We had a meadow and it was beautiful and I got the inspiration from it. Every time we went there the world seemed to let us live peacefully, patching up everything in it."
"O. I bet that was beautiful!" she said excitedly. Suddenly, she got serious. "So, I see you have a ring on your finger. Possible engagement?" I smiled as I looked at Trevor who smiled back.
"Yes!" I squealed. I was much more excited than I thought I could ever be again and the thought of Edward coming back no longer made me happy. If he was to come back, my life would be messed and right now, my life was just great.
Trevor laughed at my obvious excitement. I reached up and kissed him quickly.
"Aww. That's just to sweet! So are you over this mysterious boy from high school." I froze at her words. I wasn't completely over him, but I was getting there.
"Well, umm, Not completely, but I'm getting there. Trevor and Jonathan have helped me so much. Without Trevor, I would probably be 6 feet under right now." I said glumly. Trevor kissed the top of my head, lingering for a moment, and then rested his cheek on it.
"Well, I hear that you've got a few songs your going to perform for us, am I correct?" she asked. I nodded before responding,
"We'll be performing 'Somewhere Only We Know', 'Angels', and our new song, 'Bring Me to Life.'"
"Great! Well, we'll let you guys go get ready and then we'll have you back on!" she said before turning to the camera, "And in the meantime, a woman trapped in a sewer for 3 days comes on after this."
"COMMERCIAL!" someone in the back called and we got up and walked off the stage.
"How's it feel?" Trevor asked.
"What do you mean?" I ask.
"You finally have all that stuff off your chest. Maybe he's watching and he understands that he made the biggest mistake of his life." I smile up at him. He knows exactly what to say and when to say it.
"I love you." He says. I hug him closer.
"I love you too." I reply. Yes, it may not be on the same level as Edward's and I, but it still feels great.
45 minutes later:
We were set up on the stage and we were about to go live. Trevor kissed me one last time before sitting down at the piano.
"Ready, Set, Go." Said the producer.
"Hi, This is Cathy Carnell and I'd like to introduce our performers for today: TOPAZ AND ONYX!"
Trevor began to play with Jonathan right behind him. I took a good luck deep breathe and began to sing.
"I
walked across an empty land I came across a fallen tree Oh simple thing where have
you gone And if you have a minute why don't we
go [Somewhere Only We Know Lyrics on
simple thing where have you
gone And if you have a minute why don't we go This
could be the end of everything
I knew the pathway like the back of my
hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it
made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm
getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're
gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
I felt the branches of it
looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the
place that I've been dreaming of?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So
tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need
somewhere to begin
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end
of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me
when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere
to begin
Talk
about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of
everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
So why don't we go
Somewhere
only we know?"
I completed the song to a roar of applause.
"Thank you, Thank you. I think this next song was probably hardest for me to write. I hope you guys enjoy!" I said through the microphone. I loved to sing and I was happy to be doing it with my fiancé.
The music started up, it was more complex than my last song.
Sparkling
angel I believes Chorus: Sparkling angel,
I couldn't see
You were my saviour in my time of need
Blinded
by faith I couldn't hear
All the whispers, the warnings so
clear
I see the angels
I'll lead them to your door
There's
no escape now
No mercy no more
No remorse cause I still
remember
The smile when you tore me apart
You
took my heart
Deceived me right from the start
You showed me
dreams
I wished they would turn into real
You broke the promise
and made me realize
It was all just a lie
Your dark intentions, your feelings for me
Fallen
angel, tell me why?
What is the reason, the thorn in your eye?
I
see the angels
I'll lead them to your door
[Angels Lyrics on
no escape now
No mercy no
more
No remorse cause I still remember
The smile when you tore
me apart
You took my heart
Deceived me right from the
start
You showed me dreams
I wished they would turn into
real
You broke the promise and made me realize
It was all just
a lie
Could
have been forever This world
may have failed you The smile when you tore me apart
Now we have reached the end
It doesn't give you reason why
You could
have chosen a different path
You
took my heart
Deceived me right from the start
You showed me
dreams
I wished they would turn into real
You broke the promise
and made me realize
It was all just a lie
I took a deep breathe. This song fit almost perfectly for Edward and how I felt about him. Yes, I resented Edward for leaving me, that would never change.
The applause was deafening. This song is the song where my voice sounded extraordinary. I was proud of it.
"I'm glad you guys like that one. It's my pride and joy. Now, this is a song I co-wrote with Trevor, my fiancé." I smiled as I walked to join him by the piano.
The music started and I began to sing
How can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I've become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home
(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I've become
now that I know what I'm without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life
[Bring Me To Life Lyrics on me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I've become
Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life
frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead
Trevor:
all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life
(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I've become
(Bring me to life)
I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside
(Bring me to life)
"Thank you!!" I said as I walked off stage.
"You were great!" Jonathan exclaimed picking me off the ground. When he set me back down I spoke.
"No, we were ALL great!" I said excitedly. I was on a high.
"I know!" said Trevor. He kissed me and I kissed him back. I soon realized that there was a camera in our faces. I smiled at it kissed Trevor again. I was so happy. It was a feeling, that 3 years ago I thought I would never feel again. I knew what I would say to Edward if he ever came back.
I would say no.