All I own is my unrequited desire for Rizzoli and Isles to be together.
What would we like if we liked women?
The question had been circling in Jane's mind for weeks after her under cover case as a lesbian. She thought about it in depth and it actually kept her up nights. She had many different story lines that played out in her mind every time she thought about it, all of them had to do with her and Maura if they liked women. Jane got so tangled up in these stories that she found herself daydreaming about them constantly. One story involved Maura and her getting soaked during a rain storm, and their clothes got soaked through so there was nothing left to imagine. Maura and her giggle at the situation, until one of them touches the other, and time stops. The touch is felt moments after it's occurrence, and the women find themselves frantically touching each other just to feel the other person there. That's when they kiss, and every time Jane imagines Maura's lips against her's her stomach does a little flip and her lower region grows warm. After the first daydream, whenever Jane saw Maura she would begin thinking about her fantasies, and found herself thinking about kissing Maura.
It became obvious to Jane after a week or two that she did in fact like women, or at least one. She found herself thinking about Maura all the time, she even pictured her face before she went to sleep. Maura began her day and ended her day and was every thought in between. When she was around her, nothing else seemed to matter and Jane wanted to capture every moment, that passed by. She began holding Maura's hands after that case a lot more often and found herself wishing she was holding Maura's hand every second of the day. She was in love, and it was getting really intense. Jane wasn't usually like this, she didn't fall in love this hard for anyone ever. In fact Jane wasn't even sure if she had been in love with anyone before Maura.
What would we like if we liked women?
That question haunted Maura, it kept her from sleeping and it kept her from focusing. She had come to the conclusion that if she liked women, she would be attracted to Jane. Jane was not her type at all, but opposites attract and boy do they attract. She had come up with exactly three scenarios in which were possible for her to end up with Jane. 1. If she were a man. 2. If Jane were a man. And 3. If they were honest with themselves and each other. If she were a man she would have nothing stopping her from just making out with Jane. If Jane were a man she wouldn't hesitate to shove Maura against a wall and have her way with her. However since that could never happen, neither wanted to change their gender that much, the only other alternative, just to be honest. Maura had seen Jane ogle her breasts earlier in the bar. Maura had watched when Jane constantly checked her out, and flirted with her. If Maura were honest with herself as well, she would have to say that she was madly in love with Jane if she could only say it out loud, there could be a chance that this could happen. Maura wasn't one for superstitions, but every night since that case at 11:11, she wished for Jane.