Inspired by the song Losing Grip by Avril Lavigne.
I uploaded the wrong chapter by mistake from one of my other fanfics. Sorry for any confusion, here's the right chapter!
Kim and I used to eat lunch together every day until she started dating Jared Stone. Now I sat at the lonesome table of La Push High's cafeteria. I wasn't hungry today either or any other lunch. I don't know why but for some reason I never feel hungry around lunch time. I watched miserably as my former best friend laughed and held Jared's hand over at his table. How could she want to be with someone apart of the La Push gang?
For Pete Sake's he never noticed her before but now that he has, she went willingly with him. I never would understand love but I did know one thing, it wasn't ever going to happen to me. I wouldn't let it. It happened to my sister and she got knocked up at the age of sixteen. Now she's eighteen and her so called "love" is nowhere to be found. Randy left her as soon as he found out she got pregnant. I knew all too well that's what guys wanted from you, sex. I just hope that Kim doesn't get hurt in the process. I really wasn't good with tears and even if our friendship is damaged, I still didn't want to see her get hurt.
I sighed to myself and got up from my lunch table. What's the point in staying in the cafeteria if I didn't have anyone to converse with? I went into the library and got a random book. I started reading it and then got lost in my thoughts once again. I wonder if my parents would get divorced. They have been arguing quite a lot lately. My hands shut the book and I placed it onto the return cart. The bell rung loudly and I forced myself to go to my history class. The past did not amuse me at all, but unfortunately it was the only ticket out of this tiny reservation. Both my father and my mother never went to college. They got married young and produced my sister and me. Both were stuck in this town as well as my sister.
Once again love isn't enough in life. I didn't even pay attention to Mr. Hook's lesson. After school I walked home alone. When I got to my house I groaned at the sound of Isaac crying. Ugh, why did my sister have to get pregnant? It's called condoms! I threw my back pack to the floor and went into the kitchen. My parents were arguing again about money income. My mother went on about how my father wasn't making enough to support us all. I snapped my attention to her. "How about you get a job and quit depending on a man for a change?" I said angrily.
My father looked at me blankly before responding. "Don't talk to your mother like that."
"Or what, you'll ground me. Go right ahead and do that Dad. See what I care." I replied and walked straight out the back door.
"Come back here now!" He shouted at me and I just laughed to myself.
"Make me," I shouted back and took off running into the trees. They wouldn't come after me but I knew better than to take that chance. I managed to make it to my favorite clearing. Flowers bloomed around the grassy area due to the spring time. Only one more month of school left and hello summer! My feet were sore from my run and I had a hard time catching my breath, however the run was definitely worth it. I heard deep gruff voices coming from several feet in front of me. I quietly dodged behind some bushes to avoid whoever was about in the forest.
"When are you finally going to tell Kim," I heard a familiar voice ask, Paul Woods. He was in my grade like Kim and Jared are. We'd be seniors in the fall.
"Later man, things are going good between us." He replied.
"Better do it soon before she flips out." Paul said.
I gulped to myself. What the hell were they hiding? Were they on drugs or something? I kept behind the bushes, destined to find out what they were talking about and what Jared was hiding from Kim.
Jared sighed. "I really care about her. I hope she doesn't freak out too bad."
Really cared about her? They started dating like two months ago! He better not try to get her into bed. I've heard plenty of rumors about Paul Woods and Jared Stone. They probably have slept with half the girls here on the reservation.
"If she does then she does. She can't fight the imprint bond for long. Kim will accept you, trust me." Paul assured his best friend.
Those two have been like peanut butter and jelly since elementary school. "What about you? Are you ever going to ask Callie out?"
"She wouldn't give me a chance even if I got down my knees and begged." Paul replied brusquely.
"You don't know that."
One, what the hell did imprint mean? Two, they were talking about me! Oh damn I did not want to know anymore. I better get out of here before I hear something I do not care to know. I tip toed backwards trying not to make any noise but failed as I heard a twig snap. I sucked in a deep breath and then heard footsteps approach my direction. I was about to make a run for it but freakishly tall Jared and Paul caught sight of me.
"What are you doing out here?" Paul asked curtly.
Oh isn't he a catch, "Taking a walk." I said being semi-honest to him. It wasn't a complete lie, I was running.
"How much did you hear?" Jared asked probably knowing I'd tell Kim.
"All of it," I replied truthfully. I wasn't much of a liar and never liked the concept of it. Once you tell a small lie, you just end up lying more and more.
"Don't tell her," Jared said. "I don't want Kim to worry."
"Maybe she should worry. I know you're just trying to get into her pants. You've never cared about her at all. Hell you didn't even notice her until two months ago." I snapped annoyed at him thinking he could tell me what to do. I did not take orders from others, not even from my parents.
"That's not my intention and I wish I would have noticed her sooner." He replied and I saw a brief flash of sadness in his brown eyes.
I snapped my attention to Paul. "And you're right; I'd never give you a chance. You're a complete jerk and a man whore."
Paul shook a bit but calmed down when Jared placed a hand on his shoulder. "I bet that's what you think of me. Your right, I'd never be good enough for you."
Confusion crossed my mind. Did he really believe that or was he just toying with me? Jared shot a glance to me. "You should head home."
"No thanks," I replied and kept walking. I was surprised as Paul caught hold of my arm.
"Go home Callie. It isn't safe out here," he told me sternly.
I snapped my arm out of his. "Or what, Big Foot will eat me?"
Paul sighed and took my arm gently into his. Jared chuckled as I tried to wiggle out of his iron grasp. Yup, they were definitely on steroids. "Let go!" I said annoyed as he pulled me along with him and Jared.
"No, I'm taking you home. You shouldn't be wandering out here alone. There's been plenty of bear attacks and I won't have you getting hurt." Paul replied seriously.
I sighed and just let him pull me along. It was pointless to try to get out of his grasp. Once we reached my house Paul let go of my arm. I glared at him and made my way to my house. I could feel his eyes staring at me so I snapped my head back and caught his gaze. His eyes were a dark brown almost black. I couldn't pull my light brown eyes from his. It was about a minute of starring before he broke away from the intense gawk. I moved my eyes back to the door of my porch. I climbed up the steps and wondered to myself why that one look felt so right.
Okay so I just had to write this fanfic even if I have plenty up already! Well I hope you enjoyed the first chapter. Thanks for reading and let me know what you all think.