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Rated T for it'sslashifyousquint-ness and slightly dark themes. This is a Seiten Taisei story, after all.
Contains NO real spoilers, unless you know nothing at all of Gaiden.
This was too long for the drabble series, so I created another. ('lol') For drabbles-that-are-too-long-to-be-drabbles. And these will be of a decidedly darker bent than my other drabbles... Hence the title.
This was written, actually, for darthelwig, in response to my drabble request on my livejournal. Here ya go, sis. It's a little weird, but I hope you like it...
Anyway, enjoy. Peace, all.
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Tales From A Rainy Night
Kill. Love. Kill.
by Ghost Helwig
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Everything vibrated with life. But he wanted it all dead, all silent, because it was too loud-
Then, brightness. A golden beam. Streaming light. Strangely cold, for all its warm gold. Strangely quiet... full of peace.
He wanted to love it. Kill it. Love it.
Kill it for leaving him alone for so long (he remembered the light from before, golden and rich and oh-so-alive). Love it for being there, all the time (even when it was gone, it somehow remained; even when the memory was gone), keeping loneliness at bay.
(Even the Great Sage Equal To Heaven knew of loneliness.)
Kill it. Love it. Kill it.
He couldn't decide between the two. So he tried to kill all other life first, until the gold was all that remained.
Then, he always tried to kill it. But he didn't always want to.
The Seiten Taisei wanted so much from Genjyo Sanzo. Death. Life. That sometimes he tried to take both.
Usually, he settled for neither.
--fini the first--